Chapter Chapter 1 · 第1章

Selden paused in surprise. In the afternoon rush of the Grand

Central Station his eyes had been refreshed by the sight of Miss

Lily Bart.

It was a Monday in early September, and he was returning to his

work from a hurried dip into the country; but what was Miss Bart

doing in town at that season? If she had appeared to be catching a

train, he might have inferred that he had come on her in the act

of transition between one and another of the country houses which

disputed her presence after the close of the Newport season; but

her desultory air perplexed him. She stood apart from the crowd,

letting it drift by her to the platform or the street, and wearing

an air of irresolution which might, as he surmised, be the mask of

a very definite purpose. It struck him at once that she was waiting

for some one, but he hardly knew why the idea arrested him. There

was nothing new about Lily Bart, yet he could never see her without

a faint movement of interest: it was characteristic of her that she

always roused speculation, that her simplest acts seemed the result

of far-reaching intentions.

An impulse of curiosity made him turn out of his direct line to the

door, and stroll past her. He knew that if she did not wish to be

seen she would contrive to elude him; and it amused him to think of

putting her skill to the test.

“Mr. Selden—what good luck!”

She came forward smiling, eager almost, in her resolve to intercept

him. One or two persons, in brushing past them, lingered to look;

for Miss Bart was a figure to arrest even the suburban traveller

rushing to his last train.

Selden had never seen her more radiant. Her vivid head, relieved

against the dull tints of the crowd, made her more conspicuous than

in a ball-room, and under her dark hat and veil she regained the

girlish smoothness, the purity of tint, that she was beginning to

lose after eleven years of late hours and indefatigable dancing.

Was it really eleven years, Selden found himself wondering, and had

she indeed reached the nine-and-twentieth birthday with which her

rivals credited her?

“What luck!” she repeated. “How nice of you to come to my rescue!”

He responded joyfully that to do so was his mission in life, and

asked what form the rescue was to take.

“Oh, almost any—even to sitting on a bench and talking to me. One

sits out a cotillion—why not sit out a train? It isn’t a bit hotter

here than in Mrs. Van Osburgh’s conservatory—and some of the women

are not a bit uglier.” She broke off, laughing, to explain that she

had come up to town from Tuxedo, on her way to the Gus Trenors’ at

Bellomont, and had missed the three-fifteen train to Rhinebeck.

“And there isn’t another till half-past five.” She consulted the

little jewelled watch among her laces. “Just two hours to wait. And

I don’t know what to do with myself. My maid came up this morning

to do some shopping for me, and was to go on to Bellomont at one

o’clock, and my aunt’s house is closed, and I don’t know a soul in

town.” She glanced plaintively about the station. “It IS hotter

than Mrs. Van Osburgh’s, after all. If you can spare the time, do

take me somewhere for a breath of air.”

He declared himself entirely at her disposal: the adventure struck

him as diverting. As a spectator, he had always enjoyed Lily Bart;

and his course lay so far out of her orbit that it amused him to

be drawn for a moment into the sudden intimacy which her proposal

implied.

“Shall we go over to Sherry’s for a cup of tea?”

She smiled assentingly, and then made a slight grimace.

“So many people come up to town on a Monday—one is sure to meet a

lot of bores. I’m as old as the hills, of course, and it ought not

to make any difference; but if I’M old enough, you’re not,” she

objected gaily. “I’m dying for tea—but isn’t there a quieter place?”

He answered her smile, which rested on him vividly. Her discretions

interested him almost as much as her imprudences: he was so sure

that both were part of the same carefully-elaborated plan. In

judging Miss Bart, he had always made use of the “argument from

design.”

“The resources of New York are rather meagre,” he said; “but I’ll

find a hansom first, and then we’ll invent something.” He led her

through the throng of returning holiday-makers, past sallow-faced

girls in preposterous hats, and flat-chested women struggling with

paper bundles and palm-leaf fans. Was it possible that she belonged

to the same race? The dinginess, the crudity of this average

section of womanhood made him feel how highly specialized she was.

A rapid shower had cooled the air, and clouds still hung

refreshingly over the moist street.

“How delicious! Let us walk a little,” she said as they emerged

from the station.

They turned into Madison Avenue and began to stroll northward.

As she moved beside him, with her long light step, Selden was

conscious of taking a luxurious pleasure in her nearness: in the

modelling of her little ear, the crisp upward wave of her hair—was

it ever so slightly brightened by art?—and the thick planting

of her straight black lashes. Everything about her was at once

vigorous and exquisite, at once strong and fine. He had a confused

sense that she must have cost a great deal to make, that a great

many dull and ugly people must, in some mysterious way, have

been sacrificed to produce her. He was aware that the qualities

distinguishing her from the herd of her sex were chiefly external:

as though a fine glaze of beauty and fastidiousness had been

applied to vulgar clay. Yet the analogy left him unsatisfied, for a

coarse texture will not take a high finish; and was it not possible

that the material was fine, but that circumstance had fashioned it

into a futile shape?

As he reached this point in his speculations the sun came out, and

her lifted parasol cut off his enjoyment. A moment or two later she

paused with a sigh.

“Oh, dear, I’m so hot and thirsty—and what a hideous place New York

is!” She looked despairingly up and down the dreary thoroughfare.

“Other cities put on their best clothes in summer, but New York

seems to sit in its shirtsleeves.” Her eyes wandered down one of

the side streets. “Someone has had the humanity to plant a few

trees over there. Let us go into the shade.”

“I am glad my street meets with your approval,” said Selden as they

turned the corner.

“Your street? Do you live here?”

She glanced with interest along the new brick and limestone

house-fronts, fantastically varied in obedience to the American

craving for novelty, but fresh and inviting with their awnings and

flower-boxes.

“Ah, yes—to be sure: THE BENEDICK. What a nice-looking building!

I don’t think I’ve ever seen it before.” She looked across at the

flat-house with its marble porch and pseudo-Georgian facade. “Which

are your windows? Those with the awnings down?”

“On the top floor—yes.”

“And that nice little balcony is yours? How cool it looks up there!”

He paused a moment. “Come up and see,” he suggested. “I can give

you a cup of tea in no time—and you won’t meet any bores.”

Her colour deepened—she still had the art of blushing at the right

time—but she took the suggestion as lightly as it was made.

“Why not? It’s too tempting—I’ll take the risk,” she declared.

“Oh, I’m not dangerous,” he said in the same key. In truth, he

had never liked her as well as at that moment. He knew she had

accepted without afterthought: he could never be a factor in her

calculations, and there was a surprise, a refreshment almost, in

the spontaneity of her consent.

On the threshold he paused a moment, feeling for his latchkey.

“There’s no one here; but I have a servant who is supposed to come

in the mornings, and it’s just possible he may have put out the

tea-things and provided some cake.”

He ushered her into a slip of a hall hung with old prints. She

noticed the letters and notes heaped on the table among his gloves

and sticks; then she found herself in a small library, dark but

cheerful, with its walls of books, a pleasantly faded Turkey rug,

a littered desk and, as he had foretold, a tea-tray on a low table

near the window. A breeze had sprung up, swaying inward the muslin

curtains, and bringing a fresh scent of mignonette and petunias

from the flower-box on the balcony.

Lily sank with a sigh into one of the shabby leather chairs.

“How delicious to have a place like this all to one’s self! What a

miserable thing it is to be a woman.” She leaned back in a luxury

of discontent.

Selden was rummaging in a cupboard for the cake.

“Even women,” he said, “have been known to enjoy the privileges of

a flat.”

“Oh, governesses—or widows. But not girls—not poor, miserable,

marriageable girls!”

“I even know a girl who lives in a flat.”

She sat up in surprise. “You do?”

“I do,” he assured her, emerging from the cupboard with the

sought-for cake.

“Oh, I know—you mean Gerty Farish.” She smiled a little unkindly.

“But I said MARRIAGEABLE—and besides, she has a horrid little

place, and no maid, and such queer things to eat. Her cook does the

washing and the food tastes of soap. I should hate that, you know.”

“You shouldn’t dine with her on wash-days,” said Selden, cutting

the cake.

They both laughed, and he knelt by the table to light the lamp

under the kettle, while she measured out the tea into a little

tea-pot of green glaze. As he watched her hand, polished as a

bit of old ivory, with its slender pink nails, and the sapphire

bracelet slipping over her wrist, he was struck with the irony

of suggesting to her such a life as his cousin Gertrude Farish

had chosen. She was so evidently the victim of the civilization

which had produced her, that the links of her bracelet seemed like

manacles chaining her to her fate.

She seemed to read his thought. “It was horrid of me to say that of

Gerty,” she said with charming compunction. “I forgot she was your

cousin. But we’re so different, you know: she likes being good,

and I like being happy. And besides, she is free and I am not. If

I were, I daresay I could manage to be happy even in her flat. It

must be pure bliss to arrange the furniture just as one likes, and

give all the horrors to the ash-man. If I could only do over my

aunt’s drawing-room I know I should be a better woman.”

“Is it so very bad?” he asked sympathetically.

She smiled at him across the tea-pot which she was holding up to be

filled.

“That shows how seldom you come there. Why don’t you come oftener?”

“When I do come, it’s not to look at Mrs. Peniston’s furniture.”

“Nonsense,” she said. “You don’t come at all—and yet we get on so

well when we meet.”

“Perhaps that’s the reason,” he answered promptly. “I’m afraid

I haven’t any cream, you know—shall you mind a slice of lemon

instead?”

“I shall like it better.” She waited while he cut the lemon and

dropped a thin disk into her cup. “But that is not the reason,” she

insisted.

“The reason for what?”

“For your never coming.” She leaned forward with a shade of

perplexity in her charming eyes. “I wish I knew—I wish I could make

you out. Of course I know there are men who don’t like me—one can

tell that at a glance. And there are others who are afraid of me:

they think I want to marry them.” She smiled up at him frankly.

“But I don’t think you dislike me—and you can’t possibly think I

want to marry you.”

“No—I absolve you of that,” he agreed.

“Well, then——?”

He had carried his cup to the fireplace, and stood leaning against

the chimney-piece and looking down on her with an air of indolent

amusement. The provocation in her eyes increased his amusement—he

had not supposed she would waste her powder on such small game; but

perhaps she was only keeping her hand in; or perhaps a girl of her

type had no conversation but of the personal kind. At any rate, she

was amazingly pretty, and he had asked her to tea and must live up

to his obligations.

“Well, then,” he said with a plunge, “perhaps THAT’S the reason.”

“What?”

“The fact that you don’t want to marry me. Perhaps I don’t regard

it as such a strong inducement to go and see you.” He felt a slight

shiver down his spine as he ventured this, but her laugh reassured

him.

“Dear Mr. Selden, that wasn’t worthy of you. It’s stupid of you to

make love to me, and it isn’t like you to be stupid.” She leaned

back, sipping her tea with an air so enchantingly judicial that,

if they had been in her aunt’s drawing-room, he might almost have

tried to disprove her deduction.

“Don’t you see,” she continued, “that there are men enough to say

pleasant things to me, and that what I want is a friend who won’t

be afraid to say disagreeable ones when I need them? Sometimes I

have fancied you might be that friend—I don’t know why, except that

you are neither a prig nor a bounder, and that I shouldn’t have

to pretend with you or be on my guard against you.” Her voice had

dropped to a note of seriousness, and she sat gazing up at him with

the troubled gravity of a child.

“You don’t know how much I need such a friend,” she said. “My aunt

is full of copy-book axioms, but they were all meant to apply to

conduct in the early fifties. I always feel that to live up to them

would include wearing book-muslin with gigot sleeves. And the other

women—my best friends—well, they use me or abuse me; but they don’t

care a straw what happens to me. I’ve been about too long—people

are getting tired of me; they are beginning to say I ought to marry.”

There was a moment’s pause, during which Selden meditated one or

two replies calculated to add a momentary zest to the situation;

but he rejected them in favour of the simple question: “Well, why

don’t you?”

She coloured and laughed. “Ah, I see you ARE a friend after all,

and that is one of the disagreeable things I was asking for.”

“It wasn’t meant to be disagreeable,” he returned amicably. “Isn’t

marriage your vocation? Isn’t it what you’re all brought up for?”

She sighed. “I suppose so. What else is there?”

“Exactly. And so why not take the plunge and have it over?”

She shrugged her shoulders. “You speak as if I ought to marry the

first man who came along.”

“I didn’t mean to imply that you are as hard put to it as that. But

there must be some one with the requisite qualifications.”

She shook her head wearily. “I threw away one or two good chances

when I first came out—I suppose every girl does; and you know I

am horribly poor—and very expensive. I must have a great deal of

money.”

Selden had turned to reach for a cigarette-box on the mantelpiece.

“What’s become of Dillworth?” he asked.

“Oh, his mother was frightened—she was afraid I should have all the

family jewels reset. And she wanted me to promise that I wouldn’t

do over the drawing-room.”

“The very thing you are marrying for!”

“Exactly. So she packed him off to India.”

“Hard luck—but you can do better than Dillworth.”

He offered the box, and she took out three or four cigarettes,

putting one between her lips and slipping the others into a little

gold case attached to her long pearl chain.

“Have I time? Just a whiff, then.” She leaned forward, holding the

tip of her cigarette to his. As she did so, he noted, with a purely

impersonal enjoyment, how evenly the black lashes were set in her

smooth white lids, and how the purplish shade beneath them melted

into the pure pallor of the cheek.

She began to saunter about the room, examining the bookshelves

between the puffs of her cigarette-smoke. Some of the volumes

had the ripe tints of good tooling and old morocco, and her eyes

lingered on them caressingly, not with the appreciation of the

expert, but with the pleasure in agreeable tones and textures that

was one of her inmost susceptibilities. Suddenly her expression

changed from desultory enjoyment to active conjecture, and she

turned to Selden with a question.

“You collect, don’t you—you know about first editions and things?”

“As much as a man may who has no money to spend. Now and then I

pick up something in the rubbish heap; and I go and look on at the

big sales.”

She had again addressed herself to the shelves, but her eyes now

swept them inattentively, and he saw that she was preoccupied with

a new idea.

“And Americana—do you collect Americana?”

Selden stared and laughed.

“No, that’s rather out of my line. I’m not really a collector, you

see; I simply like to have good editions of the books I am fond of.”

She made a slight grimace. “And Americana are horribly dull, I

suppose?”

“I should fancy so—except to the historian. But your real collector

values a thing for its rarity. I don’t suppose the buyers of

Americana sit up reading them all night—old Jefferson Gryce

certainly didn’t.”

She was listening with keen attention. “And yet they fetch fabulous

prices, don’t they? It seems so odd to want to pay a lot for an

ugly badly-printed book that one is never going to read! And I

suppose most of the owners of Americana are not historians either?”

“No; very few of the historians can afford to buy them. They have

to use those in the public libraries or in private collections. It

seems to be the mere rarity that attracts the average collector.”

He had seated himself on an arm of the chair near which she was

standing, and she continued to question him, asking which were the

rarest volumes, whether the Jefferson Gryce collection was really

considered the finest in the world, and what was the largest price

ever fetched by a single volume.

It was so pleasant to sit there looking up at her, as she lifted

now one book and then another from the shelves, fluttering the

pages between her fingers, while her drooping profile was outlined

against the warm background of old bindings, that he talked on

without pausing to wonder at her sudden interest in so unsuggestive

a subject. But he could never be long with her without trying to

find a reason for what she was doing, and as she replaced his

first edition of La Bruyere and turned away from the bookcases,

he began to ask himself what she had been driving at. Her next

question was not of a nature to enlighten him. She paused before

him with a smile which seemed at once designed to admit him to her

familiarity, and to remind him of the restrictions it imposed.

“Don’t you ever mind,” she asked suddenly, “not being rich enough

to buy all the books you want?”

He followed her glance about the room, with its worn furniture and

shabby walls.

“Don’t I just? Do you take me for a saint on a pillar?”

“And having to work—do you mind that?”

“Oh, the work itself is not so bad—I’m rather fond of the law.”

“No; but the being tied down: the routine—don’t you ever want to

get away, to see new places and people?”

“Horribly—especially when I see all my friends rushing to the

steamer.”

She drew a sympathetic breath. “But do you mind enough—to marry to

get out of it?”

Selden broke into a laugh. “God forbid!” he declared.

She rose with a sigh, tossing her cigarette into the grate.

“Ah, there’s the difference—a girl must, a man may if he chooses.”

She surveyed him critically. “Your coat’s a little shabby—but who

cares? It doesn’t keep people from asking you to dine. If I were

shabby no one would have me: a woman is asked out as much for

her clothes as for herself. The clothes are the background, the

frame, if you like: they don’t make success, but they are a part

of it. Who wants a dingy woman? We are expected to be pretty and

well-dressed till we drop—and if we can’t keep it up alone, we have

to go into partnership.”

Selden glanced at her with amusement: it was impossible, even with

her lovely eyes imploring him, to take a sentimental view of her

case.

“Ah, well, there must be plenty of capital on the look-out for

such an investment. Perhaps you’ll meet your fate tonight at the

Trenors’.”

She returned his look interrogatively.

“I thought you might be going there—oh, not in that capacity! But

there are to be a lot of your set—Gwen Van Osburgh, the Wetheralls,

Lady Cressida Raith—and the George Dorsets.”

She paused a moment before the last name, and shot a query through

her lashes; but he remained imperturbable.

“Mrs. Trenor asked me; but I can’t get away till the end of the

week; and those big parties bore me.”

“Ah, so they do me,” she exclaimed.

“Then why go?”

“It’s part of the business—you forget! And besides, if I didn’t, I

should be playing bezique with my aunt at Richfield Springs.”

“That’s almost as bad as marrying Dillworth,” he agreed, and they

both laughed for pure pleasure in their sudden intimacy.

She glanced at the clock.

“Dear me! I must be off. It’s after five.”

She paused before the mantelpiece, studying herself in the mirror

while she adjusted her veil. The attitude revealed the long slope

of her slender sides, which gave a kind of wild-wood grace to

her outline—as though she were a captured dryad subdued to the

conventions of the drawing-room; and Selden reflected that it was

the same streak of sylvan freedom in her nature that lent such

savour to her artificiality.

He followed her across the room to the entrance-hall; but on the

threshold she held out her hand with a gesture of leave-taking.

“It’s been delightful; and now you will have to return my visit.”

“But don’t you want me to see you to the station?”

“No; good bye here, please.”

She let her hand lie in his a moment, smiling up at him adorably.

“Good bye, then—and good luck at Bellomont!” he said, opening the

door for her.

On the landing she paused to look about her. There were a thousand

chances to one against her meeting anybody, but one could never

tell, and she always paid for her rare indiscretions by a violent

reaction of prudence. There was no one in sight, however, but a

char-woman who was scrubbing the stairs. Her own stout person and

its surrounding implements took up so much room that Lily, to pass

her, had to gather up her skirts and brush against the wall. As

she did so, the woman paused in her work and looked up curiously,

resting her clenched red fists on the wet cloth she had just drawn

from her pail. She had a broad sallow face, slightly pitted with

small-pox, and thin straw-coloured hair through which her scalp

shone unpleasantly.

“I beg your pardon,” said Lily, intending by her politeness to

convey a criticism of the other’s manner.

The woman, without answering, pushed her pail aside, and continued

to stare as Miss Bart swept by with a murmur of silken linings.

Lily felt herself flushing under the look. What did the creature

suppose? Could one never do the simplest, the most harmless thing,

without subjecting one’s self to some odious conjecture? Half way

down the next flight, she smiled to think that a char-woman’s stare

should so perturb her. The poor thing was probably dazzled by such

an unwonted apparition. But WERE such apparitions unwonted on

Selden’s stairs? Miss Bart was not familiar with the moral code of

bachelors’ flat-houses, and her colour rose again as it occurred to

her that the woman’s persistent gaze implied a groping among past

associations. But she put aside the thought with a smile at her own

fears, and hastened downward, wondering if she should find a cab

short of Fifth Avenue.

Under the Georgian porch she paused again, scanning the street for

a hansom. None was in sight, but as she reached the sidewalk she

ran against a small glossy-looking man with a gardenia in his coat,

who raised his hat with a surprised exclamation.

“Miss Bart? Well—of all people! This IS luck,” he declared; and she

caught a twinkle of amused curiosity between his screwed-up lids.

“Oh, Mr. Rosedale—how are you?” she said, perceiving that the

irrepressible annoyance on her face was reflected in the sudden

intimacy of his smile.

Mr. Rosedale stood scanning her with interest and approval. He

was a plump rosy man of the blond Jewish type, with smart London

clothes fitting him like upholstery, and small sidelong eyes which

gave him the air of appraising people as if they were bric-a-brac.

He glanced up interrogatively at the porch of the Benedick.

“Been up to town for a little shopping, I suppose?” he said, in a

tone which had the familiarity of a touch.

Miss Bart shrank from it slightly, and then flung herself into

precipitate explanations.

“Yes—I came up to see my dress-maker. I am just on my way to catch

the train to the Trenors’.”

“Ah—your dress-maker; just so,” he said blandly. “I didn’t know

there were any dress-makers in the Benedick.”

“The Benedick?” She looked gently puzzled. “Is that the name of

this building?”

“Yes, that’s the name: I believe it’s an old word for bachelor,

isn’t it? I happen to own the building—that’s the way I know.” His

smile deepened as he added with increasing assurance: “But you must

let me take you to the station. The Trenors are at Bellomont, of

course? You’ve barely time to catch the five-forty. The dress-maker

kept you waiting, I suppose.”

Lily stiffened under the pleasantry.

“Oh, thanks,” she stammered; and at that moment her eye caught

a hansom drifting down Madison Avenue, and she hailed it with a

desperate gesture.

“You’re very kind; but I couldn’t think of troubling you,” she

said, extending her hand to Mr. Rosedale; and heedless of his

protestations, she sprang into the rescuing vehicle, and called out

a breathless order to the driver.