Bab Bab 14 · Chapter XIV
. Chapter XIV
“Your gallery
Have we pass’d through, not without much content
In many singularities; but we saw not
That which my daughter came to look upon,
The state of her mother.”
_Winter’s Tale_.
It seemed to me strange, that all this time I had heard no music in the
fairy palace. I was convinced there must be music in it, but that my
sense was as yet too gross to receive the influence of those mysterious
motions that beget sound. Sometimes I felt sure, from the way the few
figures of which I got such transitory glimpses passed me, or glided
into vacancy before me, that they were moving to the law of music; and,
in fact, several times I fancied for a moment that I heard a few
wondrous tones coming I knew not whence. But they did not last long
enough to convince me that I had heard them with the bodily sense. Such
as they were, however, they took strange liberties with me, causing me
to burst suddenly into tears, of which there was no presence to make me
ashamed, or casting me into a kind of trance of speechless delight,
which, passing as suddenly, left me faint and longing for more.
Now, on an evening, before I had been a week in the palace, I was
wandering through one lighted arcade and corridor after another. At
length I arrived, through a door that closed behind me, in another vast
hall of the palace. It was filled with a subdued crimson light; by
which I saw that slender pillars of black, built close to walls of
white marble, rose to a great height, and then, dividing into
innumerable divergent arches, supported a roof, like the walls, of
white marble, upon which the arches intersected intricately, forming a
fretting of black upon the white, like the network of a skeleton-leaf.
The floor was black.
Between several pairs of the pillars upon every side, the place of the
wall behind was occupied by a crimson curtain of thick silk, hanging in
heavy and rich folds. Behind each of these curtains burned a powerful
light, and these were the sources of the glow that filled the hall. A
peculiar delicious odour pervaded the place. As soon as I entered, the
old inspiration seemed to return to me, for I felt a strong impulse to
sing; or rather, it seemed as if some one else was singing a song in my
soul, which wanted to come forth at my lips, imbodied in my breath. But
I kept silence; and feeling somewhat overcome by the red light and the
perfume, as well as by the emotion within me, and seeing at one end of
the hall a great crimson chair, more like a throne than a chair, beside
a table of white marble, I went to it, and, throwing myself in it, gave
myself up to a succession of images of bewildering beauty, which passed
before my inward eye, in a long and occasionally crowded train. Here I
sat for hours, I suppose; till, returning somewhat to myself, I saw
that the red light had paled away, and felt a cool gentle breath
gliding over my forehead. I rose and left the hall with unsteady steps,
finding my way with some difficulty to my own chamber, and faintly
remembering, as I went, that only in the marble cave, before I found
the sleeping statue, had I ever had a similar experience.
After this, I repaired every morning to the same hall; where I
sometimes sat in the chair and dreamed deliciously, and sometimes
walked up and down over the black floor. Sometimes I acted within
myself a whole drama, during one of these perambulations; sometimes
walked deliberately through the whole epic of a tale; sometimes
ventured to sing a song, though with a shrinking fear of I knew not
what. I was astonished at the beauty of my own voice as it rang through
the place, or rather crept undulating, like a serpent of sound, along
the walls and roof of this superb music-hall. Entrancing verses arose
within me as of their own accord, chanting themselves to their own
melodies, and requiring no addition of music to satisfy the inward
sense. But, ever in the pauses of these, when the singing mood was upon
me, I seemed to hear something like the distant sound of multitudes of
dancers, and felt as if it was the unheard music, moving their rhythmic
motion, that within me blossomed in verse and song. I felt, too, that
could I but see the dance, I should, from the harmony of complicated
movements, not of the dancers in relation to each other merely, but of
each dancer individually in the manifested plastic power that moved the
consenting harmonious form, understand the whole of the music on the
billows of which they floated and swung.
At length, one night, suddenly, when this feeling of dancing came upon
me, I bethought me of lifting one of the crimson curtains, and looking
if, perchance, behind it there might not be hid some other mystery,
which might at least remove a step further the bewilderment of the
present one. Nor was I altogether disappointed. I walked to one of the
magnificent draperies, lifted a corner, and peeped in. There, burned a
great, crimson, globe-shaped light, high in the cubical centre of
another hall, which might be larger or less than that in which I stood,
for its dimensions were not easily perceived, seeing that floor and
roof and walls were entirely of black marble.
The roof was supported by the same arrangement of pillars radiating in
arches, as that of the first hall; only, here, the pillars and arches
were of dark red. But what absorbed my delighted gaze, was an
innumerable assembly of white marble statues, of every form, and in
multitudinous posture, filling the hall throughout. These stood, in the
ruddy glow of the great lamp, upon pedestals of jet black. Around the
lamp shone in golden letters, plainly legible from where I stood, the
two words—
TOUCH NOT!
There was in all this, however, no solution to the sound of dancing;
and now I was aware that the influence on my mind had ceased. I did not
go in that evening, for I was weary and faint, but I hoarded up the
expectation of entering, as of a great coming joy.
Next night I walked, as on the preceding, through the hall. My mind was
filled with pictures and songs, and therewith so much absorbed, that I
did not for some time think of looking within the curtain I had last
night lifted. When the thought of doing so occurred to me first, I
happened to be within a few yards of it. I became conscious, at the
same moment, that the sound of dancing had been for some time in my
ears. I approached the curtain quickly, and, lifting it, entered the
black hall. Everything was still as death. I should have concluded that
the sound must have proceeded from some other more distant quarter,
which conclusion its faintness would, in ordinary circumstances, have
necessitated from the first; but there was a something about the
statues that caused me still to remain in doubt. As I said, each stood
perfectly still upon its black pedestal: but there was about every one
a certain air, not of motion, but as if it had just ceased from
movement; as if the rest were not altogether of the marbly stillness of
thousands of years. It was as if the peculiar atmosphere of each had
yet a kind of invisible tremulousness; as if its agitated wavelets had
not yet subsided into a perfect calm. I had the suspicion that they had
anticipated my appearance, and had sprung, each, from the living joy of
the dance, to the death-silence and blackness of its isolated pedestal,
just before I entered. I walked across the central hall to the curtain
opposite the one I had lifted, and, entering there, found all the
appearances similar; only that the statues were different, and
differently grouped. Neither did they produce on my mind that
impression—of motion just expired, which I had experienced from the
others. I found that behind every one of the crimson curtains was a
similar hall, similarly lighted, and similarly occupied.
The next night, I did not allow my thoughts to be absorbed as before
with inward images, but crept stealthily along to the furthest curtain
in the hall, from behind which, likewise, I had formerly seemed to hear
the sound of dancing. I drew aside its edge as suddenly as I could,
and, looking in, saw that the utmost stillness pervaded the vast place.
I walked in, and passed through it to the other end.
There I found that it communicated with a circular corridor, divided
from it only by two rows of red columns. This corridor, which was
black, with red niches holding statues, ran entirely about the
statue-halls, forming a communication between the further ends of them
all; further, that is, as regards the central hall of white whence they
all diverged like radii, finding their circumference in the corridor.
Round this corridor I now went, entering all the halls, of which there
were twelve, and finding them all similarly constructed, but filled
with quite various statues, of what seemed both ancient and modern
sculpture. After I had simply walked through them, I found myself
sufficiently tired to long for rest, and went to my own room.
In the night I dreamed that, walking close by one of the curtains, I
was suddenly seized with the desire to enter, and darted in. This time
I was too quick for them. All the statues were in motion, statues no
longer, but men and women—all shapes of beauty that ever sprang from
the brain of the sculptor, mingled in the convolutions of a complicated
dance. Passing through them to the further end, I almost started from
my sleep on beholding, not taking part in the dance with the others,
nor seemingly endued with life like them, but standing in marble
coldness and rigidity upon a black pedestal in the extreme left
corner—my lady of the cave; the marble beauty who sprang from her tomb
or her cradle at the call of my songs. While I gazed in speechless
astonishment and admiration, a dark shadow, descending from above like
the curtain of a stage, gradually hid her entirely from my view. I felt
with a shudder that this shadow was perchance my missing demon, whom I
had not seen for days. I awoke with a stifled cry.
Of course, the next evening I began my journey through the halls (for I
knew not to which my dream had carried me), in the hope of proving the
dream to be a true one, by discovering my marble beauty upon her black
pedestal. At length, on reaching the tenth hall, I thought I recognised
some of the forms I had seen dancing in my dream; and to my
bewilderment, when I arrived at the extreme corner on the left, there
stood, the only one I had yet seen, a vacant pedestal. It was exactly
in the position occupied, in my dream, by the pedestal on which the
white lady stood. Hope beat violently in my heart.
“Now,” said I to myself, “if yet another part of the dream would but
come true, and I should succeed in surprising these forms in their
nightly dance; it might be the rest would follow, and I should see on
the pedestal my marble queen. Then surely if my songs sufficed to give
her life before, when she lay in the bonds of alabaster, much more
would they be sufficient then to give her volition and motion, when she
alone of assembled crowds of marble forms, would be standing rigid and
cold.”
But the difficulty was, to surprise the dancers. I had found that a
premeditated attempt at surprise, though executed with the utmost care
and rapidity, was of no avail. And, in my dream, it was effected by a
sudden thought suddenly executed. I saw, therefore, that there was no
plan of operation offering any probability of success, but this: to
allow my mind to be occupied with other thoughts, as I wandered around
the great centre-hall; and so wait till the impulse to enter one of the
others should happen to arise in me just at the moment when I was close
to one of the crimson curtains. For I hoped that if I entered any one
of the twelve halls at the right moment, that would as it were give me
the right of entrance to all the others, seeing they all had
communication behind. I would not diminish the hope of the right
chance, by supposing it necessary that a desire to enter should awake
within me, precisely when I was close to the curtains of the tenth
hall.
At first the impulses to see recurred so continually, in spite of the
crowded imagery that kept passing through my mind, that they formed too
nearly a continuous chain, for the hope that any one of them would
succeed as a surprise. But as I persisted in banishing them, they
recurred less and less often; and after two or three, at considerable
intervals, had come when the spot where I happened to be was
unsuitable, the hope strengthened, that soon one might arise just at
the right moment; namely, when, in walking round the hall, I should be
close to one of the curtains.
At length the right moment and the impulse coincided. I darted into the
ninth hall. It was full of the most exquisite moving forms. The whole
space wavered and swam with the involutions of an intricate dance. It
seemed to break suddenly as I entered, and all made one or two bounds
towards their pedestals; but, apparently on finding that they were
thoroughly overtaken, they returned to their employment (for it seemed
with them earnest enough to be called such) without further heeding me.
Somewhat impeded by the floating crowd, I made what haste I could
towards the bottom of the hall; whence, entering the corridor, I turned
towards the tenth. I soon arrived at the corner I wanted to reach, for
the corridor was comparatively empty; but, although the dancers here,
after a little confusion, altogether disregarded my presence, I was
dismayed at beholding, even yet, a vacant pedestal. But I had a
conviction that she was near me. And as I looked at the pedestal, I
thought I saw upon it, vaguely revealed as if through overlapping folds
of drapery, the indistinct outlines of white feet. Yet there was no
sign of drapery or concealing shadow whatever. But I remembered the
descending shadow in my dream. And I hoped still in the power of my
songs; thinking that what could dispel alabaster, might likewise be
capable of dispelling what concealed my beauty now, even if it were the
demon whose darkness had overshadowed all my life.