Kabanata Kabanata 54 · Chapter LIV Chapter LIV

. Chapter LIV Chapter LIV

In a quarter of an hour Clare was leaving the house, whence his mother

watched his thin figure as it disappeared into the street. He had

declined to borrow his father’s old mare, well knowing of its necessity

to the household. He went to the inn, where he hired a trap, and could

hardly wait during the harnessing. In a very few minutes after, he was

driving up the hill out of the town which, three or four months earlier

in the year, Tess had descended with such hopes and ascended with such

shattered purposes.

Benvill Lane soon stretched before him, its hedges and trees purple

with buds; but he was looking at other things, and only recalled

himself to the scene sufficiently to enable him to keep the way. In

something less than an hour-and-a-half he had skirted the south of the

King’s Hintock estates and ascended to the untoward solitude of

Cross-in-Hand, the unholy stone whereon Tess had been compelled by Alec

d’Urberville, in his whim of reformation, to swear the strange oath

that she would never wilfully tempt him again. The pale and blasted

nettle-stems of the preceding year even now lingered nakedly in the

banks, young green nettles of the present spring growing from their

roots.

Thence he went along the verge of the upland overhanging the other

Hintocks, and, turning to the right, plunged into the bracing

calcareous region of Flintcomb-Ash, the address from which she had

written to him in one of the letters, and which he supposed to be the

place of sojourn referred to by her mother. Here, of course, he did not

find her; and what added to his depression was the discovery that no

“Mrs Clare” had ever been heard of by the cottagers or by the farmer

himself, though Tess was remembered well enough by her Christian name.

His name she had obviously never used during their separation, and her

dignified sense of their total severance was shown not much less by

this abstention than by the hardships she had chosen to undergo (of

which he now learnt for the first time) rather than apply to his father

for more funds.

From this place they told him Tess Durbeyfield had gone, without due

notice, to the home of her parents on the other side of Blackmoor, and

it therefore became necessary to find Mrs Durbeyfield. She had told him

she was not now at Marlott, but had been curiously reticent as to her

actual address, and the only course was to go to Marlott and inquire

for it. The farmer who had been so churlish with Tess was quite

smooth-tongued to Clare, and lent him a horse and man to drive him

towards Marlott, the gig he had arrived in being sent back to

Emminster; for the limit of a day’s journey with that horse was

reached.

Clare would not accept the loan of the farmer’s vehicle for a further

distance than to the outskirts of the Vale, and, sending it back with

the man who had driven him, he put up at an inn, and next day entered

on foot the region wherein was the spot of his dear Tess’s birth. It

was as yet too early in the year for much colour to appear in the

gardens and foliage; the so-called spring was but winter overlaid with

a thin coat of greenness, and it was of a parcel with his expectations.

The house in which Tess had passed the years of her childhood was now

inhabited by another family who had never known her. The new residents

were in the garden, taking as much interest in their own doings as if

the homestead had never passed its primal time in conjunction with the

histories of others, beside which the histories of these were but as a

tale told by an idiot. They walked about the garden paths with thoughts

of their own concerns entirely uppermost, bringing their actions at

every moment in jarring collision with the dim ghosts behind them,

talking as though the time when Tess lived there were not one whit

intenser in story than now. Even the spring birds sang over their heads

as if they thought there was nobody missing in particular.

On inquiry of these precious innocents, to whom even the name of their

predecessors was a failing memory, Clare learned that John Durbeyfield

was dead; that his widow and children had left Marlott, declaring that

they were going to live at Kingsbere, but instead of doing so had gone

on to another place they mentioned. By this time Clare abhorred the

house for ceasing to contain Tess, and hastened away from its hated

presence without once looking back.

His way was by the field in which he had first beheld her at the dance.

It was as bad as the house—even worse. He passed on through the

churchyard, where, amongst the new headstones, he saw one of a somewhat

superior design to the rest. The inscription ran thus:

In memory of John Durbeyfield, rightly d’Urberville, of the once

powerful family of that Name, and Direct Descendant through an

illustrious Line from Sir Pagan d’Urberville, one of the Knights of

the Conqueror. Died March 10th, 18—

How are the Mighty Fallen.

Some man, apparently the sexton, had observed Clare standing there, and

drew nigh. “Ah, sir, now that’s a man who didn’t want to lie here, but

wished to be carried to Kingsbere, where his ancestors be.”

“And why didn’t they respect his wish?”

“Oh—no money. Bless your soul, sir, why—there, I wouldn’t wish to say

it everywhere, but—even this headstone, for all the flourish wrote upon

en, is not paid for.”

“Ah, who put it up?”

The man told the name of a mason in the village, and, on leaving the

churchyard, Clare called at the mason’s house. He found that the

statement was true, and paid the bill. This done, he turned in the

direction of the migrants.

The distance was too long for a walk, but Clare felt such a strong

desire for isolation that at first he would neither hire a conveyance

nor go to a circuitous line of railway by which he might eventually

reach the place. At Shaston, however, he found he must hire; but the

way was such that he did not enter Joan’s place till about seven

o’clock in the evening, having traversed a distance of over twenty

miles since leaving Marlott.

The village being small he had little difficulty in finding Mrs

Durbeyfield’s tenement, which was a house in a walled garden, remote

from the main road, where she had stowed away her clumsy old furniture

as best she could. It was plain that for some reason or other she had

not wished him to visit her, and he felt his call to be somewhat of an

intrusion. She came to the door herself, and the light from the evening

sky fell upon her face.

This was the first time that Clare had ever met her, but he was too

preoccupied to observe more than that she was still a handsome woman,

in the garb of a respectable widow. He was obliged to explain that he

was Tess’s husband, and his object in coming there, and he did it

awkwardly enough. “I want to see her at once,” he added. “You said you

would write to me again, but you have not done so.”

“Because she’ve not come home,” said Joan.

“Do you know if she is well?”

“I don’t. But you ought to, sir,” said she.

“I admit it. Where is she staying?”

From the beginning of the interview Joan had disclosed her

embarrassment by keeping her hand to the side of her cheek.

“I—don’t know exactly where she is staying,” she answered. “She

was—but—”

“Where was she?”

“Well, she is not there now.”

In her evasiveness she paused again, and the younger children had by

this time crept to the door, where, pulling at his mother’s skirts, the

youngest murmured—

“Is this the gentleman who is going to marry Tess?”

“He has married her,” Joan whispered. “Go inside.”

Clare saw her efforts for reticence, and asked—

“Do you think Tess would wish me to try and find her? If not, of

course—”

“I don’t think she would.”

“Are you sure?”

“I am sure she wouldn’t.”

He was turning away; and then he thought of Tess’s tender letter.

“I am sure she would!” he retorted passionately. “I know her better

than you do.”

“That’s very likely, sir; for I have never really known her.”

“Please tell me her address, Mrs Durbeyfield, in kindness to a lonely

wretched man!” Tess’s mother again restlessly swept her cheek with her

vertical hand, and seeing that he suffered, she at last said, is a low

voice—

“She is at Sandbourne.”

“Ah—where there? Sandbourne has become a large place, they say.”

“I don’t know more particularly than I have said—Sandbourne. For

myself, I was never there.”

It was apparent that Joan spoke the truth in this, and he pressed her

no further.

“Are you in want of anything?” he said gently.

“No, sir,” she replied. “We are fairly well provided for.”

Without entering the house Clare turned away. There was a station three

miles ahead, and paying off his coachman, he walked thither. The last

train to Sandbourne left shortly after, and it bore Clare on its

wheels.