الفصل الفصل 34 · 第34章

IT was her habit to remain in town very late in the summer; she preferred

the house in Washington Square to any other habitation whatever, and it

was under protest that she used to go to the seaside for the month of

August. At the sea she spent her month at an hotel. The year that her

father died she intermitted this custom altogether, not thinking it

consistent with deep mourning; and the year after that she put off her

departure till so late that the middle of August found her still in the

heated solitude of Washington Square. Mrs. Penniman, who was fond of a

change, was usually eager for a visit to the country; but this year she

appeared quite content with such rural impressions as she could gather,

at the parlour window, from the ailantus-trees behind the wooden paling.

The peculiar fragrance of this vegetation used to diffuse itself in the

evening air, and Mrs. Penniman, on the warm nights of July, often sat at

the open window and inhaled it. This was a happy moment for Mrs.

Penniman; after the death of her brother she felt more free to obey her

impulses. A vague oppression had disappeared from her life, and she

enjoyed a sense of freedom of which she had not been conscious since the

memorable time, so long ago, when the Doctor went abroad with Catherine

and left her at home to entertain Morris Townsend. The year that had

elapsed since her brother’s death reminded her—of that happy time,

because, although Catherine, in growing older, had become a person to be

reckoned with, yet her society was a very different thing, as Mrs.

Penniman said, from that of a tank of cold water. The elder lady hardly

knew what use to make of this larger margin of her life; she sat and

looked at it very much as she had often sat, with her poised needle in

her hand, before her tapestry frame. She had a confident hope, however,

that her rich impulses, her talent for embroidery, would still find their

application, and this confidence was justified before many months had

elapsed.

Catherine continued to live in her father’s house in spite of its being

represented to her that a maiden lady of quiet habits might find a more

convenient abode in one of the smaller dwellings, with brown stone

fronts, which had at this time begun to adorn the transverse

thoroughfares in the upper part of the town. She liked the earlier

structure—it had begun by this time to be called an “old” house—and

proposed to herself to end her days in it. If it was too large for a

pair of unpretending gentlewomen, this was better than the opposite

fault; for Catherine had no desire to find herself in closer quarters

with her aunt. She expected to spend the rest of her life in Washington

Square, and to enjoy Mrs. Penniman’s society for the whole of this

period; as she had a conviction that, long as she might live, her aunt

would live at least as long, and always retain her brilliancy and

activity. Mrs. Penniman suggested to her the idea of a rich vitality.

On one of those warm evenings in July of which mention has been made, the

two ladies sat together at an open window, looking out on the quiet

Square. It was too hot for lighted lamps, for reading, or for work; it

might have appeared too hot even for conversation, Mrs. Penniman having

long been speechless. She sat forward in the window, half on the

balcony, humming a little song. Catherine was within the room, in a low

rocking-chair, dressed in white, and slowly using a large palmetto fan.

It was in this way, at this season, that the aunt and niece, after they

had had tea, habitually spent their evenings.

“Catherine,” said Mrs. Penniman at last, “I am going to say something

that will surprise you.”

“Pray do,” Catherine answered; “I like surprises. And it is so quiet

now.”

“Well, then, I have seen Morris Townsend.”

If Catherine was surprised, she checked the expression of it; she gave

neither a start nor an exclamation. She remained, indeed, for some

moments intensely still, and this may very well have been a symptom of

emotion. “I hope he was well,” she said at last.

“I don’t know; he is a great deal changed. He would like very much to

see you.”

“I would rather not see him,” said Catherine quickly.

“I was afraid you would say that. But you don’t seem surprised!”

“I am—very much.”

“I met him at Marian’s,” said Mrs. Penniman. “He goes to Marian’s, and

they are so afraid you will meet him there. It’s my belief that that’s

why he goes. He wants so much to see you.” Catherine made no response

to this, and Mrs. Penniman went on. “I didn’t know him at first; he is

so remarkably changed. But he knew me in a minute. He says I am not in

the least changed. You know how polite he always was. He was coming

away when I came, and we walked a little distance together. He is still

very handsome, only, of course, he looks older, and he is not so—so

animated as he used to be. There was a touch of sadness about him; but

there was a touch of sadness about him before—especially when he went

away. I am afraid he has not been very successful—that he has never got

thoroughly established. I don’t suppose he is sufficiently plodding, and

that, after all, is what succeeds in this world.” Mrs. Penniman had not

mentioned Morris Townsend’s name to her niece for upwards of the fifth of

a century; but now that she had broken the spell, she seemed to wish to

make up for lost time, as if there had been a sort of exhilaration in

hearing herself talk of him. She proceeded, however, with considerable

caution, pausing occasionally to let Catherine give some sign. Catherine

gave no other sign than to stop the rocking of her chair and the swaying

of her fan; she sat motionless and silent. “It was on Tuesday last,”

said Mrs. Penniman, “and I have been hesitating ever since about telling

you. I didn’t know how you might like it. At last I thought that it was

so long ago that you would probably not have any particular feeling. I

saw him again, after meeting him at Marian’s. I met him in the street,

and he went a few steps with me. The first thing he said was about you;

he asked ever so many questions. Marian didn’t want me to speak to you;

she didn’t want you to know that they receive him. I told him I was sure

that after all these years you couldn’t have any feeling about that; you

couldn’t grudge him the hospitality of his own cousin’s house. I said

you would be bitter indeed if you did that. Marian has the most

extraordinary ideas about what happened between you; she seems to think

he behaved in some very unusual manner. I took the liberty of reminding

her of the real facts, and placing the story in its true light. _He_ has

no bitterness, Catherine, I can assure you; and he might be excused for

it, for things have not gone well with him. He has been all over the

world, and tried to establish himself everywhere; but his evil star was

against him. It is most interesting to hear him talk of his evil star.

Everything failed; everything but his—you know, you remember—his proud,

high spirit. I believe he married some lady somewhere in Europe. You

know they marry in such a peculiar matter-of-course way in Europe; a

marriage of reason they call it. She died soon afterwards; as he said to

me, she only flitted across his life. He has not been in New York for

ten years; he came back a few days ago. The first thing he did was to

ask me about you. He had heard you had never married; he seemed very

much interested about that. He said you had been the real romance of his

life.”

Catherine had suffered her companion to proceed from point to point, and

pause to pause, without interrupting her; she fixed her eyes on the

ground and listened. But the last phrase I have quoted was followed by a

pause of peculiar significance, and then, at last, Catherine spoke. It

will be observed that before doing so she had received a good deal of

information about Morris Townsend. “Please say no more; please don’t

follow up that subject.”

“Doesn’t it interest you?” asked Mrs. Penniman, with a certain timorous

archness.

“It pains me,” said Catherine.

“I was afraid you would say that. But don’t you think you could get used

to it? He wants so much to see you.”

“Please don’t, Aunt Lavinia,” said Catherine, getting up from her seat.

She moved quickly away, and went to the other window, which stood open to

the balcony; and here, in the embrasure, concealed from her aunt by the

white curtains, she remained a long time, looking out into the warm

darkness. She had had a great shock; it was as if the gulf of the past

had suddenly opened, and a spectral figure had risen out of it. There

were some things she believed she had got over, some feelings that she

had thought of as dead; but apparently there was a certain vitality in

them still. Mrs. Penniman had made them stir themselves. It was but a

momentary agitation, Catherine said to herself; it would presently pass

away. She was trembling, and her heart was beating so that she could

feel it; but this also would subside. Then, suddenly, while she waited

for a return of her calmness, she burst into tears. But her tears flowed

very silently, so that Mrs. Penniman had no observation of them. It was

perhaps, however, because Mrs. Penniman suspected them that she said no

more that evening about Morris Townsend.