Chương Chương 26 · IT'S MOTHER!

. IT'S MOTHER!

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Their belief in the Magic was an abiding thing. After the morning's

incantations Colin sometimes gave them Magic lectures.

"I like to do it," he explained, "because when I grow up and make great

scientific discoveries I shall be obliged to lecture about them and so

this is practise. I can only give short lectures now because I am very

young, and besides Ben Weatherstaff would feel as if he was in church

and he would go to sleep."

"Th' best thing about lecturin'," said Ben, "is that a chap can get up

an' say aught he pleases an' no other chap can answer him back. I

wouldn't be agen' lecturin' a bit mysel' sometimes."

But when Colin held forth under his tree old Ben fixed devouring eyes on

him and kept them there. He looked him over with critical affection. It

was not so much the lecture which interested him as the legs which

looked straighter and stronger each day, the boyish head which held

itself up so well, the once sharp chin and hollow cheeks which had

filled and rounded out and the eyes which had begun to hold the light he

remembered in another pair. Sometimes when Colin felt Ben's earnest gaze

meant that he was much impressed he wondered what he was reflecting on

and once when he had seemed quite entranced he questioned him.

"What are you thinking about, Ben Weatherstaff?" he asked.

"I was thinkin'," answered Ben, "as I'd warrant tha's gone up three or

four pound this week. I was lookin' at tha' calves an' tha' shoulders.

I'd like to get thee on a pair o' scales."

"It's the Magic and--and Mrs. Sowerby's buns and milk and things," said

Colin. "You see the scientific experiment has succeeded."

That morning Dickon was too late to hear the lecture. When he came he

was ruddy with running and his funny face looked more twinkling than

usual. As they had a good deal of weeding to do after the rains they

fell to work. They always had plenty to do after a warm deep sinking

rain. The moisture which was good for the flowers was also good for the

weeds which thrust up tiny blades of grass and points of leaves which

must be pulled up before their roots took too firm hold. Colin was as

good at weeding as any one in these days and he could lecture while he

was doing it.

"The Magic works best when you work yourself," he said this morning.

"You can feel it in your bones and muscles. I am going to read books

about bones and muscles, but I am going to write a book about Magic. I

am making it up now. I keep finding out things."

It was not very long after he had said this that he laid down his trowel

and stood up on his feet. He had been silent for several minutes and

they had seen that he was thinking out lectures, as he often did. When

he dropped his trowel and stood upright it seemed to Mary and Dickon as

if a sudden strong thought had made him do it. He stretched himself out

to his tallest height and he threw out his arms exultantly. Color glowed

in his face and his strange eyes widened with joyfulness. All at once he

had realized something to the full.

"Mary! Dickon!" he cried. "Just look at me!"

They stopped their weeding and looked at him.

"Do you remember that first morning you brought me in here?" he

demanded.

Dickon was looking at him very hard. Being an animal charmer he could

see more things than most people could and many of them were things he

never talked about. He saw some of them now in this boy.

"Aye, that we do," he answered.

Mary looked hard too, but she said nothing.

"Just this minute," said Colin, "all at once I remembered it

myself--when I looked at my hand digging with the trowel--and I had to

stand up on my feet to see if it was real. And it _is_ real! I'm

_well_--I'm _well_!"

"Aye, that tha' art!" said Dickon.

"I'm well! I'm well!" said Colin again, and his face went quite red all

over.

He had known it before in a way, he had hoped it and felt it and thought

about it, but just at that minute something had rushed all through

him--a sort of rapturous belief and realization and it had been so

strong that he could not help calling out.

"I shall live forever and ever and ever!" he cried grandly. "I shall

find out thousands and thousands of things. I shall find out about

people and creatures and everything that grows--like Dickon--and I shall

never stop making Magic. I'm well! I'm well! I feel--I feel as if I want

to shout out something--something thankful, joyful!"

Ben Weatherstaff, who had been working near a rose-bush, glanced round

at him.

"Tha' might sing th' Doxology," he suggested in his dryest grunt. He had

no opinion of the Doxology and he did not make the suggestion with any

particular reverence.

But Colin was of an exploring mind and he knew nothing about the

Doxology.

"What is that?" he inquired.

"Dickon can sing it for thee, I'll warrant," replied Ben Weatherstaff.

Dickon answered with his all-perceiving animal charmer's smile.

"They sing it i' church," he said. "Mother says she believes th'

skylarks sings it when they gets up i' th' mornin'."

"If she says that, it must be a nice song," Colin answered. "I've never

been in a church myself. I was always too ill. Sing it, Dickon. I want

to hear it."

Dickon was quite simple and unaffected about it. He understood what

Colin felt better than Colin did himself. He understood by a sort of

instinct so natural that he did not know it was understanding. He pulled

off his cap and looked round still smiling.

"Tha' must take off tha' cap," he said to Colin, "an' so mun tha',

Ben--an' tha' mun stand up, tha' knows."

Colin took off his cap and the sun shone on and warmed his thick hair as

he watched Dickon intently. Ben Weatherstaff scrambled up from his

knees and bared his head too with a sort of puzzled half-resentful look

on his old face as if he didn't know exactly why he was doing this

remarkable thing.

Dickon stood out among the trees and rose-bushes and began to sing in

quite a simple matter-of-fact way and in a nice strong boy voice:

"Praise God from whom all blessings flow,

Praise Him all creatures here below,

Praise Him above ye Heavenly Host,

Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.

Amen."

When he had finished, Ben Weatherstaff was standing quite still with his

jaws set obstinately but with a disturbed look in his eyes fixed on

Colin. Colin's face was thoughtful and appreciative.

"It is a very nice song," he said. "I like it. Perhaps it means just

what I mean when I want to shout out that I am thankful to the Magic."

He stopped and thought in a puzzled way. "Perhaps they are both the same

thing. How can we know the exact names of everything? Sing it again,

Dickon. Let us try, Mary. I want to sing it, too. It's my song. How does

it begin? 'Praise God from whom all blessings flow'?"

[Illustration: "'PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW'"--_Page 344_]

And they sang it again, and Mary and Colin lifted their voices as

musically as they could and Dickon's swelled quite loud and

beautiful--and at the second line Ben Weatherstaff raspingly cleared his

throat and at the third he joined in with such vigor that it seemed

almost savage and when the "Amen" came to an end Mary observed that the

very same thing had happened to him which had happened when he found out

that Colin was not a cripple--his chin was twitching and he was staring

and winking and his leathery old cheeks were wet.

"I never seed no sense in th' Doxology afore," he said hoarsely, "but I

may change my mind i' time. I should say tha'd gone up five pound this

week, Mester Colin--five on 'em!"

Colin was looking across the garden at something attracting his

attention and his expression had become a startled one.

"Who is coming in here?" he said quickly. "Who is it?"

The door in the ivied wall had been pushed gently open and a woman had

entered. She had come in with the last line of their song and she had

stood still listening and looking at them. With the ivy behind her, the

sunlight drifting through the trees and dappling her long blue cloak,

and her nice fresh face smiling across the greenery she was rather like

a softly colored illustration in one of Colin's books. She had wonderful

affectionate eyes which seemed to take everything in--all of them, even

Ben Weatherstaff and the "creatures" and every flower that was in bloom.

Unexpectedly as she had appeared, not one of them felt that she was an

intruder at all. Dickon's eyes lighted like lamps.

"It's Mother--that's who it is!" he cried and he went across the grass

at a run.

Colin began to move toward her, too, and Mary went with him. They both

felt their pulses beat faster.

"It's Mother!" Dickon said again when they met half-way. "I knowed tha'

wanted to see her an' I told her where th' door was hid."

Colin held out his hand with a sort of flushed royal shyness but his

eyes quite devoured her face.

"Even when I was ill I wanted to see you," he said, "you and Dickon and

the secret garden. I'd never wanted to see any one or anything before."

The sight of his uplifted face brought about a sudden change in her own.

She flushed and the corners of her mouth shook and a mist seemed to

sweep over her eyes.

"Eh! dear lad!" she broke out tremulously. "Eh! dear lad!" as if she had

not known she were going to say it. She did not say, "Mester Colin,"

but just "dear lad" quite suddenly. She might have said it to Dickon in

the same way if she had seen something in his face which touched her.

Colin liked it.

"Are you surprised because I am so well?" he asked.

She put her hand on his shoulder and smiled the mist out of her eyes.

"Aye, that I am!" she said; "but tha'rt so like thy mother tha' made my

heart jump."

"Do you think," said Colin a little awkwardly, "that will make my father

like me?"

"Aye, for sure, dear lad," she answered and she gave his shoulder a soft

quick pat. "He mun come home--he mun come home."

"Susan Sowerby," said Ben Weatherstaff, getting close to her. "Look at

th' lad's legs, wilt tha'? They was like drumsticks i' stockin' two

month' ago--an' I heard folk tell as they was bandy an' knock-kneed both

at th' same time. Look at 'em now!"

Susan Sowerby laughed a comfortable laugh.

"They're goin' to be fine strong lad's legs in a bit," she said. "Let

him go on playin' an' workin' in th' garden an' eatin' hearty an'

drinkin' plenty o' good sweet milk an' there'll not be a finer pair i'

Yorkshire, thank God for it."

She put both hands on Mistress Mary's shoulders and looked her little

face over in a motherly fashion.

"An' thee, too!" she said. "Tha'rt grown near as hearty as our 'Lizabeth

Ellen. I'll warrant tha'rt like thy mother too. Our Martha told me as

Mrs. Medlock heard she was a pretty woman. Tha'lt be like a blush rose

when tha' grows up, my little lass, bless thee."

She did not mention that when Martha came home on her "day out" and

described the plain sallow child she had said that she had no confidence

whatever in what Mrs. Medlock had heard. "It doesn't stand to reason

that a pretty woman could be th' mother o' such a fou' little lass," she

had added obstinately.

Mary had not had time to pay much attention to her changing face. She

had only known that she looked "different" and seemed to have a great

deal more hair and that it was growing very fast. But remembering her

pleasure in looking at the Mem Sahib in the past she was glad to hear

that she might some day look like her.

Susan Sowerby went round their garden with them and was told the whole

story of it and shown every bush and tree which had come alive. Colin

walked on one side of her and Mary on the other. Each of them kept

looking up at her comfortable rosy face, secretly curious about the

delightful feeling she gave them--a sort of warm, supported feeling. It

seemed as if she understood them as Dickon understood his "creatures."

She stooped over the flowers and talked about them as if they were

children. Soot followed her and once or twice cawed at her and flew upon

her shoulder as if it were Dickon's. When they told her about the robin

and the first flight of the young ones she laughed a motherly little

mellow laugh in her throat.

"I suppose learnin' 'em to fly is like learnin' children to walk, but

I'm feared I should be all in a worrit if mine had wings instead o'

legs," she said.

It was because she seemed such a wonderful woman in her nice moorland

cottage way that at last she was told about the Magic.

"Do you believe in Magic?" asked Colin after he had explained about

Indian fakirs. "I do hope you do."

"That I do, lad," she answered. "I never knowed it by that name but what

does th' name matter? I warrant they call it a different name i' France

an' a different one i' Germany. Th' same thing as set th' seeds swellin'

an' th' sun shinin' made thee a well lad an' it's th' Good Thing. It

isn't like us poor fools as think it matters if us is called out of our

names. Th' Big Good Thing doesn't stop to worrit, bless thee. It goes

on makin' worlds by th' million--worlds like us. Never thee stop

believin' in th' Big Good Thing an' knowin' th' world's full of it--an'

call it what tha' likes. Tha' wert singin' to it when I come into th'

garden."

"I felt so joyful," said Colin, opening his beautiful strange eyes at

her. "Suddenly I felt how different I was--how strong my arms and legs

were, you know--and how I could dig and stand--and I jumped up and

wanted to shout out something to anything that would listen."

"Th' Magic listened when tha' sung th' Doxology. It would ha' listened

to anything tha'd sung. It was th' joy that mattered. Eh! lad,

lad--what's names to th' Joy Maker," and she gave his shoulders a quick

soft pat again.

She had packed a basket which held a regular feast this morning, and

when the hungry hour came and Dickon brought it out from its hiding

place, she sat down with them under their tree and watched them devour

their food, laughing and quite gloating over their appetites. She was

full of fun and made them laugh at all sorts of odd things. She told

them stories in broad Yorkshire and taught them new words. She laughed

as if she could not help it when they told her of the increasing

difficulty there was in pretending that Colin was still a fretful

invalid.

"You see we can't help laughing nearly all the time when we are

together," explained Colin. "And it doesn't sound ill at all. We try to

choke it back but it will burst out and that sounds worse than ever."

"There's one thing that comes into my mind so often," said Mary, "and I

can scarcely ever hold in when I think of it suddenly. I keep thinking

suppose Colin's face should get to look like a full moon. It isn't like

one yet but he gets a tiny bit fatter every day--and suppose some

morning it should look like one--what should we do!"

"Bless us all, I can see tha' has a good bit o' play actin' to do," said

Susan Sowerby. "But tha' won't have to keep it up much longer. Mester

Craven'll come home."

"Do you think he will?" asked Colin. "Why?"

Susan Sowerby chuckled softly.

"I suppose it 'ud nigh break thy heart if he found out before tha' told

him in tha' own way," she said. "Tha's laid awake nights plannin' it."

"I couldn't bear any one else to tell him," said Colin. "I think about

different ways every day. I think now I just want to run into his

room."

"That'd be a fine start for him," said Susan Sowerby. "I'd like to see

his face, lad. I would that! He mun come back--that he mun."

One of the things they talked of was the visit they were to make to her

cottage. They planned it all. They were to drive over the moor and lunch

out of doors among the heather. They would see all the twelve children

and Dickon's garden and would not come back until they were tired.

Susan Sowerby got up at last to return to the house and Mrs. Medlock. It

was time for Colin to be wheeled back also. But before he got into his

chair he stood quite close to Susan and fixed his eyes on her with a

kind of bewildered adoration and he suddenly caught hold of the fold of

her blue cloak and held it fast.

"You are just what I--what I wanted," he said. "I wish you were my

mother--as well as Dickon's!"

All at once Susan Sowerby bent down and drew him with her warm arms

close against the bosom under the blue cloak--as if he had been Dickon's

brother. The quick mist swept over her eyes.

"Eh! dear lad!" she said. "Thy own mother's in this 'ere very garden, I

do believe. She couldna' keep out of it. Thy father mun come back to

thee--he mun!"