Chapter Chapter 8 · JOSIE PLAYS MERMAID

Chapter 8. JOSIE PLAYS MERMAID

While the young Bhaers were having serious experiences at home, Josie

was enjoying herself immensely at Rocky Nook; for the Laurences knew how

to make summer idleness both charming and wholesome. Bess was very fond

of her little cousin; Mrs Amy felt that whether her niece was an actress

or not she must be a gentlewoman, and gave her the social training

which marks the well-bred woman everywhere; while Uncle Laurie was never

happier than when rowing, riding, playing, or lounging with two gay

girls beside him. Josie bloomed like a wild flower in this free life,

Bess grew rosy, brisk, and merry, and both were great favourites with

the neighbours, whose villas were by the shore or perched on the cliffs

along the pretty bay.

One crumpled rose-leaf disturbed Josie's peace, one baffled wish filled

her with a longing which became a mania, and kept her as restless and

watchful as a detective with a case to 'work up'. Miss Cameron, the

great actress, had hired one of the villas and retired thither to rest

and 'create' a new part for next season. She saw no one but a friend

or two, had a private beach, and was invisible except during her daily

drive, or when the opera-glasses of curious gazers were fixed on a

blue figure disporting itself in the sea. The Laurences knew her, but

respected her privacy, and after a call left her in peace till she

expressed a wish for society--a courtesy which she remembered and repaid

later, as we shall see.

But Josie was like a thirsty fly buzzing about a sealed honey-pot, for

this nearness to her idol was both delightful and maddening. She pined

to see, hear, talk with, and study this great and happy woman who could

thrill thousands by her art, and win friends by her virtue, benevolence,

and beauty. This was the sort of actress the girl meant to be, and few

could object if the gift was really hers; for the stage needs just such

women to purify and elevate the profession which should teach as well as

amuse. If kindly Miss Cameron had known what passionate love and longing

burned in the bosom of the little girl whom she idly observed skipping

over the rocks, splashing about the beach, or galloping past her gate on

a Shetland pony, she would have made her happy by a look or a word. But

being tired with her winter's work and busy with her new part, the lady

took no more notice of this young neighbour than of the sea-gulls in the

bay or the daisies dancing in the fields. Nosegays left on her doorstep,

serenades under her garden-wall, and the fixed stare of admiring eyes

were such familiar things that she scarcely minded them; and Josie grew

desperate when all her little attempts failed.

'I might climb that pine-tree and tumble off on her piazza roof, or get

Sheltie to throw me just at her gate and be taken in fainting. It's no

use to try to drown myself when she is bathing. I can't sink, and she'd

only send a man to pull me out. What can I do? I will see her and tell

her my hopes and make her say I can act some day. Mamma would believe

her; and if--oh, if she only would let me study with her, what perfect

joy that would be!'

Josie made these remarks one afternoon as she and Bess prepared for a

swim, a fishing party having prevented their morning bathe.

'You must bide your time, dear, and not be so impatient. Papa promised

to give you a chance before the season is over, and he always manages

things nicely. That will be better than any queer prank of yours,'

answered Bess, tying her pretty hair in a white net to match her suit,

while Josie made a little lobster of herself in scarlet.

'I hate to wait; but I suppose I must. Hope she will bathe this

afternoon, though it is low tide. She told Uncle she should have to go

in then because in the morning people stared so and went on her beach.

Come and have a good dive from the big rock. No one round but nurses and

babies, so we can romp and splash as much as we like.'

Away they went to have a fine time; for the little bay was free from

other bathers, and the babies greatly admired their aquatic gymnastics,

both being expert swimmers.

As they sat dripping on the big rock Josie suddenly gave a clutch that

nearly sent Bess overboard, as she cried excitedly:

'There she is! Look! coming to bathe. How splendid! Oh, if she only

would drown a little and let me save her! or even get her toe nipped by

a crab; anything so I could go and speak!'

'Don't seem to look; she comes to be quiet and enjoy herself. Pretend

we don't see her, that's only civil,' answered Bess, affecting to be

absorbed in a white-winged yacht going by.

'Let's carelessly float that way as if going for seaweed on the rocks.

She can't mind if we are flat on our backs, with only our noses out.

Then when we can't help seeing her, we'll swim back as if anxious to

retire. That will impress her, and she may call to thank the very polite

young ladies who respect her wishes,' proposed Josie, whose lively fancy

was always planning dramatic situations.

Just as they were going to slip from their rock, as if Fate relented at

last, Miss Cameron was seen to beckon wildly as she stood waist-deep in

the water, looking down. She called to her maid, who seemed searching

along the beach for something, and not finding what she sought, waved a

towel towards the girls as if summoning them to help her.

'Run, fly! she wants us, she wants us!' cried Josie, tumbling into the

water like a very energetic turtle, and swimming away in her best style

towards this long desired haven of joy. Bess followed more slowly, and

both came panting and smiling up to Miss Cameron, who never lifted her

eyes, but said in that wonderful voice of hers:

'I've dropped a bracelet. I see it, but can't get it. Will the little

boy find me a long stick? I'll keep my eye on it, so the water shall not

wash it away.'

'I'll dive for it with pleasure; but I'm not a boy,' answered Josie,

laughing as she shook the curly head which at a distance had deceived

the lady.

'I beg your pardon. Dive away, child; the sand is covering it fast. I

value it very much. Never forgot to take it off before.'

'I'll get it!' and down went Josie, to come up with a handful of

pebbles, but no bracelet.

'It's gone; never mind--my fault,' said Miss Cameron, disappointed, but

amused at the girl's dismay as she shook the water out of her eyes and

gasped bravely:

'No, it isn't. I'll have it, if I stay down all night!' and with one

long breath Josie dived again, leaving nothing but a pair of agitated

feet to be seen.

'I'm afraid she will hurt herself,' said Miss Cameron, looking at Bess,

whom she recognized by her likeness to her mother.

'Oh, no; Josie is a little fish. She likes it'; and Bess smiled happily

at this wonderful granting of her cousin's desire.

'You are Mr Laurence's daughter, I think? How d'ye do, dear? Tell papa

I'm coming to see him soon. Too tired before. Quite savage. Better now.

Ah! here's our pearl of divers. What luck?' she asked, as the heels went

down and a dripping head came up.

Josie could only choke and splutter at first, being half strangled;

but though her hands had failed again, her courage had not; and with a

resolute shake of her wet hair, a bright look at the tall lady, and a

series of puffs to fill her lungs, she said calmly:

'“Never give up” is my motto. I'm going to get it, if I go to Liverpool

for it! Now, then!' and down went the mermaid quite out of sight this

time, groping like a real lobster at the bottom of the sea.

'Plucky little girl! I like that. Who is she?' asked the lady, sitting

down on a half-covered stone to watch her diver, since the bracelet was

lost sight of.

Bess told her, adding, with the persuasive smile of her father: 'Josie

longs to be an actress, and has waited for a month to see you. This is a

great happiness for her.'

'Bless the child! why didn't she come and call? I'd have let her in;

though usually I avoid stage-struck girls as I do reporters,' laughed

Miss Cameron.

There was no time for more; a brown hand, grasping the bracelet, rose

out of the sea, followed by a purple face as Josie came up so blind and

dizzy she could only cling to Bess, half drowned but triumphant.

Miss Cameron drew her to the rock where she sat, and pushing the hair

out of her eyes, revived her with a hearty 'Bravo! bravo!' which assured

the girl that her first act was a hit. Josie had often imagined her

meeting with the great actress--the dignity and grace with which she

would enter and tell her ambitious hopes, the effective dress she would

wear, the witty things she would say, the deep impression her budding

genius would make. But never in her wildest moments had she imagined

an interview like this; scarlet, sandy, streaming, and speechless she

leaned against the illustrious shoulder, looking like a beautiful seal

as she blinked and wheezed till she could smile joyfully and exclaim

proudly:

'I did get it! I'm so glad!'

'Now get your breath, my dear; then I shall be glad also. It was very

nice of you to take all that trouble for me. How shall I thank you?'

asked the lady, looking at her with the beautiful eyes that could say so

many things without words.

Josie clasped her hands with a wet spat which rather destroyed the

effect of the gesture, and answered in a beseeching tone that would have

softened a far harder heart than Miss Cameron's:

'Let me come and see you once--only once! I want you to tell me if I

can act; you will know. I'll abide by what you say; and if you think

I can--by and by, when I've studied very hard--I shall be the happiest

girl in the world. May I?'

'Yes; come tomorrow at eleven. We'll have a good talk; you shall show me

what you can do, and I'll give you my opinion. But you won't like it.'

'I will, no matter if you tell me I'm a fool. I want it settled; so

does mamma. I'll take it bravely if you say no; and if you say yes, I'll

never give up till I've done my best--as you did.'

'Ah, my child, it's a weary road, and there are plenty of thorns among

the roses when you've won them. I think you have the courage, and this

proves that you have perseverance. Perhaps you'll do. Come, and we'll

see.'

Miss Cameron touched the bracelet as she spoke, and smiled so kindly

that impetuous Josie wanted to kiss her; but wisely refrained, though

her eyes were wet with softer water than any in the sea as she thanked

her.

'We are keeping Miss Cameron from her bath, and the tide is going out.

Come, Josie,' said thoughtful Bess, fearing to outstay their welcome.

'Run over the beach and get warm. Thank you very much, little mermaid.

Tell papa to bring his daughter to see me any time. Good-bye'; and with

a wave of her hand the tragedy queen dismissed her court, but remained

on her weedy throne watching the two lithe figures race over the sand

with twinkling feet till they were out of sight. Then, as she calmly

bobbed up and down in the water, she said to herself: 'The child has a

good stage face, vivid, mobile; fine eyes, abandon, pluck, will. Perhaps

she'll do. Good stock--talent in the family. We shall see.'

Of course Josie never slept a wink, and was in a fever of joyful

excitement next day. Uncle Laurie enjoyed the episode very much,

and Aunt Amy looked out her most becoming white dress for the grand

occasion; Bess lent her most artistic hat, and Josie ranged the wood

and marsh for a bouquet of wild roses, sweet white azalea, ferns, and

graceful grasses, as the offering of a very grateful heart.

At ten she solemnly arrayed herself, and then sat looking at her neat

gloves and buckled shoes till it was time to go, growing pale and sober

with the thought that her fate was soon to be decided; for, like all

young people she was sure that her whole life could be settled by one

human creature, quite forgetting how wonderfully Providence trains us

by disappointment, surprises us with unexpected success, and turns our

seeming trials into blessings.

'I will go alone: we shall be freer so. Oh, Bess, pray that she may tell

me rightly! So much depends on that! Don't laugh, uncle! It is a very

serious moment for me. Miss Cameron knows that, and will tell you so.

Kiss me, Aunt Amy, since mamma isn't here. If you say I look nice, I'm

quite satisfied. Good-bye.' And with a wave of the hand as much like her

model's as she could make it, Josie departed, looking very pretty and

feeling very tragical.

Sure now of admittance, she boldly rang at the door which excluded so

many, and being ushered into a shady parlour, feasted her eyes upon

several fine portraits of great actors while she waited. She had read

about most of them, and knew their trials and triumphs so well that she

soon forgot herself, and tried to imitate Mrs Siddons as Lady Macbeth,

looking up at the engraving as she held her nosegay like the candle in

the sleep-walking scene, and knit her youthful brows distressfully while

murmuring the speech of the haunted queen. So busy was she that Miss

Cameron watched her for several minutes unseen, then startled her by

suddenly sweeping in with the words upon her lips, the look upon her

face, which made that one of her greatest scenes.

'I never can do it like that; but I'll keep trying, if you say I may,'

cried Josie, forgetting her manners in the intense interest of the

moment.

'Show me what you can do,' answered the actress, wisely plunging into

the middle of things at once, well knowing that no common chat would

satisfy this very earnest little person.

'First let me give you these. I thought you'd like wild things better

than hot-house flowers; and I loved to bring them, as I'd no other way

to thank you for your great kindness to me,' said Josie, offering her

nosegay with a simple warmth that was very sweet.

'I do love them best, and keep my room full of the posies some good

fairy hangs on my gate. Upon my word, I think I've found the fairy

out--these are so like,' she added quickly, as her eye went from the

flowers in her hand to others that stood near by, arranged with the same

taste.

Josie's blush and smile betrayed her before she said, with a look full

of girlish adoration and humility: 'I couldn't help it; I admire you so

much. I know it was a liberty; but as I couldn't get in myself, I loved

to think my posies pleased you.'

Something about the child and her little offering touched the woman,

and, drawing Josie to her, she said, with no trace of actress in face or

voice:

'They did please me, dear, and so do you. I'm tired of praise; and love

is very sweet, when it is simple and sincere like this.'

Josie remembered to have heard, among many other stories, that Miss

Cameron lost her lover years ago, and since had lived only for art.

Now she felt that this might have been true; and pity for the splendid,

lonely life made her face very eloquent, as well as grateful. Then, as

if anxious to forget the past, her new friend said, in the commanding

way that seemed natural to her:

'Let me see what you can do. Juliet, of course. All begin with that.

Poor soul, how she is murdered!'

Now, Josie had intended to begin with Romeo's much-enduring sweetheart,

and follow her up with Bianca, Pauline, and several of the favourite

idols of stage-struck girls; but being a shrewd little person, she

suddenly saw the wisdom of Uncle Laurie's advice, and resolved to

follow it. So instead of the rant Miss Cameron expected, Josie gave poor

Ophelia's mad scene, and gave it very well, having been trained by

the college professor of elocution and done it many times. She was too

young, of course, but the white gown, the loose hair, the real flowers

she scattered over the imaginary grave, added to the illusion; and she

sung the songs sweetly, dropped her pathetic curtsies, and vanished

behind the curtain that divided the rooms with a backward look that

surprised her critical auditor into a quick gesture of applause. Cheered

by that welcome sound, Josie ran back as a little hoyden in one of the

farces she had often acted, telling a story full of fun and naughtiness

at first, but ending with a sob of repentance and an earnest prayer for

pardon.

'Very good! Try again. Better than I expected,' called the voice of the

oracle.

Josie tried Portia's speech, and recited very well, giving due emphasis

to each fine sentence. Then, unable to refrain from what she considered

her greatest effort, she burst into Juliet's balcony scene, ending with

the poison and the tomb. She felt sure that she surpassed herself, and

waited for applause. A ringing laugh made her tingle with indignation

and disappointment, as she went to stand before Miss Cameron, saying in

a tone of polite surprise:

'I have been told that I did it very well. I'm sorry you don't think

so.'

'My dear, it's very bad. How can it help being so? What can a child like

you know of love and fear and death? Don't try it yet. Leave tragedy

alone till you are ready for it.'

'But you clapped Ophelia.'

'Yes, that was very pretty. Any clever girl can do it effectively. But

the real meaning of Shakespeare is far above you yet, child. The comedy

bit was best. There you showed real talent. It was both comic and

pathetic. That's art. Don't lose it. The Portia was good declamation.

Go on with that sort of thing; it trains the voice--teaches shades of

expression. You've a good voice and natural grace--great helps both,

hard to acquire.'

'Well, I'm glad I've got something,' sighed Josie, sitting meekly on a

stool, much crestfallen, but not daunted yet, and bound to have her say

out.

'My dear little girl, I told you that you would not like what I should

say to you; yet I must be honest if I would really help you. I've had to

do it for many like you; and most of them have never forgiven me, though

my words have proved true, and they are what I advised them to be--good

wives and happy mothers in quiet homes. A few have kept on, and done

fairly well. One you will hear of soon, I think; for she has talent,

indomitable patience, and mind as well as beauty. You are too young

to show to which class you belong. Geniuses are very rare, and even at

fifteen seldom give much promise of future power.'

'Oh, I don't think I'm a genius!' cried Josie, growing calm and sober as

she listened to the melodious voice and looked into the expressive face

that filled her with confidence, so strong, sincere, and kindly was it.

'I only want to find out if I have talent enough to go on, and after

years of study to be able to act well in any of the good plays people

never tire of seeing. I don't expect to be a Mrs Siddons or a Miss

Cameron, much as I long to be; but it does seem as if I had something

in me which can't come out in any way but this. When I act I'm perfectly

happy. I seem to live, to be in my own world, and each new part is a new

friend. I love Shakespeare, and am never tired of his splendid people.

Of course, I don't understand it all; but it's like being alone at night

with the mountains and the stars, solemn and grand, and I try to imagine

how it will look when the sun comes up, and all is glorious and clear to

me. I can't see, but I feel the beauty, and long to express it.'

As she spoke with the most perfect self-forgetfulness Josie was pale

with excitement, her eyes shone, her lips trembled, and all her little

soul seemed trying to put into words the emotions that filled it to

overflowing. Miss Cameron understood, felt that this was something

more than a girlish whim; and when she answered there was a new tone

of sympathy in her voice, a new interest in her face, though she wisely

refrained from saying all she thought, well knowing what splendid dreams

young people build upon a word, and how bitter is the pain when the

bright bubbles burst.

'If you feel this, I can give you no better advice than to go on loving

and studying our great master,' she said slowly; but Josie caught the

changed tone, and felt, with a thrill of joy, that her new friend was

speaking to her now as to a comrade. 'It is an education in itself, and

a lifetime is not long enough to teach you all his secret. But there is

much to do before you can hope to echo his words. Have you the patience,

courage, strength, to begin at the beginning, and slowly, painfully, lay

the foundation for future work? Fame is a pearl many dive for and only

a few bring up. Even when they do, it is not perfect, and they sigh for

more, and lose better things in struggling for them.'

The last words seemed spoken more to herself than to her hearer, but

Josie answered quickly, with a smile and an expressive gesture:

'I got the bracelet in spite of all the bitter water in my eyes.'

'You did! I don't forget it. A good omen. We will accept it.'

Miss Cameron answered the smile with one that was like sunshine to the

girl, and stretched her white hands as if taking some invisible gift.

Then added in a different tone, watching the effect of her words on the

expressive face before her:

'Now you will be disappointed, for instead of telling you to come and

study with me, or go and act in some second-rate theatre at once, I

advise you to go back to school and finish your education. That is the

first step, for all accomplishments are needed, and a single talent

makes a very imperfect character. Cultivate mind and body, heart and

soul, and make yourself an intelligent, graceful, beautiful, and healthy

girl. Then, at eighteen or twenty, go into training and try your powers.

Better start for the battle with your arms in order, and save the hard

lesson which comes when we rush on too soon. Now and then genius carries

all before it, but not often. We have to climb slowly, with many slips

and falls. Can you wait as well as work?'

'I will!'

'We shall see. It would be pleasant to me to know that when I quit the

stage I leave behind me a well-trained, faithful, gifted comrade to

more than fill my place, and carry on what I have much at heart--the

purification of the stage. Perhaps you are she; but remember, mere

beauty and rich costumes do not make an actress, nor are the efforts of

a clever little girl to play great characters real art. It is all dazzle

and sham, and a disgrace and disappointment now. Why will the public be

satisfied with opera bouffe, or the trash called society plays when

a world of truth and beauty, poetry and pathos lies waiting to be

interpreted and enjoyed?'

Miss Cameron had forgotten to whom she spoke, and walked to and fro,

full of the noble regret all cultivated people feel at the low state of

the stage nowadays.

'That's what Uncle Laurie says; and he and Aunt Jo try to plan plays

about true and lovely things--simple domestic scenes that touch people's

hearts, and make them laugh and cry and feel better. Uncle says that

sort is my style, and I must not think of tragedy. But it's so much

nicer to sweep about in crowns and velvet trains than to wear everyday

clothes, and just be myself, though it is so easy.'

'Yet that is high art, child, and what we need for a time till we are

ready for the masters. Cultivate that talent of yours. It is a special

gift, this power to bring tears and smiles, and a sweeter task to touch

the heart than to freeze the blood or fire the imagination. Tell your

uncle he is right, and ask your aunt to try a play for you. I'll come

and see it when you are ready.'

'Will you? Oh! will you? We are going to have some at Christmas, with a

nice part for me. A simple little thing, but I can do it, and should be

so proud, so happy to have you there.'

Josie rose as she spoke, for a glance at the clock showed her that her

call was a long one; and hard as it was to end this momentous interview,

she felt that she must go. Catching up her hat she went to Miss Cameron,

who stood looking at her so keenly that she felt as transparent as a

pane of glass, and coloured prettily as she looked up, saying, with a

grateful little tremor in her voice:

'I can never thank you for this hour and all you have told me. I shall

do just what you advise, and mamma will be very glad to see me settled

at my books again. I can study now with all my heart, because it is to

help me on; and I won't hope too much, but work and wait, and try to

please you, as the only way to pay my debt.'

'That reminds me that I have not paid mine. Little friend, wear this

for my sake. It is fit for a mermaid, and will remind you of your first

dive. May the next bring up a better jewel, and leave no bitter water on

your lips!'

As she spoke, Miss Cameron took from the lace at her throat a pretty

pin of aquamarine, and fastened it like an order on Josie's proud bosom;

then lifting the happy little face, she kissed it very tenderly, and

watched it go smiling away with eyes that seemed to see into a future

full of the trials and the triumphs which she knew so well.

Bess expected to see Josie come flying in, all raptures and excitement,

or drowned in tears of disappointment, but was surprised at the

expression of calm content and resolution which she wore. Pride and

satisfaction, and a new feeling of responsibility both sobered and

sustained her, and she felt that any amount of dry study and long

waiting would be bearable, if in the glorious future she could be

an honour to her profession and a comrade to the new friend whom she

already adored with girlish ardour.

She told her little story to a deeply interested audience, and all

felt that Miss Cameron's advice was good. Mrs Amy was relieved at the

prospect of delay; for she did not want her niece to be an actress and

hoped the fancy would die out.

Uncle Laurie was full of charming plans and prophecies and wrote one

of his most delightful notes to thank their neighbour for her kindness;

while Bess, who loved art of all kinds, fully sympathized with her

cousin's ambitious hopes, only wondering why she preferred to act out

her visions rather than embody them in marble.

That first interview was not the last; for Miss Cameron was really

interested, and had several memorable conversations with the Laurences,

while the girls sat by, drinking in every word with the delight all

artists feel in their own beautiful world, and learning to see how

sacred good gifts are, how powerful, and how faithfully they should be

used for high ends, each in its own place helping to educate, refine,

and refresh.

Josie wrote reams to her mother; and when the visit ended rejoiced her

heart by bringing her a somewhat changed little daughter, who fell to

work at the once-detested books with a patient energy which surprised

and pleased everyone. The right string had been touched, and even French

exercises and piano practice became endurable, since accomplishments

would be useful by and by; dress, manners, and habits were all

interesting now, because 'mind and body, heart and soul, must be

cultivated', and while training to become an 'intelligent, graceful,

healthy girl', little Josie was unconsciously fitting herself to play

her part well on whatever stage the great Manager might prepare for her.