บทที่ บทที่ 150 · 第150章

Borís had not succeeded in making a wealthy match in Petersburg, so

with the same object in view he came to Moscow. There he wavered between

the two richest heiresses, Julie and Princess Mary. Though Princess

Mary despite her plainness seemed to him more attractive than Julie, he,

without knowing why, felt awkward about paying court to her. When they

had last met on the old prince’s name day, she had answered at random

all his attempts to talk sentimentally, evidently not listening to what

he was saying.

Julie on the contrary accepted his attentions readily, though in a

manner peculiar to herself.

She was twenty-seven. After the death of her brothers she had become

very wealthy. She was by now decidedly plain, but thought herself not

merely as good-looking as before but even far more attractive. She

was confirmed in this delusion by the fact that she had become a very

wealthy heiress and also by the fact that the older she grew the less

dangerous she became to men, and the more freely they could associate

with her and avail themselves of her suppers, soirees, and the animated

company that assembled at her house, without incurring any obligation.

A man who would have been afraid ten years before of going every day

to the house when there was a girl of seventeen there, for fear of

compromising her and committing himself, would now go boldly every day

and treat her not as a marriageable girl but as a sexless acquaintance.

That winter the Karágins’ house was the most agreeable and hospitable

in Moscow. In addition to the formal evening and dinner parties, a large

company, chiefly of men, gathered there every day, supping at midnight

and staying till three in the morning. Julie never missed a ball, a

promenade, or a play. Her dresses were always of the latest fashion.

But in spite of that she seemed to be disillusioned about everything and

told everyone that she did not believe either in friendship or in love,

or any of the joys of life, and expected peace only “yonder.” She

adopted the tone of one who has suffered a great disappointment, like a

girl who has either lost the man she loved or been cruelly deceived by

him. Though nothing of the kind had happened to her she was regarded in

that light, and had even herself come to believe that she had suffered

much in life. This melancholy, which did not prevent her amusing

herself, did not hinder the young people who came to her house from

passing the time pleasantly. Every visitor who came to the house paid

his tribute to the melancholy mood of the hostess, and then amused

himself with society gossip, dancing, intellectual games, and bouts

rimés, which were in vogue at the Karágins’. Only a few of these

young men, among them Borís, entered more deeply into Julie’s

melancholy, and with these she had prolonged conversations in private

on the vanity of all worldly things, and to them she showed her albums

filled with mournful sketches, maxims, and verses.

To Borís, Julie was particularly gracious: she regretted his early

disillusionment with life, offered him such consolation of friendship

as she who had herself suffered so much could render, and showed him

her album. Borís sketched two trees in the album and wrote: “Rustic

trees, your dark branches shed gloom and melancholy upon me.”

On another page he drew a tomb, and wrote:

La mort est secourable et la mort est tranquille.

Ah! contre les douleurs il n’y a pas d’autre asile. *

* Death gives relief and death is peaceful.

Ah! from suffering there is no other refuge.

Julie said this was charming

“There is something so enchanting in the smile of melancholy,” she

said to Borís, repeating word for word a passage she had copied from a

book. “It is a ray of light in the darkness, a shade between sadness

and despair, showing the possibility of consolation.”

In reply Borís wrote these lines:

Aliment de poison d’une âme trop sensible,

Toi, sans qui le bonheur me serait impossible,

Tendre mélancholie, ah, viens me consoler,

Viens calmer les tourments de ma sombre retraite,

Et mêle une douceur secrète

A ces pleurs que je sens couler. *

*Poisonous nourishment of a too sensitive soul,

Thou, without whom happiness would for me be impossible,

Tender melancholy, ah, come to console me,

Come to calm the torments of my gloomy retreat,

And mingle a secret sweetness

With these tears that I feel to be flowing.

For Borís, Julie played most doleful nocturnes on her harp. Borís

read Poor Liza aloud to her, and more than once interrupted the reading

because of the emotions that choked him. Meeting at large gatherings

Julie and Borís looked on one another as the only souls who understood

one another in a world of indifferent people.

Anna Mikháylovna, who often visited the Karágins, while playing cards

with the mother made careful inquiries as to Julie’s dowry (she was

to have two estates in Pénza and the Nizhegórod forests). Anna

Mikháylovna regarded the refined sadness that united her son to the

wealthy Julie with emotion, and resignation to the Divine will.

“You are always charming and melancholy, my dear Julie,” she said to

the daughter. “Borís says his soul finds repose at your house. He has

suffered so many disappointments and is so sensitive,” said she to

the mother. “Ah, my dear, I can’t tell you how fond I have grown

of Julie latterly,” she said to her son. “But who could help loving

her? She is an angelic being! Ah, Borís, Borís!”—she paused.

“And how I pity her mother,” she went on; “today she showed me her

accounts and letters from Pénza (they have enormous estates there), and

she, poor thing, has no one to help her, and they do cheat her so!”

Borís smiled almost imperceptibly while listening to his mother. He

laughed blandly at her naïve diplomacy but listened to what she had

to say, and sometimes questioned her carefully about the Pénza and

Nizhegórod estates.

Julie had long been expecting a proposal from her melancholy adorer and

was ready to accept it; but some secret feeling of repulsion for her,

for her passionate desire to get married, for her artificiality, and

a feeling of horror at renouncing the possibility of real love still

restrained Borís. His leave was expiring. He spent every day and whole

days at the Karágins’, and every day on thinking the matter over

told himself that he would propose tomorrow. But in Julie’s presence,

looking at her red face and chin (nearly always powdered), her moist

eyes, and her expression of continual readiness to pass at once from

melancholy to an unnatural rapture of married bliss, Borís could not

utter the decisive words, though in imagination he had long regarded

himself as the possessor of those Pénza and Nizhegórod estates and

had apportioned the use of the income from them. Julie saw Borís’

indecision, and sometimes the thought occurred to her that she was

repulsive to him, but her feminine self-deception immediately supplied

her with consolation, and she told herself that he was only shy from

love. Her melancholy, however, began to turn to irritability, and not

long before Borís’ departure she formed a definite plan of action.

Just as Borís’ leave of absence was expiring, Anatole Kurágin made

his appearance in Moscow, and of course in the Karágins’ drawing

room, and Julie, suddenly abandoning her melancholy, became cheerful and

very attentive to Kurágin.

“My dear,” said Anna Mikháylovna to her son, “I know from a

reliable source that Prince Vasíli has sent his son to Moscow to get

him married to Julie. I am so fond of Julie that I should be sorry for

her. What do you think of it, my dear?”

The idea of being made a fool of and of having thrown away that whole

month of arduous melancholy service to Julie, and of seeing all

the revenue from the Pénza estates which he had already mentally

apportioned and put to proper use fall into the hands of another, and

especially into the hands of that idiot Anatole, pained Borís. He drove

to the Karágins’ with the firm intention of proposing. Julie met

him in a gay, careless manner, spoke casually of how she had enjoyed

yesterday’s ball, and asked when he was leaving. Though Borís had

come intentionally to speak of his love and therefore meant to be

tender, he began speaking irritably of feminine inconstancy, of how

easily women can turn from sadness to joy, and how their moods depend

solely on who happens to be paying court to them. Julie was offended and

replied that it was true that a woman needs variety, and the same thing

over and over again would weary anyone.

“Then I should advise you...” Borís began, wishing to sting her;

but at that instant the galling thought occurred to him that he might

have to leave Moscow without having accomplished his aim, and have

vainly wasted his efforts—which was a thing he never allowed to

happen.

He checked himself in the middle of the sentence, lowered his eyes to

avoid seeing her unpleasantly irritated and irresolute face, and said:

“I did not come here at all to quarrel with you. On the contrary...”

He glanced at her to make sure that he might go on. Her irritability had

suddenly quite vanished, and her anxious, imploring eyes were fixed on

him with greedy expectation. “I can always arrange so as not to see

her often,” thought Borís. “The affair has been begun and must be

finished!” He blushed hotly, raised his eyes to hers, and said:

“You know my feelings for you!”

There was no need to say more: Julie’s face shone with triumph and

self-satisfaction; but she forced Borís to say all that is said on such

occasions—that he loved her and had never loved any other woman more

than her. She knew that for the Pénza estates and Nizhegórod forests

she could demand this, and she received what she demanded.

The affianced couple, no longer alluding to trees that shed gloom and

melancholy upon them, planned the arrangements of a splendid house in

Petersburg, paid calls, and prepared everything for a brilliant wedding.