Kabanata Kabanata 21 · Chapter XXI

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The old woman hastened to obey, and gave orders, under authority of that

name which, by whomsoever pronounced, set the whole castle in motion, as

no one imagined that any one would dare to use it unauthorised. She

reached _Malanotte_ a little before the carriage: when it was near at

hand, she left the litter; and making a sign to the coachman to stop,

approached the window, and whispered in the ear of Nibbio the will of

her master.

Lucy, sensible that the motion of the carriage had ceased, shook off the

lethargy into which she had for some time been plunged, and in an agony

of terror looked around her. Nibbio had drawn himself back on the seat,

and the old woman, resting her chin on the window, said to Lucy, “Come,

my child; come, poor girl; come with me. I have orders to treat you

kindly, and to offer you every consolation.”

At the sound of a female voice the unfortunate girl felt a momentary

relief, which was, however, succeeded by deeper terror as she looked at

the person from whom it proceeded. “Who are you?” said she, anxiously

fixing her eyes upon her.

“Come, come, poor girl,” repeated the old woman.

Nibbio and his two companions, inferring the designs of their master

from the extraordinary deportment of the old woman, endeavoured to

persuade the poor girl to obey; but Lucy kept gazing at the wild and

savage solitude around, which left her no ray of hope. However, she

attempted to cry out; but seeing Nibbio give a look to the handkerchief,

she stopped, trembled, was seized, and then placed in the litter. The

old woman was placed beside her; and Nibbio left the two villains for

their escort, and hastened forward at the call of his master. Lucy,

aroused to momentary energy by the near approach of the deformed and

withered features of her companion, cried, “Where am I? Where are you

taking me?”

“To one who wishes you well; to a great—you are a lucky girl; be happy,

do not be afraid; be happy. He has told me to encourage you; you will

tell him that I have done so, will you not?”

“Who is this man? What is he? What does he want with me? I do not belong

to him. Tell me where I am. Let me go. Tell these men to let me go, to

take me to some church. Oh, you, who are a woman, in the name of the

holy Virgin, I entreat you.”

This holy and tender name, so often pronounced with respect in her early

years, and for so long a time neglected and forgotten, produced on the

mind of the wretched woman, who had not heard it for so long a time, a

confused impression, like the remembrance of lights and shadows on the

mind of one blind from infancy.

Meanwhile the Unknown, standing at the door of the castle, looked below,

and saw the litter slowly ascending, and Nibbio walking a few steps in

advance of it. At the sight of his master, he hurried forward. “Come

here,” said the signor to him, and led the way to an inner hall. “Well?”

said he, stopping.—“All has been done according to your wishes,”

replied Nibbio, bowing. “The order in time, the young girl in time, no

one near the place, a single cry, no one alarmed, the coachman diligent,

the horses swift; but——”

“But what?”

“But, to say truth, I would rather have received orders to plunge a

dagger in her heart at once, than to have been obliged to look at her,

and hear her entreaties.”

“What is this? What is this? What do you mean?”

“I would say that during the whole journey—yes, during the whole

journey—she has excited my compassion.”

“Compassion! What dost thou know of compassion? What _is_ compassion?”

“I have never understood what it is until to-day; it is something like

fear; if it takes possession of one, one is no longer a man.”

“Let me hear, then, what she has done to excite your compassion?”

“Oh, most illustrious signor, she wept, implored, and looked so

piteously; then turned pale, pale as death; then wept, and prayed again,

and said such words——”

“I will not have this girl in the castle,” thought the Unknown. “I was

wrong to embark in this business; but I have promised, I have promised:

when she is far away——” And looking imperiously at Nibbio, “Now,” said

he, “put an end to your compassion; mount a horse, take with you two or

three companions, if you wish; go to the castle of Don Roderick, thou

knowest it. Tell him to send immediately, immediately—or otherwise——”

But another _No_, more imperious than the first, whose sound was heard

in the depth of his soul, prevented his proceeding. “_No_,” said he in a

determined tone, as if expressing the command of this secret

voice,—“_no_; go to bed; and to-morrow morning you shall do what I

shall then order.”

“This girl must have some demon who protects her,” thought he, as he

remained alone, with his arms crossed on his breast, regarding the

fitful shadows cast by the rays of the moon on the floor, which darted

through the grating of the lofty windows. “She must have some demon or

an angel who protects her. Compassion in Nibbio! To-morrow morning,

to-morrow morning at the latest, she shall be sent away; she must submit

to her destiny, that is certain. And,” continued he, with the tone of

one who gives a command to a wayward child, under the conviction that he

will not obey it, “we will think of it no more. This animal Don Roderick

must not come to torment me with thanks, for—I do not wish to hear her

spoken of. I have served him—because I promised to do so; and I

promised, because it was my destiny. But Don Roderick shall pay me with

usury. Let us see——”

And he endeavoured to imagine some difficult enterprise in which to

engage Don Roderick as a punishment; but his thoughts involuntarily

recurred to another subject. “Compassion in Nibbio! What has she done? I

must see her. No! Yes! I must see her.”

He passed through several halls, and arriving at the apartment of the

old woman, knocked with his foot at the door.

“Who is there?”

“Open.”

At the sound of this voice, the old woman quickly obeyed, and flung the

door wide open. The Unknown threw a glance around the chamber, and by

the light of the lantern, which stood on the table, saw Lucy on the

floor in one corner of it.

“Why did you place her there?” said he, with a frowning brow.

“She placed herself there,” replied she, timidly. “I have done all I

could to encourage her; but she will not listen to me.”

“Rise,” said he to Lucy, who, at the noise of his step, and at the sound

of his voice, had been seized with new terror. She buried her face in

her hands, and remained silent and trembling before him.

“Rise; I will not harm you; I can befriend you,” said the signor.

“Rise!” repeated he, in a voice of thunder, irritated at having spoken

in vain.

As if alarm had restored her exhausted strength, the unfortunate girl

fell on her knees, clasped her hands on her breast, as if before a

sacred image, then with her eyes fixed on the earth, exclaimed, “Here I

am, murder me if you will.”

“I have already told you that I will not harm you,” replied the Unknown,

in a more gentle tone, gazing at her agonised and altered features.

“Courage, courage,” said the old woman. “He tells you himself that he

will not harm you.”

“And why,” resumed Lucy, in a voice in which indignation and despair

were mingled with alarm and dismay,—“why make me suffer the torments of

hell? What have I done to you?”

“Perhaps they have not treated you kindly? Speak!”

“Oh, kindly treated! They have brought me hither by treachery and force.

Why, why did they bring me? Why am I here? Where am I? I am a poor

creature. What have I done to you? In the name of God——”

“God! God! always God!” said the Unknown. “Those who are too weak to

defend themselves, always make use of the name of God, as if they knew

something concerning him! What! do you mean by this word to make me——”

and he left the sentence unfinished.

“Oh, signor, what could I mean, a poor girl like me, except that you

should have pity on me? God pardons so many deeds for one act of mercy!

Let me go; for pity, for charity, let me go. Do not make a poor creature

suffer thus! Oh, you, who have it in your power, tell them to let me go.

They brought me hither by force. Put me again in the carriage with this

woman, and let it carry me to my mother. O holy Virgin! My mother! my

mother! Perhaps she is not far from here—I thought I saw my mountains!

Why do you make me suffer? Carry me to a church; I will pray for you all

my life. Does it cost you so much to say one word? Oh, I see that you

are touched! Say but the word, say it. God pardons so many deeds for one

act of mercy.”

“Oh, why is she not the daughter of one of the cowards who outlawed

me?” thought the Unknown. “I should then enjoy her sufferings; but

now——”

“Do not stifle so good an inspiration,” pursued Lucy, on seeing

hesitation in the countenance of her persecutor. “If you do not grant me

mercy, the Lord will; he will send death to relieve me, and all will be

over. But you—one day, perhaps, you also—but no, no—I will pray the

Lord to preserve you from evil. What would it cost you to say one word?

If ever you experience these torments——”

“Well, well, take courage,” said the Unknown, with a gentleness that

astonished the old woman. “Have I done you any harm? Have I menaced

you?”

“Oh, no. I see that you have a good heart, and that you pity a poor

creature. If you chose, you could alarm me more than any of them, you

could make me die with fear; and on the contrary, you have—you have

given me some consolation. God reward you! Accomplish the work you have

begun; save me, save me.”

“To-morrow morning.”

“Oh, save me now, now!”

“To-morrow morning I will see you again, I tell you. Be of good courage.

Rest yourself. You must need food; it shall be brought to you.”

“No, no, I shall die if any one comes into this room, I shall die. Take

me away, God will reward you.”

“A servant will bring you something to eat,” said the Unknown; “and

you,” continued he, turning to the old woman, “persuade her to eat, and

to repose on the bed. If she consents to have you sleep with her, well;

if not, you can sleep very well on the floor. Be kind to her, I say; and

take care that she makes no complaint of you.”

He hastily quitted the room, before Lucy could renew her entreaties.

“Oh, miserable that I am! Shut, shut the door!” said Lucy, returning to

seat herself in her corner. “Oh, miserable that I am! Who shall I

implore now? Where am I? Tell me, tell me, for charity, who is this

signor? Who has been talking to me? who is he?”

“Who is he? Do you wish me to tell you? you must wait awhile first. You

are proud, because he protects you; provided you are satisfied, no

matter what becomes of me. Ask _him_ his name. If I should tell you, he

would not speak to me so gently as he did to you. I am an old woman, I

am an old woman,” continued she, grumbling: but hearing the sobs of

Lucy, she remembered the threat of her master; and addressing her in a

less bitter tone, “Well! I have said no harm. Be cheerful. Do not ask me

what I cannot tell you, but have courage. How satisfied most people

would be, should he speak to them as he has spoken to you! Be cheerful!

Directly, you shall have something to eat; and from what he said, I know

it will be something good. And then, you must lie down, and you will

leave a little room for me,” added she, with an accent of suppressed

rancour.

“I cannot eat; I cannot sleep. Leave me, approach me not. You will not

go away?”

“No, no,” said the old woman, seating herself on a large arm-chair, and

regarding her with a mingled expression of alarm and rage. She looked at

the bed, and did not very well relish the idea of being banished from it

for the night, as it was very cold; but she hoped at least for a good

supper. Lucy felt neither cold nor hunger; she remained stupified with

grief and terror; her ideas became vague and confused as in the delirium

of a fever.

She shuddered at hearing a knock at the door. “Who is there?” cried she,

“who is there? Don’t let any one come in.”

“It is only Martha, bringing something to eat.”

“Shut, shut the door!” cried Lucy.

“Certainly,” replied the old woman. Taking a basket from the hands of

Martha, she placed it on the table, and closed the door. She invited

Lucy to taste the delicious food, bestowing on it profuse praises, and

on the wine too, which was such as the signor himself drank with his

friends; but seeing that they were useless she said, “It is your own

fault, you _must_ not forget to tell him that I asked you. I will eat,

however, and leave enough for you, if you should come to your senses.”

When her supper was finished she approached Lucy again, and renewed her

solicitations.

“No, no, I wish nothing,” replied she, in a faint and exhausted voice.

“Is the door shut?” she exclaimed, with momentary energy; “is it well

secured?”

The old woman approached the door, and showed her that it was firmly

bolted. “You see,” said she, “it is well fastened. Are you satisfied

now?”

“Oh! satisfied! satisfied! in this place!” said Lucy, sinking into her

corner. “But God knows that I am here.”

“Come to bed. What would you do there, lying like a dog? How silly to

refuse comforts when you can have them!”

“No, no, leave me to myself.”

“Well, remember it is your own fault; if you wish to come to bed, you

can—I have left room enough for you; remember I have asked you very

often.” Thus saying, she drew the clothes over her, and soon all was

profound silence.

Lucy remained motionless, with her face buried in her hands, which

rested on her knees; she was neither awake nor asleep, but in a dreamy

state of the imagination, painful, vague, and changeful. At first, she

recalled with something of self-possession the minutest circumstances of

this horrible day; then her reason for a moment forsook its throne,

vainly struggling against the phantoms conjured by uncertainty and

terror; at last, weary and exhausted, she sunk on the floor, in a state

approaching to, and resembling, sleep. But suddenly she awoke, as at an

internal call, and strove to recall her scattered senses, to know where

she was, and why she had been brought thither. She heard a noise, and

listened; it was the heavy breathing of the old woman, in a deep

slumber; she opened her eyes on the objects around her, which the

flickering of the lamp, now dying in its socket, rendered confused and

indistinct. But soon her recent impressions returned distinctly to her

mind, and the unfortunate girl recognised her prison; and with the

knowledge came associated all the terrors of this horrible day; and,

overcome anew by anxiety and terror, she wished earnestly for death.

She could only pray, and as the words fell from her trembling lips, she

felt her confidence revive. Suddenly a thought presented itself to her

mind; that her prayer would be more acceptable if united with an

offering of something dear to her; she remembered the object to which

she had clung for her happiness, and resolved to sacrifice it; then

clasping her hands over her chaplet, which hung upon her neck, and

raising her tearful eyes to heaven, she cried, “O most holy Virgin! thou

to whom I have so often prayed, and who hast so often consoled me—thou

who hast suffered so much sorrow, and art now so glorious—thou who hast

performed so many miracles for the afflicted—holy Virgin! succour me,

take me from this peril, mother of God! return me safely to my mother,

and I pledge myself to remain devoted to thy service; I renounce for

ever the unfortunate youth, and from this time devote myself to thee!”

After this consecration of herself, she felt her confidence and faith

increase; she remembered the “_to-morrow morning_” uttered by the

Unknown, and took it as a promise of safety. Her wearied senses yielded

to this new sentiment, and she slept profoundly and peacefully with the

name of her protectress on her lips.

But in this same castle was one who could not sleep: after having

quitted Lucy, and given orders for her supper, he had visited the posts

of his fortress; but her image remained stamped on his mind, her words

still resounded in his ears. He retired to his chamber, and threw

himself on his bed; but in the stillness around this same image of Lucy

in her desolation and anguish took possession still more absolutely of

his thoughts, and rendered sleep hopeless. “What new feelings are

these?” thought he. “Nibbio was right; but what is there in a woman’s

tears to unman me thus? Did I never see a woman weep before? Ay, and how

often have I beheld their deepest agonies unmoved? But now——”

And here he recalled, without much difficulty, many an instance when

neither prayers nor tears were able to make him swerve from his

atrocious purposes; but instead of deriving augmented resolution, as he

had hoped, from the recollection, he experienced an emotion of alarm, of

consternation; so that even, as a relief from the torment of

retrospection, he thought of Lucy. “She lives still,” said he, “she is

here; there is yet time. I have it in my power to say to her, Go in

peace! I can also ask her forgiveness. Forgiveness! I ask forgiveness of

a woman! Ah, if in that word existed the power to drive this demon from

my soul, I would say it; yes, I feel that I would say it. To what am I

reduced? I am no longer myself! Well, well! many a time have such

follies passed through my head; this will take its flight also.”

And to procure the desired forgetfulness, he endeavoured to busy himself

with some new project; but in vain: all appeared changed! that which at

another time would have been a stimulus to action, had now lost its

charm; his imagination was overwhelmed with the insupportable weight of

remembered crimes. Even the idea of continuing to associate with those

whom he had employed as the instruments of his daring and licentious

will was revolting to his soul; and, disgusted and weary, he found

relief only in the thought that by the dawn of morning he would set at

liberty the unfortunate Lucy.

“I will save her; yes, I will save her. As soon as the day breaks, I

will fly to her, and say, Go, go in peace. But my promise! Ay, who is

Don Roderick that I should hold sacred a promise made to _him_?” With

the perplexity of a man to whom a superior addresses unexpectedly an

embarrassing question, the Unknown endeavoured to reply to this his own,

or, rather, that was whispered by this new principle, that had of a

sudden sprung up so awfully in his soul, to pass judgment upon him. He

wondered how he could have resolved to engage himself to inflict

suffering, without any motive of hatred or fear, on an unfortunate being

whom he did not know, only to render a service to this man. He could not

find any excuse for it; he could not even imagine how he had been led to

do it. The hasty determination had been the impulse of a mind obedient

to its habitual feelings, the consequence of a thousand previous deeds;

and from an examination of the motives which had led him to commit a

single deed, he was led to the retrospection of his whole life.

In looking back from year to year, from enterprise to enterprise, from

crime to crime, from blood to blood, each one of his actions appeared

abstracted from the feelings which had induced their perpetration, and

therefore exposed in all their horrible deformity, but which those

feelings had hitherto veiled from his view. They were all his own, he

was responsible for all; they comprised his life; the horror of this

thought filled him with despair; he grasped his pistol, and raised it to

his head—but at the moment in which he would have terminated his

miserable existence, his thoughts rushed onwards to the time that must

continue to flow on after his end. He thought of his disfigured corpse,

without sense or motion, in the power of the vilest men; the

astonishment and confusion which would take place in the castle, the

conversation it would excite in the neighbourhood and afar off, and,

more than all, the rejoicing of his enemies. The darkness and silence of

the night inspired him with other apprehensions still; it appeared to

him that he would not have hesitated to perform the deed in open day, in

the presence of others. “And, after all, what was it? but a moment, and

all would be over.” And now another thought rose to his mind: “If that

other life, of which they tell, is an invention of priests, is a mere

fabrication, why should I die? Of what consequence is all that I have

done? It is a trifle—but if there should be another life!”

At such a doubt, he was filled with deeper despair, a despair from which

death appeared no refuge. The pistol dropped from his grasp—both hands

were applied to his aching head—and he trembled in every limb. Suddenly

the words he had heard a few hours before came to his memory, “God

pardons so many deeds for one act of mercy.” They did not come to him

clothed in the humble tone of supplication, with which he had heard them

pronounced, but in one of authority which offered some gleam of hope. It

was a moment of relief: he brought to mind the figure of Lucy, when she

uttered them; and he regarded her, not as a suppliant, but as an angel

of consolation. He waited with anxiety the approach of day, that he

might hear from her mouth other words of hope and life. He imagined

himself conducting her to her mother, “And then, what shall I do

to-morrow? what shall I do for the rest of the day? what shall I do the

day after, and the next day? and the night? the night which will so soon

return? Oh, the night! let me not think of the night!” And, plunged in

the frightful void of the future, he sought in vain for some employment

of time, some method of living through the days and nights. Now he

thought of abandoning his castle, and flying to some distant country,

where he had never been heard of; but, could he fly from himself? Then

he felt a confused hope of recovering his former courage and habits; and

that he should regard these terrors of his soul but as a transient

delirium: now, he dreaded the approach of day, which should exhibit him

so miserably changed to his followers; then he longed for its light, as

if it would bring light also to his troubled thoughts. As the day broke,

a confused sound of merriment broke upon his ear. He listened; it was a

distant chiming of bells, and he could hear the echo of the mountains

repeat the harmony, and mingle itself with it. From another quarter,

still nearer, and then from another, similar sounds were heard. “What

means this?” said he. “For what are these rejoicings? What joyful event

has taken place?” He rose from his bed of thorns, and opened the window.

The mountains were still half veiled in darkness, the heavens appeared

enveloped in a heavy and vast cloud; but he distinguished, through the

faint dawn of the morning, crowds passing towards the opening on the

right of the castle, villagers in their holyday garments. “What are

those people doing? what has happened to cause all this joy?” And

calling a bravo, who slept in the adjoining room, he asked him the cause

of the commotion. The man replied that he was ignorant of it, but would

go immediately and enquire. His master remained at the window,

contemplating the moving spectacle, which increasing day rendered more

distinct every moment. He saw crowds passing in succession; men, women,

and children, as guided by one impulse, directing their steps in one

direction. They appeared animated by a common joy; and the bells, with

their united sound of merriment, seemed to be an echo of the general

hilarity. The Unknown looked on intently, and felt an eager curiosity to

know what could have communicated such happiness to such a multitude of

people.