Chapter Chapter 28 · Reunion
. Reunion
Week after week glided away in the St. Clare mansion, and the waves of
life settled back to their usual flow, where that little bark had gone
down. For how imperiously, how coolly, in disregard of all one’s
feeling, does the hard, cold, uninteresting course of daily realities
move on! Still must we eat, and drink, and sleep, and wake again,—still
bargain, buy, sell, ask and answer questions,—pursue, in short, a
thousand shadows, though all interest in them be over; the cold
mechanical habit of living remaining, after all vital interest in it
has fled.
All the interests and hopes of St. Clare’s life had unconsciously wound
themselves around this child. It was for Eva that he had managed his
property; it was for Eva that he had planned the disposal of his time;
and, to do this and that for Eva,—to buy, improve, alter, and arrange,
or dispose something for her,—had been so long his habit, that now she
was gone, there seemed nothing to be thought of, and nothing to be
done.
True, there was another life,—a life which, once believed in, stands as
a solemn, significant figure before the otherwise unmeaning ciphers of
time, changing them to orders of mysterious, untold value. St. Clare
knew this well; and often, in many a weary hour, he heard that slender,
childish voice calling him to the skies, and saw that little hand
pointing to him the way of life; but a heavy lethargy of sorrow lay on
him,—he could not arise. He had one of those natures which could better
and more clearly conceive of religious things from its own perceptions
and instincts, than many a matter-of-fact and practical Christian. The
gift to appreciate and the sense to feel the finer shades and relations
of moral things, often seems an attribute of those whose whole life
shows a careless disregard of them. Hence Moore, Byron, Goethe, often
speak words more wisely descriptive of the true religious sentiment,
than another man, whose whole life is governed by it. In such minds,
disregard of religion is a more fearful treason,—a more deadly sin.
St. Clare had never pretended to govern himself by any religious
obligation; and a certain fineness of nature gave him such an
instinctive view of the extent of the requirements of Christianity,
that he shrank, by anticipation, from what he felt would be the
exactions of his own conscience, if he once did resolve to assume them.
For, so inconsistent is human nature, especially in the ideal, that not
to undertake a thing at all seems better than to undertake and come
short.
Still St. Clare was, in many respects, another man. He read his little
Eva’s Bible seriously and honestly; he thought more soberly and
practically of his relations to his servants,—enough to make him
extremely dissatisfied with both his past and present course; and one
thing he did, soon after his return to New Orleans, and that was to
commence the legal steps necessary to Tom’s emancipation, which was to
be perfected as soon as he could get through the necessary formalities.
Meantime, he attached himself to Tom more and more, every day. In all
the wide world, there was nothing that seemed to remind him so much of
Eva; and he would insist on keeping him constantly about him, and,
fastidious and unapproachable as he was with regard to his deeper
feelings, he almost thought aloud to Tom. Nor would any one have
wondered at it, who had seen the expression of affection and devotion
with which Tom continually followed his young master.
“Well, Tom,” said St. Clare, the day after he had commenced the legal
formalities for his enfranchisement, “I’m going to make a free man of
you;—so have your trunk packed, and get ready to set out for Kentuck.”
The sudden light of joy that shone in Tom’s face as he raised his hands
to heaven, his emphatic “Bless the Lord!” rather discomposed St. Clare;
he did not like it that Tom should be so ready to leave him.
“You haven’t had such very bad times here, that you need be in such a
rapture, Tom,” he said drily.
“No, no, Mas’r! ’tan’t that,—it’s bein’ a _freeman!_ that’s what I’m
joyin’ for.”
“Why, Tom, don’t you think, for your own part, you’ve been better off
than to be free?”
“_No, indeed_, Mas’r St. Clare,” said Tom, with a flash of energy. “No,
indeed!”
“Why, Tom, you couldn’t possibly have earned, by your work, such
clothes and such living as I have given you.”
“Knows all that, Mas’r St. Clare; Mas’r’s been too good; but, Mas’r,
I’d rather have poor clothes, poor house, poor everything, and have ’em
_mine_, than have the best, and have ’em any man’s else,—I had _so_,
Mas’r; I think it’s natur, Mas’r.”
“I suppose so, Tom, and you’ll be going off and leaving me, in a month
or so,” he added, rather discontentedly. “Though why you shouldn’t, no
mortal knows,” he said, in a gayer tone; and, getting up, he began to
walk the floor.
“Not while Mas’r is in trouble,” said Tom. “I’ll stay with Mas’r as
long as he wants me,—so as I can be any use.”
“Not while I’m in trouble, Tom?” said St. Clare, looking sadly out of
the window. . . . “And when will _my_ trouble be over?”
“When Mas’r St. Clare’s a Christian,” said Tom.
“And you really mean to stay by till that day comes?” said St. Clare,
half smiling, as he turned from the window, and laid his hand on Tom’s
shoulder. “Ah, Tom, you soft, silly boy! I won’t keep you till that
day. Go home to your wife and children, and give my love to all.”
“I ’s faith to believe that day will come,” said Tom, earnestly, and
with tears in his eyes; “the Lord has a work for Mas’r.”
“A work, hey?” said St. Clare, “well, now, Tom, give me your views on
what sort of a work it is;—let’s hear.”
“Why, even a poor fellow like me has a work from the Lord; and Mas’r
St. Clare, that has larnin, and riches, and friends,—how much he might
do for the Lord!”
“Tom, you seem to think the Lord needs a great deal done for him,” said
St. Clare, smiling.
“We does for the Lord when we does for his critturs,” said Tom.
“Good theology, Tom; better than Dr. B. preaches, I dare swear,” said
St. Clare.
The conversation was here interrupted by the announcement of some
visitors.
Marie St. Clare felt the loss of Eva as deeply as she could feel
anything; and, as she was a woman that had a great faculty of making
everybody unhappy when she was, her immediate attendants had still
stronger reason to regret the loss of their young mistress, whose
winning ways and gentle intercessions had so often been a shield to
them from the tyrannical and selfish exactions of her mother. Poor old
Mammy, in particular, whose heart, severed from all natural domestic
ties, had consoled itself with this one beautiful being, was almost
heart-broken. She cried day and night, and was, from excess of sorrow,
less skilful and alert in her ministrations of her mistress than usual,
which drew down a constant storm of invectives on her defenceless head.
Miss Ophelia felt the loss; but, in her good and honest heart, it bore
fruit unto everlasting life. She was more softened, more gentle; and,
though equally assiduous in every duty, it was with a chastened and
quiet air, as one who communed with her own heart not in vain. She was
more diligent in teaching Topsy,—taught her mainly from the Bible,—did
not any longer shrink from her touch, or manifest an ill-repressed
disgust, because she felt none. She viewed her now through the softened
medium that Eva’s hand had first held before her eyes, and saw in her
only an immortal creature, whom God had sent to be led by her to glory
and virtue. Topsy did not become at once a saint; but the life and
death of Eva did work a marked change in her. The callous indifference
was gone; there was now sensibility, hope, desire, and the striving for
good,—a strife irregular, interrupted, suspended oft, but yet renewed
again.
One day, when Topsy had been sent for by Miss Ophelia, she came,
hastily thrusting something into her bosom.
“What are you doing there, you limb? You’ve been stealing something,
I’ll be bound,” said the imperious little Rosa, who had been sent to
call her, seizing her, at the same time, roughly by the arm.
“You go ’long, Miss Rosa!” said Topsy, pulling from her; “‘tan’t none
o’ your business!”
“None o’ your sa’ce!” said Rosa, “I saw you hiding something,—I know
yer tricks,” and Rosa seized her arm, and tried to force her hand into
her bosom, while Topsy, enraged, kicked and fought valiantly for what
she considered her rights. The clamor and confusion of the battle drew
Miss Ophelia and St. Clare both to the spot.
“She’s been stealing!” said Rosa.
“I han’t, neither!” vociferated Topsy, sobbing with passion.
“Give me that, whatever it is!” said Miss Ophelia, firmly.
Topsy hesitated; but, on a second order, pulled out of her bosom a
little parcel done up in the foot of one of her own old stockings.
Miss Ophelia turned it out. There was a small book, which had been
given to Topsy by Eva, containing a single verse of Scripture, arranged
for every day in the year, and in a paper the curl of hair that she had
given her on that memorable day when she had taken her last farewell.
St. Clare was a good deal affected at the sight of it; the little book
had been rolled in a long strip of black crape, torn from the funeral
weeds.
“What did you wrap _this_ round the book for?” said St. Clare, holding
up the crape.
“Cause,—cause,—cause ’t was Miss Eva. O, don’t take ’em away, please!”
she said; and, sitting flat down on the floor, and putting her apron
over her head, she began to sob vehemently.
It was a curious mixture of the pathetic and the ludicrous,—the little
old stockings,—black crape,—text-book,—fair, soft curl,—and Topsy’s
utter distress.
St. Clare smiled; but there were tears in his eyes, as he said,
“Come, come,—don’t cry; you shall have them!” and, putting them
together, he threw them into her lap, and drew Miss Ophelia with him
into the parlor.
“I really think you can make something of that concern,” he said,
pointing with his thumb backward over his shoulder. “Any mind that is
capable of a _real sorrow_ is capable of good. You must try and do
something with her.”
“The child has improved greatly,” said Miss Ophelia. “I have great
hopes of her; but, Augustine,” she said, laying her hand on his arm,
“one thing I want to ask; whose is this child to be?—yours or mine?”
“Why, I gave her to you,” said Augustine.
“But not legally;—I want her to be mine legally,” said Miss Ophelia.
“Whew! cousin,” said Augustine. “What will the Abolition Society think?
They’ll have a day of fasting appointed for this backsliding, if you
become a slaveholder!”
“O, nonsense! I want her mine, that I may have a right to take her to
the free States, and give her her liberty, that all I am trying to do
be not undone.”
“O, cousin, what an awful ‘doing evil that good may come’! I can’t
encourage it.”
“I don’t want you to joke, but to reason,” said Miss Ophelia. “There is
no use in my trying to make this child a Christian child, unless I save
her from all the chances and reverses of slavery; and, if you really
are willing I should have her, I want you to give me a deed of gift, or
some legal paper.”
“Well, well,” said St. Clare, “I will;” and he sat down, and unfolded a
newspaper to read.
“But I want it done now,” said Miss Ophelia.
“What’s your hurry?”
“Because now is the only time there ever is to do a thing in,” said
Miss Ophelia. “Come, now, here’s paper, pen, and ink; just write a
paper.”
St. Clare, like most men of his class of mind, cordially hated the
present tense of action, generally; and, therefore, he was considerably
annoyed by Miss Ophelia’s downrightness.
“Why, what’s the matter?” said he. “Can’t you take my word? One would
think you had taken lessons of the Jews, coming at a fellow so!”
“I want to make sure of it,” said Miss Ophelia. “You may die, or fail,
and then Topsy be hustled off to auction, spite of all I can do.”
“Really, you are quite provident. Well, seeing I’m in the hands of a
Yankee, there is nothing for it but to concede;” and St. Clare rapidly
wrote off a deed of gift, which, as he was well versed in the forms of
law, he could easily do, and signed his name to it in sprawling
capitals, concluding by a tremendous flourish.
“There, isn’t that black and white, now, Miss Vermont?” he said, as he
handed it to her.
“Good boy,” said Miss Ophelia, smiling. “But must it not be witnessed?”
“O, bother!—yes. Here,” he said, opening the door into Marie’s
apartment, “Marie, Cousin wants your autograph; just put your name down
here.”
“What’s this?” said Marie, as she ran over the paper. “Ridiculous! I
thought Cousin was too pious for such horrid things,” she added, as she
carelessly wrote her name; “but, if she has a fancy for that article, I
am sure she’s welcome.”
“There, now, she’s yours, body and soul,” said St. Clare, handing the
paper.
“No more mine now than she was before,” Miss Ophelia. “Nobody but God
has a right to give her to me; but I can protect her now.”
“Well, she’s yours by a fiction of law, then,” said St. Clare, as he
turned back into the parlor, and sat down to his paper.
Miss Ophelia, who seldom sat much in Marie’s company, followed him into
the parlor, having first carefully laid away the paper.
“Augustine,” she said, suddenly, as she sat knitting, “have you ever
made any provision for your servants, in case of your death?”
“No,” said St. Clare, as he read on.
“Then all your indulgence to them may prove a great cruelty, by and
by.”
St. Clare had often thought the same thing himself; but he answered,
negligently.
“Well, I mean to make a provision, by and by.”
“When?” said Miss Ophelia.
“O, one of these days.”
“What if you should die first?”
“Cousin, what’s the matter?” said St. Clare, laying down his paper and
looking at her. “Do you think I show symptoms of yellow fever or
cholera, that you are making post mortem arrangements with such zeal?”
“‘In the midst of life we are in death,’” said Miss Ophelia.
St. Clare rose up, and laying the paper down, carelessly, walked to the
door that stood open on the verandah, to put an end to a conversation
that was not agreeable to him. Mechanically, he repeated the last word
again,—_“Death!”_—and, as he leaned against the railings, and watched
the sparkling water as it rose and fell in the fountain; and, as in a
dim and dizzy haze, saw flowers and trees and vases of the courts, he
repeated, again the mystic word so common in every mouth, yet of such
fearful power,—“DEATH!” “Strange that there should be such a word,” he
said, “and such a thing, and we ever forget it; that one should be
living, warm and beautiful, full of hopes, desires and wants, one day,
and the next be gone, utterly gone, and forever!”
It was a warm, golden evening; and, as he walked to the other end of
the verandah, he saw Tom busily intent on his Bible, pointing, as he
did so, with his finger to each successive word, and whispering them to
himself with an earnest air.
“Want me to read to you, Tom?” said St. Clare, seating himself
carelessly by him.
“If Mas’r pleases,” said Tom, gratefully, “Mas’r makes it so much
plainer.”
St. Clare took the book and glanced at the place, and began reading one
of the passages which Tom had designated by the heavy marks around it.
It ran as follows:
“When the Son of man shall come in his glory, and all his holy angels
with him, then shall he sit upon the throne of his glory: and before
him shall be gathered all nations; and he shall separate them one from
another, as a shepherd divideth his sheep from the goats.” St. Clare
read on in an animated voice, till he came to the last of the verses.
“Then shall the king say unto him on his left hand, Depart from me, ye
cursed, into everlasting fire: for I was an hungered, and ye gave me no
meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink: I was a stranger, and ye
took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: I was sick, and in
prison, and ye visited me not. Then shall they answer unto Him, Lord
when saw we thee an hungered, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or
sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? Then shall he say
unto them, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these my
brethren, ye did it not to me.”
St. Clare seemed struck with this last passage, for he read it
twice,—the second time slowly, and as if he were revolving the words in
his mind.
“Tom,” he said, “these folks that get such hard measure seem to have
been doing just what I have,—living good, easy, respectable lives; and
not troubling themselves to inquire how many of their brethren were
hungry or athirst, or sick, or in prison.”
Tom did not answer.
St. Clare rose up and walked thoughtfully up and down the verandah,
seeming to forget everything in his own thoughts; so absorbed was he,
that Tom had to remind him twice that the teabell had rung, before he
could get his attention.
St. Clare was absent and thoughtful, all tea-time. After tea, he and
Marie and Miss Ophelia took possession of the parlor almost in silence.
Marie disposed herself on a lounge, under a silken mosquito curtain,
and was soon sound asleep. Miss Ophelia silently busied herself with
her knitting. St. Clare sat down to the piano, and began playing a soft
and melancholy movement with the Æolian accompaniment. He seemed in a
deep reverie, and to be soliloquizing to himself by music. After a
little, he opened one of the drawers, took out an old music-book whose
leaves were yellow with age, and began turning it over.
“There,” he said to Miss Ophelia, “this was one of my mother’s
books,—and here is her handwriting,—come and look at it. She copied and
arranged this from Mozart’s Requiem.” Miss Ophelia came accordingly.
“It was something she used to sing often,” said St. Clare. “I think I
can hear her now.”
He struck a few majestic chords, and began singing that grand old Latin
piece, the “Dies Iræ.”
Tom, who was listening in the outer verandah, was drawn by the sound to
the very door, where he stood earnestly. He did not understand the
words, of course; but the music and manner of singing appeared to
affect him strongly, especially when St. Clare sang the more pathetic
parts. Tom would have sympathized more heartily, if he had known the
meaning of the beautiful words:—
“Recordare Jesu pie
Quod sum causa tuær viæ
Ne me perdas, illa die
Quærens me sedisti lassus
Redemisti crucem passus
Tantus labor non sit cassus.”[1]
[1] These lines have been thus rather inadequately translated:
“Think, O Jesus, for what reason
Thou endured’st earth’s spite and treason,
Nor me lose, in that dread season;
Seeking me, thy worn feet hasted,
On the cross thy soul death tasted,
Let not all these toils be wasted.”
[Mrs. Stowe’s note.]
St. Clare threw a deep and pathetic expression into the words; for the
shadowy veil of years seemed drawn away, and he seemed to hear his
mother’s voice leading his. Voice and instrument seemed both living,
and threw out with vivid sympathy those strains which the ethereal
Mozart first conceived as his own dying requiem.
When St. Clare had done singing, he sat leaning his head upon his hand
a few moments, and then began walking up and down the floor.
“What a sublime conception is that of a last judgment!” said he,—“a
righting of all the wrongs of ages!—a solving of all moral problems, by
an unanswerable wisdom! It is, indeed, a wonderful image.”
“It is a fearful one to us,” said Miss Ophelia.
“It ought to be to me, I suppose,” said St. Clare stopping,
thoughtfully. “I was reading to Tom, this afternoon, that chapter in
Matthew that gives an account of it, and I have been quite struck with
it. One should have expected some terrible enormities charged to those
who are excluded from Heaven, as the reason; but no,—they are condemned
for _not_ doing positive good, as if that included every possible
harm.”
“Perhaps,” said Miss Ophelia, “it is impossible for a person who does
no good not to do harm.”
“And what,” said St. Clare, speaking abstractedly, but with deep
feeling, “what shall be said of one whose own heart, whose education,
and the wants of society, have called in vain to some noble purpose;
who has floated on, a dreamy, neutral spectator of the struggles,
agonies, and wrongs of man, when he should have been a worker?”
“I should say,” said Miss Ophelia, “that he ought to repent, and begin
now.”
“Always practical and to the point!” said St. Clare, his face breaking
out into a smile. “You never leave me any time for general reflections,
Cousin; you always bring me short up against the actual present; you
have a kind of eternal _now_, always in your mind.”
“_Now_ is all the time I have anything to do with,” said Miss Ophelia.
“Dear little Eva,—poor child!” said St. Clare, “she had set her little
simple soul on a good work for me.”
It was the first time since Eva’s death that he had ever said as many
words as these to her, and he spoke now evidently repressing very
strong feeling.
“My view of Christianity is such,” he added, “that I think no man can
consistently profess it without throwing the whole weight of his being
against this monstrous system of injustice that lies at the foundation
of all our society; and, if need be, sacrificing himself in the battle.
That is, I mean that _I_ could not be a Christian otherwise, though I
have certainly had intercourse with a great many enlightened and
Christian people who did no such thing; and I confess that the apathy
of religious people on this subject, their want of perception of wrongs
that filled me with horror, have engendered in me more scepticism than
any other thing.”
“If you knew all this,” said Miss Ophelia, “why didn’t you do it?”
“O, because I have had only that kind of benevolence which consists in
lying on a sofa, and cursing the church and clergy for not being
martyrs and confessors. One can see, you know, very easily, how others
ought to be martyrs.”
“Well, are you going to do differently now?” said Miss Ophelia.
“God only knows the future,” said St. Clare. “I am braver than I was,
because I have lost all; and he who has nothing to lose can afford all
risks.”
“And what are you going to do?”
“My duty, I hope, to the poor and lowly, as fast as I find it out,”
said St. Clare, “beginning with my own servants, for whom I have yet
done nothing; and, perhaps, at some future day, it may appear that I
can do something for a whole class; something to save my country from
the disgrace of that false position in which she now stands before all
civilized nations.”
“Do you suppose it possible that a nation ever will voluntarily
emancipate?” said Miss Ophelia.
“I don’t know,” said St. Clare. “This is a day of great deeds. Heroism
and disinterestedness are rising up, here and there, in the earth. The
Hungarian nobles set free millions of serfs, at an immense pecuniary
loss; and, perhaps, among us may be found generous spirits, who do not
estimate honor and justice by dollars and cents.”
“I hardly think so,” said Miss Ophelia.
“But, suppose we should rise up tomorrow and emancipate, who would
educate these millions, and teach them how to use their freedom? They
never would rise to do much among us. The fact is, we are too lazy and
unpractical, ourselves, ever to give them much of an idea of that
industry and energy which is necessary to form them into men. They will
have to go north, where labor is the fashion,—the universal custom; and
tell me, now, is there enough Christian philanthropy, among your
northern states, to bear with the process of their education and
elevation? You send thousands of dollars to foreign missions; but could
you endure to have the heathen sent into your towns and villages, and
give your time, and thoughts, and money, to raise them to the Christian
standard? That’s what I want to know. If we emancipate, are you willing
to educate? How many families, in your town, would take a negro man and
woman, teach them, bear with them, and seek to make them Christians?
How many merchants would take Adolph, if I wanted to make him a clerk;
or mechanics, if I wanted him taught a trade? If I wanted to put Jane
and Rosa to a school, how many schools are there in the northern states
that would take them in? how many families that would board them? and
yet they are as white as many a woman, north or south. You see, Cousin,
I want justice done us. We are in a bad position. We are the more
_obvious_ oppressors of the negro; but the unchristian prejudice of the
north is an oppressor almost equally severe.”
“Well, Cousin, I know it is so,” said Miss Ophelia,—“I know it was so
with me, till I saw that it was my duty to overcome it; but, I trust I
have overcome it; and I know there are many good people at the north,
who in this matter need only to be _taught_ what their duty is, to do
it. It would certainly be a greater self-denial to receive heathen
among us, than to send missionaries to them; but I think we would do
it.”
“_You_ would, I know,” said St. Clare. “I’d like to see anything you
wouldn’t do, if you thought it your duty!”
“Well, I’m not uncommonly good,” said Miss Ophelia. “Others would, if
they saw things as I do. I intend to take Topsy home, when I go. I
suppose our folks will wonder, at first; but I think they will be
brought to see as I do. Besides, I know there are many people at the
north who do exactly what you said.”
“Yes, but they are a minority; and, if we should begin to emancipate to
any extent, we should soon hear from you.”
Miss Ophelia did not reply. There was a pause of some moments; and St.
Clare’s countenance was overcast by a sad, dreamy expression.
“I don’t know what makes me think of my mother so much, tonight,” he
said. “I have a strange kind of feeling, as if she were near me. I keep
thinking of things she used to say. Strange, what brings these past
things so vividly back to us, sometimes!”
St. Clare walked up and down the room for some minutes more, and then
said,
“I believe I’ll go down street, a few moments, and hear the news,
tonight.”
He took his hat, and passed out.
Tom followed him to the passage, out of the court, and asked if he
should attend him.
“No, my boy,” said St. Clare. “I shall be back in an hour.”
Tom sat down in the verandah. It was a beautiful moonlight evening, and
he sat watching the rising and falling spray of the fountain, and
listening to its murmur. Tom thought of his home, and that he should
soon be a free man, and able to return to it at will. He thought how he
should work to buy his wife and boys. He felt the muscles of his brawny
arms with a sort of joy, as he thought they would soon belong to
himself, and how much they could do to work out the freedom of his
family. Then he thought of his noble young master, and, ever second to
that, came the habitual prayer that he had always offered for him; and
then his thoughts passed on to the beautiful Eva, whom he now thought
of among the angels; and he thought till he almost fancied that that
bright face and golden hair were looking upon him, out of the spray of
the fountain. And, so musing, he fell asleep, and dreamed he saw her
coming bounding towards him, just as she used to come, with a wreath of
jessamine in her hair, her cheeks bright, and her eyes radiant with
delight; but, as he looked, she seemed to rise from the ground; her
cheeks wore a paler hue,—her eyes had a deep, divine radiance, a golden
halo seemed around her head,—and she vanished from his sight; and Tom
was awakened by a loud knocking, and a sound of many voices at the
gate.
He hastened to undo it; and, with smothered voices and heavy tread,
came several men, bringing a body, wrapped in a cloak, and lying on a
shutter. The light of the lamp fell full on the face; and Tom gave a
wild cry of amazement and despair, that rung through all the galleries,
as the men advanced, with their burden, to the open parlor door, where
Miss Ophelia still sat knitting.
St. Clare had turned into a cafe, to look over an evening paper. As he
was reading, an affray arose between two gentlemen in the room, who
were both partially intoxicated. St. Clare and one or two others made
an effort to separate them, and St. Clare received a fatal stab in the
side with a bowie-knife, which he was attempting to wrest from one of
them.
The house was full of cries and lamentations, shrieks and screams,
servants frantically tearing their hair, throwing themselves on the
ground, or running distractedly about, lamenting. Tom and Miss Ophelia
alone seemed to have any presence of mind; for Marie was in strong
hysteric convulsions. At Miss Ophelia’s direction, one of the lounges
in the parlor was hastily prepared, and the bleeding form laid upon it.
St. Clare had fainted, through pain and loss of blood; but, as Miss
Ophelia applied restoratives, he revived, opened his eyes, looked
fixedly on them, looked earnestly around the room, his eyes travelling
wistfully over every object, and finally they rested on his mother’s
picture.
The physician now arrived, and made his examination. It was evident,
from the expression of his face, that there was no hope; but he applied
himself to dressing the wound, and he and Miss Ophelia and Tom
proceeded composedly with this work, amid the lamentations and sobs and
cries of the affrighted servants, who had clustered about the doors and
windows of the verandah.
“Now,” said the physician, “we must turn all these creatures out; all
depends on his being kept quiet.”
St. Clare opened his eyes, and looked fixedly on the distressed beings,
whom Miss Ophelia and the doctor were trying to urge from the
apartment. “Poor creatures!” he said, and an expression of bitter
self-reproach passed over his face. Adolph absolutely refused to go.
Terror had deprived him of all presence of mind; he threw himself along
the floor, and nothing could persuade him to rise. The rest yielded to
Miss Ophelia’s urgent representations, that their master’s safety
depended on their stillness and obedience.
St. Clare could say but little; he lay with his eyes shut, but it was
evident that he wrestled with bitter thoughts. After a while, he laid
his hand on Tom’s, who was kneeling beside him, and said, “Tom! poor
fellow!”
“What, Mas’r?” said Tom, earnestly.
“I am dying!” said St. Clare, pressing his hand; “pray!”
“If you would like a clergyman—” said the physician.
St. Clare hastily shook his head, and said again to Tom, more
earnestly, “Pray!”
And Tom did pray, with all his mind and strength, for the soul that was
passing,—the soul that seemed looking so steadily and mournfully from
those large, melancholy blue eyes. It was literally prayer offered with
strong crying and tears.
When Tom ceased to speak, St. Clare reached out and took his hand,
looking earnestly at him, but saying nothing. He closed his eyes, but
still retained his hold; for, in the gates of eternity, the black hand
and the white hold each other with an equal clasp. He murmured softly
to himself, at broken intervals,
“Recordare Jesu pie—
* * * *
Ne me perdas—illa die
Quærens me—sedisti lassus.”
It was evident that the words he had been singing that evening were
passing through his mind,—words of entreaty addressed to Infinite Pity.
His lips moved at intervals, as parts of the hymn fell brokenly from
them.
“His mind is wandering,” said the doctor.
“No! it is coming HOME, at last!” said St. Clare, energetically; “at
last! at last!”
The effort of speaking exhausted him. The sinking paleness of death
fell on him; but with it there fell, as if shed from the wings of some
pitying spirit, a beautiful expression of peace, like that of a wearied
child who sleeps.
So he lay for a few moments. They saw that the mighty hand was on him.
Just before the spirit parted, he opened his eyes, with a sudden light,
as of joy and recognition, and said _“Mother!”_ and then he was gone!