الفصل الفصل 2 · Margaret glanced at her sister’s note and pushed it over the
. Margaret glanced at her sister’s note and pushed it over the
breakfast-table to her aunt. There was a moment’s hush, and then the
flood-gates opened.
“I can tell you nothing, Aunt Juley. I know no more than you do. We
met—we only met the father and mother abroad last spring. I know so
little that I didn’t even know their son’s name. It’s all so—” She
waved her hand and laughed a little.
“In that case it is far too sudden.”
“Who knows, Aunt Juley, who knows?”
“But, Margaret dear, I mean we mustn’t be unpractical now that we’ve
come to facts. It is too sudden, surely.”
“Who knows!”
“But Margaret dear—”
“I’ll go for her other letters,” said Margaret. “No, I won’t, I’ll
finish my breakfast. In fact, I haven’t them. We met the Wilcoxes on an
awful expedition that we made from Heidelberg to Speyer. Helen and I
had got it into our heads that there was a grand old cathedral at
Speyer—the Archbishop of Speyer was one of the seven electors—you
know—‘Speyer, Maintz, and Köln.’ Those three sees once commanded the
Rhine Valley and got it the name of Priest Street.”
“I still feel quite uneasy about this business, Margaret.”
“The train crossed by a bridge of boats, and at first sight it looked
quite fine. But oh, in five minutes we had seen the whole thing. The
cathedral had been ruined, absolutely ruined, by restoration; not an
inch left of the original structure. We wasted a whole day, and came
across the Wilcoxes as we were eating our sandwiches in the public
gardens. They too, poor things, had been taken in—they were actually
stopping at Speyer—and they rather liked Helen insisting that they must
fly with us to Heidelberg. As a matter of fact, they did come on next
day. We all took some drives together. They knew us well enough to ask
Helen to come and see them—at least, I was asked too, but Tibby’s
illness prevented me, so last Monday she went alone. That’s all. You
know as much as I do now. It’s a young man out the unknown. She was to
have come back Saturday, but put off till Monday, perhaps on account
of—I don’t know.
She broke off, and listened to the sounds of a London morning. Their
house was in Wickham Place, and fairly quiet, for a lofty promontory of
buildings separated it from the main thoroughfare. One had the sense of
a backwater, or rather of an estuary, whose waters flowed in from the
invisible sea, and ebbed into a profound silence while the waves
without were still beating. Though the promontory consisted of
flats—expensive, with cavernous entrance halls, full of concierges and
palms—it fulfilled its purpose, and gained for the older houses
opposite a certain measure of peace. These, too, would be swept away in
time, and another promontory would rise upon their site, as humanity
piled itself higher and higher on the precious soil of London.
Mrs. Munt had her own method of interpreting her nieces. She decided
that Margaret was a little hysterical, and was trying to gain time by a
torrent of talk. Feeling very diplomatic, she lamented the fate of
Speyer, and declared that never, never should she be so misguided as to
visit it, and added of her own accord that the principles of
restoration were ill understood in Germany. “The Germans,” she said,
“are too thorough, and this is all very well sometimes, but at other
times it does not do.”
“Exactly,” said Margaret; “Germans are too thorough.” And her eyes
began to shine.
“Of course I regard you Schlegels as English,” said Mrs. Munt
hastily—“English to the backbone.”
Margaret leaned forward and stroked her hand.
“And that reminds me—Helen’s letter—”
“Oh, yes, Aunt Juley, I am thinking all right about Helen’s letter. I
know—I must go down and see her. I am thinking about her all right. I
am meaning to go down.”
“But go with some plan,” said Mrs. Munt, admitting into her kindly
voice a note of exasperation. “Margaret, if I may interfere, don’t be
taken by surprise. What do you think of the Wilcoxes? Are they our
sort? Are they likely people? Could they appreciate Helen, who is to my
mind a very special sort of person? Do they care about Literature and
Art? That is most important when you come to think of it. Literature
and Art. Most important. How old would the son be? She says ‘younger
son.’ Would he be in a position to marry? Is he likely to make Helen
happy? Did you gather—”
“I gathered nothing.”
They began to talk at once.
“Then in that case—”
“In that case I can make no plans, don’t you see.”
“On the contrary—”
“I hate plans. I hate lines of action. Helen isn’t a baby.”
“Then in that case, my dear, why go down?”
Margaret was silent. If her aunt could not see why she must go down,
she was not going to tell her. She was not going to say “I love my dear
sister; I must be near her at this crisis of her life.” The affections
are more reticent than the passions, and their expression more subtle.
If she herself should ever fall in love with a man, she, like Helen,
would proclaim it from the house-tops, but as she only loved a sister
she used the voiceless language of sympathy.
“I consider you odd girls,” continued Mrs. Munt, “and very wonderful
girls, and in many ways far older than your years. But—you won’t be
offended?—frankly I feel you are not up to this business. It requires
an older person. Dear, I have nothing to call me back to Swanage.” She
spread out her plump arms. “I am all at your disposal. Let me go down
to this house whose name I forget instead of you.”
“Aunt Juley”—she jumped up and kissed her—“I must, must go to Howards
End myself. You don’t exactly understand, though I can never thank you
properly for offering.”
“I do understand,” retorted Mrs. Munt, with immense confidence. “I go
down in no spirit of interference, but to make inquiries. Inquiries are
necessary. Now, I am going to be rude. You would say the wrong thing;
to a certainty you would. In your anxiety for Helen’s happiness you
would offend the whole of these Wilcoxes by asking one of your
impetuous questions—not that one minds offending them.”
“I shall ask no questions. I have it in Helen’s writing that she and a
man are in love. There is no question to ask as long as she keeps to
that. All the rest isn’t worth a straw. A long engagement if you like,
but inquiries, questions, plans, lines of action—no, Aunt Juley, no.”
Away she hurried, not beautiful, not supremely brilliant, but filled
with something that took the place of both qualities—something best
described as a profound vivacity, a continual and sincere response to
all that she encountered in her path through life.
“If Helen had written the same to me about a shop-assistant or a
penniless clerk—”
“Dear Margaret, do come into the library and shut the door. Your good
maids are dusting the banisters.”
“—or if she had wanted to marry the man who calls for Carter Paterson,
I should have said the same.” Then, with one of those turns that
convinced her aunt that she was not mad really and convinced observers
of another type that she was not a barren theorist, she added: “Though
in the case of Carter Paterson I should want it to be a very long
engagement indeed, I must say.”
“I should think so,” said Mrs. Munt; “and, indeed, I can scarcely
follow you. Now, just imagine if you said anything of that sort to the
Wilcoxes. I understand it, but most good people would think you mad.
Imagine how disconcerting for Helen! What is wanted is a person who
will go slowly, slowly in this business, and see how things are and
where they are likely to lead to.”
Margaret was down on this.
“But you implied just now that the engagement must be broken off.”
“I think probably it must; but slowly.”
“Can you break an engagement off slowly?” Her eyes lit up. “What’s an
engagement made of, do you suppose? I think it’s made of some hard
stuff, that may snap, but can’t break. It is different to the other
ties of life. They stretch or bend. They admit of degree. They’re
different.”
“Exactly so. But won’t you let me just run down to Howards House, and
save you all the discomfort? I will really not interfere, but I do so
thoroughly understand the kind of thing you Schlegels want that one
quiet look round will be enough for me.”
Margaret again thanked her, again kissed her, and then ran upstairs to
see her brother.
He was not so well.
The hay fever had worried him a good deal all night. His head ached,
his eyes were wet, his mucous membrane, he informed her, was in a most
unsatisfactory condition. The only thing that made life worth living
was the thought of Walter Savage Landor, from whose _Imaginary
Conversations_ she had promised to read at frequent intervals during
the day.
It was rather difficult. Something must be done about Helen. She must
be assured that it is not a criminal offence to love at first sight. A
telegram to this effect would be cold and cryptic, a personal visit
seemed each moment more impossible. Now the doctor arrived, and said
that Tibby was quite bad. Might it really be best to accept Aunt
Juley’s kind offer, and to send her down to Howards End with a note?
Certainly Margaret was impulsive. She did swing rapidly from one
decision to another. Running downstairs into the library, she
cried—“Yes, I have changed my mind; I do wish that you would go.”
There was a train from King’s Cross at eleven. At half-past ten Tibby,
with rare self-effacement, fell asleep, and Margaret was able to drive
her aunt to the station.
“You will remember, Aunt Juley, not to be drawn into discussing the
engagement. Give my letter to Helen, and say whatever you feel
yourself, but do keep clear of the relatives. We have scarcely got
their names straight yet, and besides, that sort of thing is so
uncivilized and wrong.
“So uncivilized?” queried Mrs. Munt, fearing that she was losing the
point of some brilliant remark.
“Oh, I used an affected word. I only meant would you please only talk
the thing over with Helen.”
“Only with Helen.”
“Because—” But it was no moment to expound the personal nature of love.
Even Margaret shrank from it, and contented herself with stroking her
good aunt’s hand, and with meditating, half sensibly and half
poetically, on the journey that was about to begin from King’s Cross.
Like many others who have lived long in a great capital, she had strong
feelings about the various railway termini. They are our gates to the
glorious and the unknown. Through them we pass out into adventure and
sunshine, to them alas! we return. In Paddington all Cornwall is latent
and the remoter west; down the inclines of Liverpool Street lie
fenlands and the illimitable Broads; Scotland is through the pylons of
Euston; Wessex behind the poised chaos of Waterloo. Italians realize
this, as is natural; those of them who are so unfortunate as to serve
as waiters in Berlin call the Anhalt Bahnhof the Stazione d’Italia,
because by it they must return to their homes. And he is a chilly
Londoner who does not endow his stations with some personality, and
extend to them, however shyly, the emotions of fear and love.
To Margaret—I hope that it will not set the reader against her—the
station of King’s Cross had always suggested Infinity. Its very
situation—withdrawn a little behind the facile splendours of St.
Pancras—implied a comment on the materialism of life. Those two great
arches, colourless, indifferent, shouldering between them an unlovely
clock, were fit portals for some eternal adventure, whose issue might
be prosperous, but would certainly not be expressed in the ordinary
language of prosperity. If you think this ridiculous, remember that it
is not Margaret who is telling you about it; and let me hasten to add
that they were in plenty of time for the train; that Mrs. Munt, though
she took a second-class ticket, was put by the guard into a first (only
two seconds on the train, one smoking and the other babies—one cannot
be expected to travel with babies); and that Margaret, on her return to
Wickham Place, was confronted with the following telegram:
All over. Wish I had never written. Tell no one.
—Helen
But Aunt Juley was gone—gone irrevocably, and no power on earth could
stop her.