Kabanata Kabanata 1 · My father’s family name being Pirrip, and my Christian name Philip, my

. My father’s family name being Pirrip, and my Christian name Philip, my

infant tongue could make of both names nothing longer or more explicit

than Pip. So, I called myself Pip, and came to be called Pip.

I give Pirrip as my father’s family name, on the authority of his

tombstone and my sister,—Mrs. Joe Gargery, who married the blacksmith.

As I never saw my father or my mother, and never saw any likeness of

either of them (for their days were long before the days of

photographs), my first fancies regarding what they were like were

unreasonably derived from their tombstones. The shape of the letters on

my father’s, gave me an odd idea that he was a square, stout, dark man,

with curly black hair. From the character and turn of the inscription,

“_Also Georgiana Wife of the Above_,” I drew a childish conclusion that

my mother was freckled and sickly. To five little stone lozenges, each

about a foot and a half long, which were arranged in a neat row beside

their grave, and were sacred to the memory of five little brothers of

mine,—who gave up trying to get a living, exceedingly early in that

universal struggle,—I am indebted for a belief I religiously

entertained that they had all been born on their backs with their hands

in their trousers-pockets, and had never taken them out in this state

of existence.

Ours was the marsh country, down by the river, within, as the river

wound, twenty miles of the sea. My first most vivid and broad

impression of the identity of things seems to me to have been gained on

a memorable raw afternoon towards evening. At such a time I found out

for certain that this bleak place overgrown with nettles was the

churchyard; and that Philip Pirrip, late of this parish, and also

Georgiana wife of the above, were dead and buried; and that Alexander,

Bartholomew, Abraham, Tobias, and Roger, infant children of the

aforesaid, were also dead and buried; and that the dark flat wilderness

beyond the churchyard, intersected with dikes and mounds and gates,

with scattered cattle feeding on it, was the marshes; and that the low

leaden line beyond was the river; and that the distant savage lair from

which the wind was rushing was the sea; and that the small bundle of

shivers growing afraid of it all and beginning to cry, was Pip.

“Hold your noise!” cried a terrible voice, as a man started up from

among the graves at the side of the church porch. “Keep still, you

little devil, or I’ll cut your throat!”

A fearful man, all in coarse grey, with a great iron on his leg. A man

with no hat, and with broken shoes, and with an old rag tied round his

head. A man who had been soaked in water, and smothered in mud, and

lamed by stones, and cut by flints, and stung by nettles, and torn by

briars; who limped, and shivered, and glared, and growled; and whose

teeth chattered in his head as he seized me by the chin.

“Oh! Don’t cut my throat, sir,” I pleaded in terror. “Pray don’t do it,

sir.”

“Tell us your name!” said the man. “Quick!”

“Pip, sir.”

“Once more,” said the man, staring at me. “Give it mouth!”

“Pip. Pip, sir.”

“Show us where you live,” said the man. “Pint out the place!”

I pointed to where our village lay, on the flat in-shore among the

alder-trees and pollards, a mile or more from the church.

The man, after looking at me for a moment, turned me upside down, and

emptied my pockets. There was nothing in them but a piece of bread.

When the church came to itself,—for he was so sudden and strong that he

made it go head over heels before me, and I saw the steeple under my

feet,—when the church came to itself, I say, I was seated on a high

tombstone, trembling while he ate the bread ravenously.

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“You young dog,” said the man, licking his lips, “what fat cheeks you

ha’ got.”

I believe they were fat, though I was at that time undersized for my

years, and not strong.

“Darn me if I couldn’t eat ’em,” said the man, with a threatening shake

of his head, “and if I han’t half a mind to’t!”

I earnestly expressed my hope that he wouldn’t, and held tighter to the

tombstone on which he had put me; partly, to keep myself upon it;

partly, to keep myself from crying.

“Now lookee here!” said the man. “Where’s your mother?”

“There, sir!” said I.

He started, made a short run, and stopped and looked over his shoulder.

“There, sir!” I timidly explained. “Also Georgiana. That’s my mother.”

“Oh!” said he, coming back. “And is that your father alonger your

mother?”

“Yes, sir,” said I; “him too; late of this parish.”

“Ha!” he muttered then, considering. “Who d’ye live with,—supposin’

you’re kindly let to live, which I han’t made up my mind about?”

“My sister, sir,—Mrs. Joe Gargery,—wife of Joe Gargery, the blacksmith,

sir.”

“Blacksmith, eh?” said he. And looked down at his leg.

After darkly looking at his leg and me several times, he came closer to

my tombstone, took me by both arms, and tilted me back as far as he

could hold me; so that his eyes looked most powerfully down into mine,

and mine looked most helplessly up into his.

“Now lookee here,” he said, “the question being whether you’re to be

let to live. You know what a file is?”

“Yes, sir.”

“And you know what wittles is?”

“Yes, sir.”

After each question he tilted me over a little more, so as to give me a

greater sense of helplessness and danger.

“You get me a file.” He tilted me again. “And you get me wittles.” He

tilted me again. “You bring ’em both to me.” He tilted me again. “Or

I’ll have your heart and liver out.” He tilted me again.

I was dreadfully frightened, and so giddy that I clung to him with both

hands, and said, “If you would kindly please to let me keep upright,

sir, perhaps I shouldn’t be sick, and perhaps I could attend more.”

He gave me a most tremendous dip and roll, so that the church jumped

over its own weathercock. Then, he held me by the arms, in an upright

position on the top of the stone, and went on in these fearful terms:—

“You bring me, to-morrow morning early, that file and them wittles. You

bring the lot to me, at that old Battery over yonder. You do it, and

you never dare to say a word or dare to make a sign concerning your

having seen such a person as me, or any person sumever, and you shall

be let to live. You fail, or you go from my words in any partickler, no

matter how small it is, and your heart and your liver shall be tore

out, roasted, and ate. Now, I ain’t alone, as you may think I am.

There’s a young man hid with me, in comparison with which young man I

am a Angel. That young man hears the words I speak. That young man has

a secret way pecooliar to himself, of getting at a boy, and at his

heart, and at his liver. It is in wain for a boy to attempt to hide

himself from that young man. A boy may lock his door, may be warm in

bed, may tuck himself up, may draw the clothes over his head, may think

himself comfortable and safe, but that young man will softly creep and

creep his way to him and tear him open. I am a keeping that young man

from harming of you at the present moment, with great difficulty. I

find it wery hard to hold that young man off of your inside. Now, what

do you say?”

I said that I would get him the file, and I would get him what broken

bits of food I could, and I would come to him at the Battery, early in

the morning.

“Say Lord strike you dead if you don’t!” said the man.

I said so, and he took me down.

“Now,” he pursued, “you remember what you’ve undertook, and you

remember that young man, and you get home!”

“Goo-good night, sir,” I faltered.

“Much of that!” said he, glancing about him over the cold wet flat. “I

wish I was a frog. Or a eel!”

At the same time, he hugged his shuddering body in both his

arms,—clasping himself, as if to hold himself together,—and limped

towards the low church wall. As I saw him go, picking his way among the

nettles, and among the brambles that bound the green mounds, he looked

in my young eyes as if he were eluding the hands of the dead people,

stretching up cautiously out of their graves, to get a twist upon his

ankle and pull him in.

When he came to the low church wall, he got over it, like a man whose

legs were numbed and stiff, and then turned round to look for me. When

I saw him turning, I set my face towards home, and made the best use of

my legs. But presently I looked over my shoulder, and saw him going on

again towards the river, still hugging himself in both arms, and

picking his way with his sore feet among the great stones dropped into

the marshes here and there, for stepping-places when the rains were

heavy or the tide was in.

The marshes were just a long black horizontal line then, as I stopped

to look after him; and the river was just another horizontal line, not

nearly so broad nor yet so black; and the sky was just a row of long

angry red lines and dense black lines intermixed. On the edge of the

river I could faintly make out the only two black things in all the

prospect that seemed to be standing upright; one of these was the

beacon by which the sailors steered,—like an unhooped cask upon a

pole,—an ugly thing when you were near it; the other, a gibbet, with

some chains hanging to it which had once held a pirate. The man was

limping on towards this latter, as if he were the pirate come to life,

and come down, and going back to hook himself up again. It gave me a

terrible turn when I thought so; and as I saw the cattle lifting their

heads to gaze after him, I wondered whether they thought so too. I

looked all round for the horrible young man, and could see no signs of

him. But now I was frightened again, and ran home without stopping.