Kabanata Kabanata 241 · 第241章

The Rostóvs remained in Moscow till the first of September, that is,

till the eve of the enemy’s entry into the city.

After Pétya had joined Obolénski’s regiment of Cossacks and left for

Bélaya Tsérkov where that regiment was forming, the countess was seized

with terror. The thought that both her sons were at the war, had both

gone from under her wing, that today or tomorrow either or both of them

might be killed like the three sons of one of her acquaintances, struck

her that summer for the first time with cruel clearness. She tried to

get Nicholas back and wished to go herself to join Pétya, or to get

him an appointment somewhere in Petersburg, but neither of these proved

possible. Pétya could not return unless his regiment did so or unless

he was transferred to another regiment on active service. Nicholas was

somewhere with the army and had not sent a word since his last letter,

in which he had given a detailed account of his meeting with Princess

Mary. The countess did not sleep at night, or when she did fall asleep

dreamed that she saw her sons lying dead. After many consultations and

conversations, the count at last devised means to tranquillize her. He

got Pétya transferred from Obolénski’s regiment to Bezúkhov’s, which was

in training near Moscow. Though Pétya would remain in the service, this

transfer would give the countess the consolation of seeing at least one

of her sons under her wing, and she hoped to arrange matters for her

Pétya so as not to let him go again, but always get him appointed to

places where he could not possibly take part in a battle. As long as

Nicholas alone was in danger the countess imagined that she loved her

first-born more than all her other children and even reproached herself

for it; but when her youngest: the scapegrace who had been bad at

lessons, was always breaking things in the house and making himself a

nuisance to everybody, that snub-nosed Pétya with his merry black eyes

and fresh rosy cheeks where soft down was just beginning to show—when

he was thrown amid those big, dreadful, cruel men who were fighting

somewhere about something and apparently finding pleasure in it—then

his mother thought she loved him more, much more, than all her other

children. The nearer the time came for Pétya to return, the more uneasy

grew the countess. She began to think she would never live to see such

happiness. The presence of Sónya, of her beloved Natásha, or even of

her husband irritated her. “What do I want with them? I want no one but

Pétya,” she thought.

At the end of August the Rostóvs received another letter from Nicholas.

He wrote from the province of Vorónezh where he had been sent to procure

remounts, but that letter did not set the countess at ease. Knowing that

one son was out of danger she became the more anxious about Pétya.

Though by the twentieth of August nearly all the Rostóvs’ acquaintances

had left Moscow, and though everybody tried to persuade the countess to

get away as quickly as possible, she would not hear of leaving before

her treasure, her adored Pétya, returned. On the twenty-eighth of August

he arrived. The passionate tenderness with which his mother received him

did not please the sixteen-year-old officer. Though she concealed from

him her intention of keeping him under her wing, Pétya guessed her

designs, and instinctively fearing that he might give way to emotion

when with her—might “become womanish” as he termed it to himself—he

treated her coldly, avoided her, and during his stay in Moscow attached

himself exclusively to Natásha for whom he had always had a particularly

brotherly tenderness, almost lover-like.

Owing to the count’s customary carelessness nothing was ready for their

departure by the twenty-eighth of August and the carts that were to

come from their Ryazán and Moscow estates to remove their household

belongings did not arrive till the thirtieth.

From the twenty-eighth till the thirty-first all Moscow was in a bustle

and commotion. Every day thousands of men wounded at Borodinó were

brought in by the Dorogomílov gate and taken to various parts of Moscow,

and thousands of carts conveyed the inhabitants and their possessions

out by the other gates. In spite of Rostopchín’s broadsheets, or because

of them or independently of them, the strangest and most contradictory

rumors were current in the town. Some said that no one was to be allowed

to leave the city, others on the contrary said that all the icons had

been taken out of the churches and everybody was to be ordered to leave.

Some said there had been another battle after Borodinó at which the

French had been routed, while others on the contrary reported that the

Russian army had been destroyed. Some talked about the Moscow militia

which, preceded by the clergy, would go to the Three Hills; others

whispered that Augustin had been forbidden to leave, that traitors had

been seized, that the peasants were rioting and robbing people on their

way from Moscow, and so on. But all this was only talk; in reality

(though the Council of Filí, at which it was decided to abandon Moscow,

had not yet been held) both those who went away and those who remained

behind felt, though they did not show it, that Moscow would certainly

be abandoned, and that they ought to get away as quickly as possible and

save their belongings. It was felt that everything would suddenly break

up and change, but up to the first of September nothing had done so.

As a criminal who is being led to execution knows that he must die

immediately, but yet looks about him and straightens the cap that is

awry on his head, so Moscow involuntarily continued its wonted life,

though it knew that the time of its destruction was near when the

conditions of life to which its people were accustomed to submit would

be completely upset.

During the three days preceding the occupation of Moscow the whole

Rostóv family was absorbed in various activities. The head of the

family, Count Ilyá Rostóv, continually drove about the city collecting

the current rumors from all sides and gave superficial and hasty orders

at home about the preparations for their departure.

The countess watched the things being packed, was dissatisfied with

everything, was constantly in pursuit of Pétya who was always running

away from her, and was jealous of Natásha with whom he spent all his

time. Sónya alone directed the practical side of matters by getting

things packed. But of late Sónya had been particularly sad and silent.

Nicholas’ letter in which he mentioned Princess Mary had elicited, in

her presence, joyous comments from the countess, who saw an intervention

of Providence in this meeting of the princess and Nicholas.

“I was never pleased at Bolkónski’s engagement to Natásha,” said the

countess, “but I always wanted Nicholas to marry the princess, and had a

presentiment that it would happen. What a good thing it would be!”

Sónya felt that this was true: that the only possibility of retrieving

the Rostóvs’ affairs was by Nicholas marrying a rich woman, and that the

princess was a good match. It was very bitter for her. But despite

her grief, or perhaps just because of it, she took on herself all the

difficult work of directing the storing and packing of their things and

was busy for whole days. The count and countess turned to her when they

had any orders to give. Pétya and Natásha on the contrary, far from

helping their parents, were generally a nuisance and a hindrance to

everyone. Almost all day long the house resounded with their running

feet, their cries, and their spontaneous laughter. They laughed and were

gay not because there was any reason to laugh, but because gaiety and

mirth were in their hearts and so everything that happened was a cause

for gaiety and laughter to them. Pétya was in high spirits because

having left home a boy he had returned (as everybody told him) a fine

young man, because he was at home, because he had left Bélaya Tsérkov

where there was no hope of soon taking part in a battle and had come to

Moscow where there was to be fighting in a few days, and chiefly because

Natásha, whose lead he always followed, was in high spirits. Natásha was

gay because she had been sad too long and now nothing reminded her of

the cause of her sadness, and because she was feeling well. She was also

happy because she had someone to adore her: the adoration of others was

a lubricant the wheels of her machine needed to make them run freely—and

Pétya adored her. Above all, they were gay because there was a war near

Moscow, there would be fighting at the town gates, arms were being

given out, everybody was escaping—going away somewhere, and in general

something extraordinary was happening, and that is always exciting,

especially to the young.