Bab Bab 29 · Chapter XXIX
. Chapter XXIX
It was a hard summer for Martin. Manuscript readers and editors were
away on vacation, and publications that ordinarily returned a decision
in three weeks now retained his manuscript for three months or more.
The consolation he drew from it was that a saving in postage was
effected by the deadlock. Only the robber-publications seemed to remain
actively in business, and to them Martin disposed of all his early
efforts, such as “Pearl-diving,” “The Sea as a Career,”
“Turtle-catching,” and “The Northeast Trades.” For these manuscripts he
never received a penny. It is true, after six months’ correspondence,
he effected a compromise, whereby he received a safety razor for
“Turtle-catching,” and that _The Acropolis_, having agreed to give him
five dollars cash and five yearly subscriptions: for “The Northeast
Trades,” fulfilled the second part of the agreement.
For a sonnet on Stevenson he managed to wring two dollars out of a
Boston editor who was running a magazine with a Matthew Arnold taste
and a penny-dreadful purse. “The Peri and the Pearl,” a clever skit of
a poem of two hundred lines, just finished, white hot from his brain,
won the heart of the editor of a San Francisco magazine published in
the interest of a great railroad. When the editor wrote, offering him
payment in transportation, Martin wrote back to inquire if the
transportation was transferable. It was not, and so, being prevented
from peddling it, he asked for the return of the poem. Back it came,
with the editor’s regrets, and Martin sent it to San Francisco again,
this time to _The Hornet_, a pretentious monthly that had been fanned
into a constellation of the first magnitude by the brilliant journalist
who founded it. But _The Hornet’s_ light had begun to dim long before
Martin was born. The editor promised Martin fifteen dollars for the
poem, but, when it was published, seemed to forget about it. Several of
his letters being ignored, Martin indicted an angry one which drew a
reply. It was written by a new editor, who coolly informed Martin that
he declined to be held responsible for the old editor’s mistakes, and
that he did not think much of “The Peri and the Pearl” anyway.
But _The Globe_, a Chicago magazine, gave Martin the most cruel
treatment of all. He had refrained from offering his “Sea Lyrics” for
publication, until driven to it by starvation. After having been
rejected by a dozen magazines, they had come to rest in _The Globe_
office. There were thirty poems in the collection, and he was to
receive a dollar apiece for them. The first month four were published,
and he promptly received a check for four dollars; but when he looked
over the magazine, he was appalled at the slaughter. In some cases the
titles had been altered: “Finis,” for instance, being changed to “The
Finish,” and “The Song of the Outer Reef” to “The Song of the Coral
Reef.” In one case, an absolutely different title, a misappropriate
title, was substituted. In place of his own, “Medusa Lights,” the
editor had printed, “The Backward Track.” But the slaughter in the body
of the poems was terrifying. Martin groaned and sweated and thrust his
hands through his hair. Phrases, lines, and stanzas were cut out,
interchanged, or juggled about in the most incomprehensible manner.
Sometimes lines and stanzas not his own were substituted for his. He
could not believe that a sane editor could be guilty of such
maltreatment, and his favorite hypothesis was that his poems must have
been doctored by the office boy or the stenographer. Martin wrote
immediately, begging the editor to cease publishing the lyrics and to
return them to him.
He wrote again and again, begging, entreating, threatening, but his
letters were ignored. Month by month the slaughter went on till the
thirty poems were published, and month by month he received a check for
those which had appeared in the current number.
Despite these various misadventures, the memory of the _White Mouse_
forty-dollar check sustained him, though he was driven more and more to
hack-work. He discovered a bread-and-butter field in the agricultural
weeklies and trade journals, though among the religious weeklies he
found he could easily starve. At his lowest ebb, when his black suit
was in pawn, he made a ten-strike—or so it seemed to him—in a prize
contest arranged by the County Committee of the Republican Party. There
were three branches of the contest, and he entered them all, laughing
at himself bitterly the while in that he was driven to such straits to
live. His poem won the first prize of ten dollars, his campaign song
the second prize of five dollars, his essay on the principles of the
Republican Party the first prize of twenty-five dollars. Which was very
gratifying to him until he tried to collect. Something had gone wrong
in the County Committee, and, though a rich banker and a state senator
were members of it, the money was not forthcoming. While this affair
was hanging fire, he proved that he understood the principles of the
Democratic Party by winning the first prize for his essay in a similar
contest. And, moreover, he received the money, twenty-five dollars. But
the forty dollars won in the first contest he never received.
Driven to shifts in order to see Ruth, and deciding that the long walk
from north Oakland to her house and back again consumed too much time,
he kept his black suit in pawn in place of his bicycle. The latter gave
him exercise, saved him hours of time for work, and enabled him to see
Ruth just the same. A pair of knee duck trousers and an old sweater
made him a presentable wheel costume, so that he could go with Ruth on
afternoon rides. Besides, he no longer had opportunity to see much of
her in her own home, where Mrs. Morse was thoroughly prosecuting her
campaign of entertainment. The exalted beings he met there, and to whom
he had looked up but a short time before, now bored him. They were no
longer exalted. He was nervous and irritable, what of his hard times,
disappointments, and close application to work, and the conversation of
such people was maddening. He was not unduly egotistic. He measured the
narrowness of their minds by the minds of the thinkers in the books he
read. At Ruth’s home he never met a large mind, with the exception of
Professor Caldwell, and Caldwell he had met there only once. As for the
rest, they were numskulls, ninnies, superficial, dogmatic, and
ignorant. It was their ignorance that astounded him. What was the
matter with them? What had they done with their educations? They had
had access to the same books he had. How did it happen that they had
drawn nothing from them?
He knew that the great minds, the deep and rational thinkers, existed.
He had his proofs from the books, the books that had educated him
beyond the Morse standard. And he knew that higher intellects than
those of the Morse circle were to be found in the world. He read
English society novels, wherein he caught glimpses of men and women
talking politics and philosophy. And he read of salons in great cities,
even in the United States, where art and intellect congregated.
Foolishly, in the past, he had conceived that all well-groomed persons
above the working class were persons with power of intellect and vigor
of beauty. Culture and collars had gone together, to him, and he had
been deceived into believing that college educations and mastery were
the same things.
Well, he would fight his way on and up higher. And he would take Ruth
with him. Her he dearly loved, and he was confident that she would
shine anywhere. As it was clear to him that he had been handicapped by
his early environment, so now he perceived that she was similarly
handicapped. She had not had a chance to expand. The books on her
father’s shelves, the paintings on the walls, the music on the
piano—all was just so much meretricious display. To real literature,
real painting, real music, the Morses and their kind, were dead. And
bigger than such things was life, of which they were densely,
hopelessly ignorant. In spite of their Unitarian proclivities and their
masks of conservative broadmindedness, they were two generations behind
interpretative science: their mental processes were mediaeval, while
their thinking on the ultimate data of existence and of the universe
struck him as the same metaphysical method that was as young as the
youngest race, as old as the cave-man, and older—the same that moved
the first Pleistocene ape-man to fear the dark; that moved the first
hasty Hebrew savage to incarnate Eve from Adam’s rib; that moved
Descartes to build an idealistic system of the universe out of the
projections of his own puny ego; and that moved the famous British
ecclesiastic to denounce evolution in satire so scathing as to win
immediate applause and leave his name a notorious scrawl on the page of
history.
So Martin thought, and he thought further, till it dawned upon him that
the difference between these lawyers, officers, business men, and bank
cashiers he had met and the members of the working class he had known
was on a par with the difference in the food they ate, clothes they
wore, neighborhoods in which they lived. Certainly, in all of them was
lacking the something more which he found in himself and in the books.
The Morses had shown him the best their social position could produce,
and he was not impressed by it. A pauper himself, a slave to the
money-lender, he knew himself the superior of those he met at the
Morses’; and, when his one decent suit of clothes was out of pawn, he
moved among them a lord of life, quivering with a sense of outrage akin
to what a prince would suffer if condemned to live with goat-herds.
“You hate and fear the socialists,” he remarked to Mr. Morse, one
evening at dinner; “but why? You know neither them nor their
doctrines.”
The conversation had been swung in that direction by Mrs. Morse, who
had been invidiously singing the praises of Mr. Hapgood. The cashier
was Martin’s black beast, and his temper was a trifle short where the
talker of platitudes was concerned.
“Yes,” he had said, “Charley Hapgood is what they call a rising young
man—somebody told me as much. And it is true. He’ll make the Governor’s
Chair before he dies, and, who knows? maybe the United States Senate.”
“What makes you think so?” Mrs. Morse had inquired.
“I’ve heard him make a campaign speech. It was so cleverly stupid and
unoriginal, and also so convincing, that the leaders cannot help but
regard him as safe and sure, while his platitudes are so much like the
platitudes of the average voter that—oh, well, you know you flatter any
man by dressing up his own thoughts for him and presenting them to
him.”
“I actually think you are jealous of Mr. Hapgood,” Ruth had chimed in.
“Heaven forbid!”
The look of horror on Martin’s face stirred Mrs. Morse to belligerence.
“You surely don’t mean to say that Mr. Hapgood is stupid?” she demanded
icily.
“No more than the average Republican,” was the retort, “or average
Democrat, either. They are all stupid when they are not crafty, and
very few of them are crafty. The only wise Republicans are the
millionnaires and their conscious henchmen. They know which side their
bread is buttered on, and they know why.”
“I am a Republican,” Mr. Morse put in lightly. “Pray, how do you
classify me?”
“Oh, you are an unconscious henchman.”
“Henchman?”
“Why, yes. You do corporation work. You have no working-class nor
criminal practice. You don’t depend upon wife-beaters and pickpockets
for your income. You get your livelihood from the masters of society,
and whoever feeds a man is that man’s master. Yes, you are a henchman.
You are interested in advancing the interests of the aggregations of
capital you serve.”
Mr. Morse’s face was a trifle red.
“I confess, sir,” he said, “that you talk like a scoundrelly
socialist.”
Then it was that Martin made his remark:
“You hate and fear the socialists; but why? You know neither them nor
their doctrines.”
“Your doctrine certainly sounds like socialism,” Mr. Morse replied,
while Ruth gazed anxiously from one to the other, and Mrs. Morse beamed
happily at the opportunity afforded of rousing her liege lord’s
antagonism.
“Because I say Republicans are stupid, and hold that liberty, equality,
and fraternity are exploded bubbles, does not make me a socialist,”
Martin said with a smile. “Because I question Jefferson and the
unscientific Frenchmen who informed his mind, does not make me a
socialist. Believe me, Mr. Morse, you are far nearer socialism than I
who am its avowed enemy.”
“Now you please to be facetious,” was all the other could say.
“Not at all. I speak in all seriousness. You still believe in equality,
and yet you do the work of the corporations, and the corporations, from
day to day, are busily engaged in burying equality. And you call me a
socialist because I deny equality, because I affirm just what you live
up to. The Republicans are foes to equality, though most of them fight
the battle against equality with the very word itself the slogan on
their lips. In the name of equality they destroy equality. That was why
I called them stupid. As for myself, I am an individualist. I believe
the race is to the swift, the battle to the strong. Such is the lesson
I have learned from biology, or at least think I have learned. As I
said, I am an individualist, and individualism is the hereditary and
eternal foe of socialism.”
“But you frequent socialist meetings,” Mr. Morse challenged.
“Certainly, just as spies frequent hostile camps. How else are you to
learn about the enemy? Besides, I enjoy myself at their meetings. They
are good fighters, and, right or wrong, they have read the books. Any
one of them knows far more about sociology and all the other ologies
than the average captain of industry. Yes, I have been to half a dozen
of their meetings, but that doesn’t make me a socialist any more than
hearing Charley Hapgood orate made me a Republican.”
“I can’t help it,” Mr. Morse said feebly, “but I still believe you
incline that way.”
Bless me, Martin thought to himself, he doesn’t know what I was talking
about. He hasn’t understood a word of it. What did he do with his
education, anyway?
Thus, in his development, Martin found himself face to face with
economic morality, or the morality of class; and soon it became to him
a grisly monster. Personally, he was an intellectual moralist, and more
offending to him than platitudinous pomposity was the morality of those
about him, which was a curious hotchpotch of the economic, the
metaphysical, the sentimental, and the imitative.
A sample of this curious messy mixture he encountered nearer home. His
sister Marian had been keeping company with an industrious young
mechanic, of German extraction, who, after thoroughly learning the
trade, had set up for himself in a bicycle-repair shop. Also, having
got the agency for a low-grade make of wheel, he was prosperous. Marian
had called on Martin in his room a short time before to announce her
engagement, during which visit she had playfully inspected Martin’s
palm and told his fortune. On her next visit she brought Hermann von
Schmidt along with her. Martin did the honors and congratulated both of
them in language so easy and graceful as to affect disagreeably the
peasant-mind of his sister’s lover. This bad impression was further
heightened by Martin’s reading aloud the half-dozen stanzas of verse
with which he had commemorated Marian’s previous visit. It was a bit of
society verse, airy and delicate, which he had named “The Palmist.” He
was surprised, when he finished reading it, to note no enjoyment in his
sister’s face. Instead, her eyes were fixed anxiously upon her
betrothed, and Martin, following her gaze, saw spread on that worthy’s
asymmetrical features nothing but black and sullen disapproval. The
incident passed over, they made an early departure, and Martin forgot
all about it, though for the moment he had been puzzled that any woman,
even of the working class, should not have been flattered and delighted
by having poetry written about her.
Several evenings later Marian again visited him, this time alone. Nor
did she waste time in coming to the point, upbraiding him sorrowfully
for what he had done.
“Why, Marian,” he chided, “you talk as though you were ashamed of your
relatives, or of your brother at any rate.”
“And I am, too,” she blurted out.
Martin was bewildered by the tears of mortification he saw in her eyes.
The mood, whatever it was, was genuine.
“But, Marian, why should your Hermann be jealous of my writing poetry
about my own sister?”
“He ain’t jealous,” she sobbed. “He says it was indecent, ob—obscene.”
Martin emitted a long, low whistle of incredulity, then proceeded to
resurrect and read a carbon copy of “The Palmist.”
“I can’t see it,” he said finally, proffering the manuscript to her.
“Read it yourself and show me whatever strikes you as obscene—that was
the word, wasn’t it?”
“He says so, and he ought to know,” was the answer, with a wave aside
of the manuscript, accompanied by a look of loathing. “And he says
you’ve got to tear it up. He says he won’t have no wife of his with
such things written about her which anybody can read. He says it’s a
disgrace, an’ he won’t stand for it.”
“Now, look here, Marian, this is nothing but nonsense,” Martin began;
then abruptly changed his mind.
He saw before him an unhappy girl, knew the futility of attempting to
convince her husband or her, and, though the whole situation was absurd
and preposterous, he resolved to surrender.
“All right,” he announced, tearing the manuscript into half a dozen
pieces and throwing it into the waste-basket.
He contented himself with the knowledge that even then the original
type-written manuscript was reposing in the office of a New York
magazine. Marian and her husband would never know, and neither himself
nor they nor the world would lose if the pretty, harmless poem ever
were published.
Marian, starting to reach into the waste-basket, refrained.
“Can I?” she pleaded.
He nodded his head, regarding her thoughtfully as she gathered the torn
pieces of manuscript and tucked them into the pocket of her
jacket—ocular evidence of the success of her mission. She reminded him
of Lizzie Connolly, though there was less of fire and gorgeous
flaunting life in her than in that other girl of the working class whom
he had seen twice. But they were on a par, the pair of them, in dress
and carriage, and he smiled with inward amusement at the caprice of his
fancy which suggested the appearance of either of them in Mrs. Morse’s
drawing-room. The amusement faded, and he was aware of a great
loneliness. This sister of his and the Morse drawing-room were
milestones of the road he had travelled. And he had left them behind.
He glanced affectionately about him at his few books. They were all the
comrades left to him.
“Hello, what’s that?” he demanded in startled surprise.
Marian repeated her question.
“Why don’t I go to work?” He broke into a laugh that was only
half-hearted. “That Hermann of yours has been talking to you.”
She shook her head.
“Don’t lie,” he commanded, and the nod of her head affirmed his charge.
“Well, you tell that Hermann of yours to mind his own business; that
when I write poetry about the girl he’s keeping company with it’s his
business, but that outside of that he’s got no say so. Understand?
“So you don’t think I’ll succeed as a writer, eh?” he went on. “You
think I’m no good?—that I’ve fallen down and am a disgrace to the
family?”
“I think it would be much better if you got a job,” she said firmly,
and he saw she was sincere. “Hermann says—”
“Damn Hermann!” he broke out good-naturedly. “What I want to know is
when you’re going to get married. Also, you find out from your Hermann
if he will deign to permit you to accept a wedding present from me.”
He mused over the incident after she had gone, and once or twice broke
out into laughter that was bitter as he saw his sister and her
betrothed, all the members of his own class and the members of Ruth’s
class, directing their narrow little lives by narrow little
formulas—herd-creatures, flocking together and patterning their lives
by one another’s opinions, failing of being individuals and of really
living life because of the childlike formulas by which they were
enslaved. He summoned them before him in apparitional procession:
Bernard Higginbotham arm in arm with Mr. Butler, Hermann von Schmidt
cheek by jowl with Charley Hapgood, and one by one and in pairs he
judged them and dismissed them—judged them by the standards of
intellect and morality he had learned from the books. Vainly he asked:
Where are the great souls, the great men and women? He found them not
among the careless, gross, and stupid intelligences that answered the
call of vision to his narrow room. He felt a loathing for them such as
Circe must have felt for her swine. When he had dismissed the last one
and thought himself alone, a late-comer entered, unexpected and
unsummoned. Martin watched him and saw the stiff-rim, the square-cut,
double-breasted coat and the swaggering shoulders, of the youthful
hoodlum who had once been he.
“You were like all the rest, young fellow,” Martin sneered. “Your
morality and your knowledge were just the same as theirs. You did not
think and act for yourself. Your opinions, like your clothes, were
ready made; your acts were shaped by popular approval. You were cock of
your gang because others acclaimed you the real thing. You fought and
ruled the gang, not because you liked to,—you know you really despised
it,—but because the other fellows patted you on the shoulder. You
licked Cheese-Face because you wouldn’t give in, and you wouldn’t give
in partly because you were an abysmal brute and for the rest because
you believed what every one about you believed, that the measure of
manhood was the carnivorous ferocity displayed in injuring and marring
fellow-creatures’ anatomies. Why, you whelp, you even won other
fellows’ girls away from them, not because you wanted the girls, but
because in the marrow of those about you, those who set your moral
pace, was the instinct of the wild stallion and the bull-seal. Well,
the years have passed, and what do you think about it now?”
As if in reply, the vision underwent a swift metamorphosis. The
stiff-rim and the square-cut vanished, being replaced by milder
garments; the toughness went out of the face, the hardness out of the
eyes; and, the face, chastened and refined, was irradiated from an
inner life of communion with beauty and knowledge. The apparition was
very like his present self, and, as he regarded it, he noted the
student-lamp by which it was illuminated, and the book over which it
pored. He glanced at the title and read, “The Science of Æsthetics.”
Next, he entered into the apparition, trimmed the student-lamp, and
himself went on reading “The Science of Æsthetics.”