Chương Chương 22 · “The Grass Withereth—the Flower Fadeth”
. “The Grass Withereth—the Flower Fadeth”
Life passes, with us all, a day at a time; so it passed with our friend
Tom, till two years were gone. Though parted from all his soul held
dear, and though often yearning for what lay beyond, still was he never
positively and consciously miserable; for, so well is the harp of human
feeling strung, that nothing but a crash that breaks every string can
wholly mar its harmony; and, on looking back to seasons which in review
appear to us as those of deprivation and trial, we can remember that
each hour, as it glided, brought its diversions and alleviations, so
that, though not happy wholly, we were not, either, wholly miserable.
Tom read, in his only literary cabinet, of one who had “learned in
whatsoever state he was, therewith to be content.” It seemed to him
good and reasonable doctrine, and accorded well with the settled and
thoughtful habit which he had acquired from the reading of that same
book.
His letter homeward, as we related in the last chapter, was in due time
answered by Master George, in a good, round, school-boy hand, that Tom
said might be read “most acrost the room.” It contained various
refreshing items of home intelligence, with which our reader is fully
acquainted: stated how Aunt Chloe had been hired out to a confectioner
in Louisville, where her skill in the pastry line was gaining wonderful
sums of money, all of which, Tom was informed, was to be laid up to go
to make up the sum of his redemption money; Mose and Pete were
thriving, and the baby was trotting all about the house, under the care
of Sally and the family generally.
Tom’s cabin was shut up for the present; but George expatiated
brilliantly on ornaments and additions to be made to it when Tom came
back.
The rest of this letter gave a list of George’s school studies, each
one headed by a flourishing capital; and also told the names of four
new colts that appeared on the premises since Tom left; and stated, in
the same connection, that father and mother were well. The style of the
letter was decidedly concise and terse; but Tom thought it the most
wonderful specimen of composition that had appeared in modern times. He
was never tired of looking at it, and even held a council with Eva on
the expediency of getting it framed, to hang up in his room. Nothing
but the difficulty of arranging it so that both sides of the page would
show at once stood in the way of this undertaking.
The friendship between Tom and Eva had grown with the child’s growth.
It would be hard to say what place she held in the soft, impressible
heart of her faithful attendant. He loved her as something frail and
earthly, yet almost worshipped her as something heavenly and divine. He
gazed on her as the Italian sailor gazes on his image of the child
Jesus,—with a mixture of reverence and tenderness; and to humor her
graceful fancies, and meet those thousand simple wants which invest
childhood like a many-colored rainbow, was Tom’s chief delight. In the
market, at morning, his eyes were always on the flower-stalls for rare
bouquets for her, and the choicest peach or orange was slipped into his
pocket to give to her when he came back; and the sight that pleased him
most was her sunny head looking out the gate for his distant approach,
and her childish questions,—“Well, Uncle Tom, what have you got for me
today?”
Nor was Eva less zealous in kind offices, in return. Though a child,
she was a beautiful reader;—a fine musical ear, a quick poetic fancy,
and an instinctive sympathy with what’s grand and noble, made her such
a reader of the Bible as Tom had never before heard. At first, she read
to please her humble friend; but soon her own earnest nature threw out
its tendrils, and wound itself around the majestic book; and Eva loved
it, because it woke in her strange yearnings, and strong, dim emotions,
such as impassioned, imaginative children love to feel.
The parts that pleased her most were the Revelations and the
Prophecies,—parts whose dim and wondrous imagery, and fervent language,
impressed her the more, that she questioned vainly of their
meaning;—and she and her simple friend, the old child and the young
one, felt just alike about it. All that they knew was, that they spoke
of a glory to be revealed,—a wondrous something yet to come, wherein
their soul rejoiced, yet knew not why; and though it be not so in the
physical, yet in moral science that which cannot be understood is not
always profitless. For the soul awakes, a trembling stranger, between
two dim eternities,—the eternal past, the eternal future. The light
shines only on a small space around her; therefore, she needs must
yearn towards the unknown; and the voices and shadowy movings which
come to her from out the cloudy pillar of inspiration have each one
echoes and answers in her own expecting nature. Its mystic imagery are
so many talismans and gems inscribed with unknown hieroglyphics; she
folds them in her bosom, and expects to read them when she passes
beyond the veil.
[Illustration: LITTLE EVA READING THE BIBLE TO UNCLE TOM IN THE ARBOR.]
At this time in our story, the whole St. Clare establishment is, for
the time being, removed to their villa on Lake Pontchartrain. The heats
of summer had driven all who were able to leave the sultry and
unhealthy city, to seek the shores of the lake, and its cool
sea-breezes.
St. Clare’s villa was an East Indian cottage, surrounded by light
verandahs of bamboo-work, and opening on all sides into gardens and
pleasure-grounds. The common sitting-room opened on to a large garden,
fragrant with every picturesque plant and flower of the tropics, where
winding paths ran down to the very shores of the lake, whose silvery
sheet of water lay there, rising and falling in the sunbeams,—a picture
never for an hour the same, yet every hour more beautiful.
It is now one of those intensely golden sunsets which kindles the whole
horizon into one blaze of glory, and makes the water another sky. The
lake lay in rosy or golden streaks, save where white-winged vessels
glided hither and thither, like so many spirits, and little golden
stars twinkled through the glow, and looked down at themselves as they
trembled in the water.
Tom and Eva were seated on a little mossy seat, in an arbor, at the
foot of the garden. It was Sunday evening, and Eva’s Bible lay open on
her knee. She read,—“And I saw a sea of glass, mingled with fire.”
“Tom,” said Eva, suddenly stopping, and pointing to the lake, “there ’t
is.”
“What, Miss Eva?”
“Don’t you see,—there?” said the child, pointing to the glassy water,
which, as it rose and fell, reflected the golden glow of the sky.
“There’s a ‘sea of glass, mingled with fire.’”
“True enough, Miss Eva,” said Tom; and Tom sang—
“O, had I the wings of the morning,
I’d fly away to Canaan’s shore;
Bright angels should convey me home,
To the new Jerusalem.”
“Where do you suppose new Jerusalem is, Uncle Tom?” said Eva.
“O, up in the clouds, Miss Eva.”
“Then I think I see it,” said Eva. “Look in those clouds!—they look
like great gates of pearl; and you can see beyond them—far, far
off—it’s all gold. Tom, sing about ‘spirits bright.’”
Tom sung the words of a well-known Methodist hymn,
“I see a band of spirits bright,
That taste the glories there;
They all are robed in spotless white,
And conquering palms they bear.”
“Uncle Tom, I’ve seen _them_,” said Eva.
Tom had no doubt of it at all; it did not surprise him in the least. If
Eva had told him she had been to heaven, he would have thought it
entirely probable.
“They come to me sometimes in my sleep, those spirits;” and Eva’s eyes
grew dreamy, and she hummed, in a low voice,
“They are all robed in spotless white,
And conquering palms they bear.”
“Uncle Tom,” said Eva, “I’m going there.”
“Where, Miss Eva?”
The child rose, and pointed her little hand to the sky; the glow of
evening lit her golden hair and flushed cheek with a kind of unearthly
radiance, and her eyes were bent earnestly on the skies.
“I’m going _there_,” she said, “to the spirits bright, Tom; _I’m going,
before long_.”
The faithful old heart felt a sudden thrust; and Tom thought how often
he had noticed, within six months, that Eva’s little hands had grown
thinner, and her skin more transparent, and her breath shorter; and
how, when she ran or played in the garden, as she once could for hours,
she became soon so tired and languid. He had heard Miss Ophelia speak
often of a cough, that all her medicaments could not cure; and even now
that fervent cheek and little hand were burning with hectic fever; and
yet the thought that Eva’s words suggested had never come to him till
now.
Has there ever been a child like Eva? Yes, there have been; but their
names are always on grave-stones, and their sweet smiles, their
heavenly eyes, their singular words and ways, are among the buried
treasures of yearning hearts. In how many families do you hear the
legend that all the goodness and graces of the living are nothing to
the peculiar charms of one who _is not_. It is as if heaven had an
especial band of angels, whose office it was to sojourn for a season
here, and endear to them the wayward human heart, that they might bear
it upward with them in their homeward flight. When you see that deep,
spiritual light in the eye,—when the little soul reveals itself in
words sweeter and wiser than the ordinary words of children,—hope not
to retain that child; for the seal of heaven is on it, and the light of
immortality looks out from its eyes.
Even so, beloved Eva! fair star of thy dwelling! Thou art passing away;
but they that love thee dearest know it not.
The colloquy between Tom and Eva was interrupted by a hasty call from
Miss Ophelia.
“Eva—Eva!—why, child, the dew is falling; you mustn’t be out there!”
Eva and Tom hastened in.
Miss Ophelia was old, and skilled in the tactics of nursing. She was
from New England, and knew well the first guileful footsteps of that
soft, insidious disease, which sweeps away so many of the fairest and
loveliest, and, before one fibre of life seems broken, seals them
irrevocably for death.
She had noted the slight, dry cough, the daily brightening cheek; nor
could the lustre of the eye, and the airy buoyancy born of fever,
deceive her.
She tried to communicate her fears to St. Clare; but he threw back her
suggestions with a restless petulance, unlike his usual careless
good-humor.
“Don’t be croaking, Cousin,—I hate it!” he would say; “don’t you see
that the child is only growing. Children always lose strength when they
grow fast.”
“But she has that cough!”
“O! nonsense of that cough!—it is not anything. She has taken a little
cold, perhaps.”
“Well, that was just the way Eliza Jane was taken, and Ellen and Maria
Sanders.”
“O! stop these hobgoblin’ nurse legends. You old hands got so wise,
that a child cannot cough, or sneeze, but you see desperation and ruin
at hand. Only take care of the child, keep her from the night air, and
don’t let her play too hard, and she’ll do well enough.”
So St. Clare said; but he grew nervous and restless. He watched Eva
feverishly day by day, as might be told by the frequency with which he
repeated over that “the child was quite well”—that there wasn’t
anything in that cough,—it was only some little stomach affection, such
as children often had. But he kept by her more than before, took her
oftener to ride with him, brought home every few days some receipt or
strengthening mixture,—“not,” he said, “that the child _needed_ it, but
then it would not do her any harm.”
If it must be told, the thing that struck a deeper pang to his heart
than anything else was the daily increasing maturity of the child’s
mind and feelings. While still retaining all a child’s fanciful graces,
yet she often dropped, unconsciously, words of such a reach of thought,
and strange unworldly wisdom, that they seemed to be an inspiration. At
such times, St. Clare would feel a sudden thrill, and clasp her in his
arms, as if that fond clasp could save her; and his heart rose up with
wild determination to keep her, never to let her go.
The child’s whole heart and soul seemed absorbed in works of love and
kindness. Impulsively generous she had always been; but there was a
touching and womanly thoughtfulness about her now, that every one
noticed. She still loved to play with Topsy, and the various colored
children; but she now seemed rather a spectator than an actor of their
plays, and she would sit for half an hour at a time, laughing at the
odd tricks of Topsy,—and then a shadow would seem to pass across her
face, her eyes grew misty, and her thoughts were afar.
“Mamma,” she said, suddenly, to her mother, one day, “why don’t we
teach our servants to read?”
“What a question child! People never do.”
“Why don’t they?” said Eva.
“Because it is no use for them to read. It don’t help them to work any
better, and they are not made for anything else.”
“But they ought to read the Bible, mamma, to learn God’s will.”
“O! they can get that read to them all _they_ need.”
“It seems to me, mamma, the Bible is for every one to read themselves.
They need it a great many times when there is nobody to read it.”
“Eva, you are an odd child,” said her mother.
“Miss Ophelia has taught Topsy to read,” continued Eva.
“Yes, and you see how much good it does. Topsy is the worst creature I
ever saw!”
“Here’s poor Mammy!” said Eva. “She does love the Bible so much, and
wishes so she could read! And what will she do when I can’t read to
her?”
Marie was busy, turning over the contents of a drawer, as she answered,
“Well, of course, by and by, Eva, you will have other things to think
of besides reading the Bible round to servants. Not but that is very
proper; I’ve done it myself, when I had health. But when you come to be
dressing and going into company, you won’t have time. See here!” she
added, “these jewels I’m going to give you when you come out. I wore
them to my first ball. I can tell you, Eva, I made a sensation.”
Eva took the jewel-case, and lifted from it a diamond necklace. Her
large, thoughtful eyes rested on them, but it was plain her thoughts
were elsewhere.
“How sober you look child!” said Marie.
“Are these worth a great deal of money, mamma?”
“To be sure, they are. Father sent to France for them. They are worth a
small fortune.”
“I wish I had them,” said Eva, “to do what I pleased with!”
“What would you do with them?”
“I’d sell them, and buy a place in the free states, and take all our
people there, and hire teachers, to teach them to read and write.”
Eva was cut short by her mother’s laughing.
“Set up a boarding-school! Wouldn’t you teach them to play on the
piano, and paint on velvet?”
“I’d teach them to read their own Bible, and write their own letters,
and read letters that are written to them,” said Eva, steadily. “I
know, mamma, it does come very hard on them that they can’t do these
things. Tom feels it—Mammy does,—a great many of them do. I think it’s
wrong.”
“Come, come, Eva; you are only a child! You don’t know anything about
these things,” said Marie; “besides, your talking makes my head ache.”
Marie always had a headache on hand for any conversation that did not
exactly suit her.
Eva stole away; but after that, she assiduously gave Mammy reading
lessons.