الفصل الفصل 330 · 第330章

In external ways Pierre had hardly changed at all. In appearance he

was just what he used to be. As before he was absent-minded and seemed

occupied not with what was before his eyes but with something special

of his own. The difference between his former and present self was that

formerly when he did not grasp what lay before him or was said to

him, he had puckered his forehead painfully as if vainly seeking to

distinguish something at a distance. At present he still forgot what was

said to him and still did not see what was before his eyes, but he now

looked with a scarcely perceptible and seemingly ironic smile at what

was before him and listened to what was said, though evidently seeing

and hearing something quite different. Formerly he had appeared to be

a kindhearted but unhappy man, and so people had been inclined to avoid

him. Now a smile at the joy of life always played round his lips, and

sympathy for others shone in his eyes with a questioning look as to

whether they were as contented as he was, and people felt pleased by his

presence.

Previously he had talked a great deal, grew excited when he talked, and

seldom listened; now he was seldom carried away in conversation and

knew how to listen so that people readily told him their most intimate

secrets.

The princess, who had never liked Pierre and had been particularly

hostile to him since she had felt herself under obligations to him after

the old count’s death, now after staying a short time in Orël—where she

had come intending to show Pierre that in spite of his ingratitude she

considered it her duty to nurse him—felt to her surprise and vexation

that she had become fond of him. Pierre did not in any way seek her

approval, he merely studied her with interest. Formerly she had felt

that he regarded her with indifference and irony, and so had shrunk into

herself as she did with others and had shown him only the combative side

of her nature; but now he seemed to be trying to understand the most

intimate places of her heart, and, mistrustfully at first but afterwards

gratefully, she let him see the hidden, kindly sides of her character.

The most cunning man could not have crept into her confidence more

successfully, evoking memories of the best times of her youth and

showing sympathy with them. Yet Pierre’s cunning consisted simply in

finding pleasure in drawing out the human qualities of the embittered,

hard, and (in her own way) proud princess.

“Yes, he is a very, very kind man when he is not under the influence of

bad people but of people such as myself,” thought she.

His servants too—Terénty and Váska—in their own way noticed the change

that had taken place in Pierre. They considered that he had become much

“simpler.” Terénty, when he had helped him undress and wished him good

night, often lingered with his master’s boots in his hands and clothes

over his arm, to see whether he would not start a talk. And Pierre,

noticing that Terénty wanted a chat, generally kept him there.

“Well, tell me... now, how did you get food?” he would ask.

And Terénty would begin talking of the destruction of Moscow, and of

the old count, and would stand for a long time holding the clothes and

talking, or sometimes listening to Pierre’s stories, and then would go

out into the hall with a pleasant sense of intimacy with his master and

affection for him.

The doctor who attended Pierre and visited him every day, though he

considered it his duty as a doctor to pose as a man whose every moment

was of value to suffering humanity, would sit for hours with Pierre

telling him his favorite anecdotes and his observations on the

characters of his patients in general, and especially of the ladies.

“It’s a pleasure to talk to a man like that; he is not like our

provincials,” he would say.

There were several prisoners from the French army in Orël, and the

doctor brought one of them, a young Italian, to see Pierre.

This officer began visiting Pierre, and the princess used to make fun of

the tenderness the Italian expressed for him.

The Italian seemed happy only when he could come to see Pierre, talk

with him, tell him about his past, his life at home, and his love,

and pour out to him his indignation against the French and especially

against Napoleon.

“If all Russians are in the least like you, it is sacrilege to fight

such a nation,” he said to Pierre. “You, who have suffered so from the

French, do not even feel animosity toward them.”

Pierre had evoked the passionate affection of the Italian merely by

evoking the best side of his nature and taking a pleasure in so doing.

During the last days of Pierre’s stay in Orël his old Masonic

acquaintance Count Willarski, who had introduced him to the lodge in

1807, came to see him. Willarski was married to a Russian heiress who

had a large estate in Orël province, and he occupied a temporary post in

the commissariat department in that town.

Hearing that Bezúkhov was in Orël, Willarski, though they had never been

intimate, came to him with the professions of friendship and intimacy

that people who meet in a desert generally express for one another.

Willarski felt dull in Orël and was pleased to meet a man of his own

circle and, as he supposed, of similar interests.

But to his surprise Willarski soon noticed that Pierre had lagged much

behind the times, and had sunk, as he expressed it to himself, into

apathy and egotism.

“You are letting yourself go, my dear fellow,” he said.

But for all that Willarski found it pleasanter now than it had been

formerly to be with Pierre, and came to see him every day. To Pierre as

he looked at and listened to Willarski, it seemed strange to think that

he had been like that himself but a short time before.

Willarski was a married man with a family, busy with his family affairs,

his wife’s affairs, and his official duties. He regarded all these

occupations as hindrances to life, and considered that they were all

contemptible because their aim was the welfare of himself and his

family. Military, administrative, political, and Masonic interests

continually absorbed his attention. And Pierre, without trying to

change the other’s views and without condemning him, but with the quiet,

joyful, and amused smile now habitual to him, was interested in this

strange though very familiar phenomenon.

There was a new feature in Pierre’s relations with Willarski, with the

princess, with the doctor, and with all the people he now met, which

gained for him the general good will. This was his acknowledgment of

the impossibility of changing a man’s convictions by words, and his

recognition of the possibility of everyone thinking, feeling, and seeing

things each from his own point of view. This legitimate peculiarity of

each individual which used to excite and irritate Pierre now became a

basis of the sympathy he felt for, and the interest he took in, other

people. The difference, and sometimes complete contradiction, between

men’s opinions and their lives, and between one man and another, pleased

him and drew from him an amused and gentle smile.

In practical matters Pierre unexpectedly felt within himself a center

of gravity he had previously lacked. Formerly all pecuniary questions,

especially requests for money to which, as an extremely wealthy man,

he was very exposed, produced in him a state of hopeless agitation and

perplexity. “To give or not to give?” he had asked himself. “I have

it and he needs it. But someone else needs it still more. Who needs it

most? And perhaps they are both impostors?” In the old days he had been

unable to find a way out of all these surmises and had given to all

who asked as long as he had anything to give. Formerly he had been in a

similar state of perplexity with regard to every question concerning his

property, when one person advised one thing and another something else.

Now to his surprise he found that he no longer felt either doubt or

perplexity about these questions. There was now within him a judge who

by some rule unknown to him decided what should or should not be done.

He was as indifferent as heretofore to money matters, but now he felt

certain of what ought and what ought not to be done. The first time he

had recourse to his new judge was when a French prisoner, a colonel,

came to him and, after talking a great deal about his exploits,

concluded by making what amounted to a demand that Pierre should give

him four thousand francs to send to his wife and children. Pierre

refused without the least difficulty or effort, and was afterwards

surprised how simple and easy had been what used to appear so

insurmountably difficult. At the same time that he refused the colonel’s

demand he made up his mind that he must have recourse to artifice when

leaving Orël, to induce the Italian officer to accept some money of

which he was evidently in need. A further proof to Pierre of his own

more settled outlook on practical matters was furnished by his decision

with regard to his wife’s debts and to the rebuilding of his houses in

and near Moscow.

His head steward came to him at Orël and Pierre reckoned up with him his

diminished income. The burning of Moscow had cost him, according to the

head steward’s calculation, about two million rubles.

To console Pierre for these losses the head steward gave him an estimate

showing that despite these losses his income would not be diminished but

would even be increased if he refused to pay his wife’s debts which he

was under no obligation to meet, and did not rebuild his Moscow house

and the country house on his Moscow estate, which had cost him eighty

thousand rubles a year and brought in nothing.

“Yes, of course that’s true,” said Pierre with a cheerful smile. “I

don’t need all that at all. By being ruined I have become much richer.”

But in January Savélich came from Moscow and gave him an account of the

state of things there, and spoke of the estimate an architect had made

of the cost of rebuilding the town and country houses, speaking of this

as of a settled matter. About the same time he received letters from

Prince Vasíli and other Petersburg acquaintances speaking of his wife’s

debts. And Pierre decided that the steward’s proposals which had so

pleased him were wrong and that he must go to Petersburg and settle his

wife’s affairs and must rebuild in Moscow. Why this was necessary he

did not know, but he knew for certain that it was necessary. His income

would be reduced by three fourths, but he felt it must be done.

Willarski was going to Moscow and they agreed to travel together.

During the whole time of his convalescence in Orël Pierre had

experienced a feeling of joy, freedom, and life; but when during his

journey he found himself in the open world and saw hundreds of new

faces, that feeling was intensified. Throughout his journey he felt like

a schoolboy on holiday. Everyone—the stagecoach driver, the post-house

overseers, the peasants on the roads and in the villages—had a new

significance for him. The presence and remarks of Willarski who

continually deplored the ignorance and poverty of Russia and its

backwardness compared with Europe only heightened Pierre’s pleasure.

Where Willarski saw deadness Pierre saw an extraordinary strength and

vitality—the strength which in that vast space amid the snows maintained

the life of this original, peculiar, and unique people. He did not

contradict Willarski and even seemed to agree with him—an apparent

agreement being the simplest way to avoid discussions that could lead to

nothing—and he smiled joyfully as he listened to him.