第 十一 章 · In Which Property Gets into an Improper State of Mind
. In Which Property Gets into an Improper State of Mind
It was late in a drizzly afternoon that a traveler alighted at the door
of a small country hotel, in the village of N——, in Kentucky. In the
barroom he found assembled quite a miscellaneous company, whom stress
of weather had driven to harbor, and the place presented the usual
scenery of such reunions. Great, tall, raw-boned Kentuckians, attired
in hunting-shirts, and trailing their loose joints over a vast extent
of territory, with the easy lounge peculiar to the race,—rifles stacked
away in the corner, shot-pouches, game-bags, hunting-dogs, and little
negroes, all rolled together in the corners,—were the characteristic
features in the picture. At each end of the fireplace sat a long-legged
gentleman, with his chair tipped back, his hat on his head, and the
heels of his muddy boots reposing sublimely on the mantel-piece,—a
position, we will inform our readers, decidedly favorable to the turn
of reflection incident to western taverns, where travellers exhibit a
decided preference for this particular mode of elevating their
understandings.
Mine host, who stood behind the bar, like most of his country men, was
great of stature, good-natured and loose-jointed, with an enormous
shock of hair on his head, and a great tall hat on the top of that.
In fact, everybody in the room bore on his head this characteristic
emblem of man’s sovereignty; whether it were felt hat, palm-leaf,
greasy beaver, or fine new chapeau, there it reposed with true
republican independence. In truth, it appeared to be the characteristic
mark of every individual. Some wore them tipped rakishly to one
side—these were your men of humor, jolly, free-and-easy dogs; some had
them jammed independently down over their noses—these were your hard
characters, thorough men, who, when they wore their hats, _wanted_ to
wear them, and to wear them just as they had a mind to; there were
those who had them set far over back—wide-awake men, who wanted a clear
prospect; while careless men, who did not know, or care, how their hats
sat, had them shaking about in all directions. The various hats, in
fact, were quite a Shakespearean study.
Divers negroes, in very free-and-easy pantaloons, and with no
redundancy in the shirt line, were scuttling about, hither and thither,
without bringing to pass any very particular results, except expressing
a generic willingness to turn over everything in creation generally for
the benefit of Mas’r and his guests. Add to this picture a jolly,
crackling, rollicking fire, going rejoicingly up a great wide
chimney,—the outer door and every window being set wide open, and the
calico window-curtain flopping and snapping in a good stiff breeze of
damp raw air,—and you have an idea of the jollities of a Kentucky
tavern.
Your Kentuckian of the present day is a good illustration of the
doctrine of transmitted instincts and peculiarities. His fathers were
mighty hunters,—men who lived in the woods, and slept under the free,
open heavens, with the stars to hold their candles; and their
descendant to this day always acts as if the house were his camp,—wears
his hat at all hours, tumbles himself about, and puts his heels on the
tops of chairs or mantelpieces, just as his father rolled on the green
sward, and put his upon trees and logs,—keeps all the windows and doors
open, winter and summer, that he may get air enough for his great
lungs,—calls everybody “stranger,” with nonchalant _bonhommie_, and is
altogether the frankest, easiest, most jovial creature living.
Into such an assembly of the free and easy our traveller entered. He
was a short, thick-set man, carefully dressed, with a round,
good-natured countenance, and something rather fussy and particular in
his appearance. He was very careful of his valise and umbrella,
bringing them in with his own hands, and resisting, pertinaciously, all
offers from the various servants to relieve him of them. He looked
round the barroom with rather an anxious air, and, retreating with his
valuables to the warmest corner, disposed them under his chair, sat
down, and looked rather apprehensively up at the worthy whose heels
illustrated the end of the mantel-piece, who was spitting from right to
left, with a courage and energy rather alarming to gentlemen of weak
nerves and particular habits.
“I say, stranger, how are ye?” said the aforesaid gentleman, firing an
honorary salute of tobacco-juice in the direction of the new arrival.
“Well, I reckon,” was the reply of the other, as he dodged, with some
alarm, the threatening honor.
“Any news?” said the respondent, taking out a strip of tobacco and a
large hunting-knife from his pocket.
“Not that I know of,” said the man.
“Chaw?” said the first speaker, handing the old gentleman a bit of his
tobacco, with a decidedly brotherly air.
“No, thank ye—it don’t agree with me,” said the little man, edging off.
“Don’t, eh?” said the other, easily, and stowing away the morsel in his
own mouth, in order to keep up the supply of tobacco-juice, for the
general benefit of society.
The old gentleman uniformly gave a little start whenever his long-sided
brother fired in his direction; and this being observed by his
companion, he very good-naturedly turned his artillery to another
quarter, and proceeded to storm one of the fire-irons with a degree of
military talent fully sufficient to take a city.
“What’s that?” said the old gentleman, observing some of the company
formed in a group around a large handbill.
“Nigger advertised!” said one of the company, briefly.
Mr. Wilson, for that was the old gentleman’s name, rose up, and, after
carefully adjusting his valise and umbrella, proceeded deliberately to
take out his spectacles and fix them on his nose; and, this operation
being performed, read as follows:
“Ran away from the subscriber, my mulatto boy, George. Said George six
feet in height, a very light mulatto, brown curly hair; is very
intelligent, speaks handsomely, can read and write, will probably try
to pass for a white man, is deeply scarred on his back and shoulders,
has been branded in his right hand with the letter H.
“I will give four hundred dollars for him alive, and the same sum
for satisfactory proof that he has been _killed.”_
The old gentleman read this advertisement from end to end in a low
voice, as if he were studying it.
The long-legged veteran, who had been besieging the fire-iron, as
before related, now took down his cumbrous length, and rearing aloft
his tall form, walked up to the advertisement and very deliberately
spit a full discharge of tobacco-juice on it.
“There’s my mind upon that!” said he, briefly, and sat down again.
“Why, now, stranger, what’s that for?” said mine host.
“I’d do it all the same to the writer of that ar paper, if he was
here,” said the long man, coolly resuming his old employment of cutting
tobacco. “Any man that owns a boy like that, and can’t find any better
way o’ treating on him, _deserves_ to lose him. Such papers as these is
a shame to Kentucky; that’s my mind right out, if anybody wants to
know!”
“Well, now, that’s a fact,” said mine host, as he made an entry in his
book.
“I’ve got a gang of boys, sir,” said the long man, resuming his attack
on the fire-irons, “and I jest tells ’em—‘Boys,’ says I,—‘_run_ now!
dig! put! jest when ye want to! I never shall come to look after you!’
That’s the way I keep mine. Let ’em know they are free to run any time,
and it jest breaks up their wanting to. More ’n all, I’ve got free
papers for ’em all recorded, in case I gets keeled up any o’ these
times, and they know it; and I tell ye, stranger, there an’t a fellow
in our parts gets more out of his niggers than I do. Why, my boys have
been to Cincinnati, with five hundred dollars’ worth of colts, and
brought me back the money, all straight, time and agin. It stands to
reason they should. Treat ’em like dogs, and you’ll have dogs’ works
and dogs’ actions. Treat ’em like men, and you’ll have men’s works.”
And the honest drover, in his warmth, endorsed this moral sentiment by
firing a perfect _feu de joi_ at the fireplace.
“I think you’re altogether right, friend,” said Mr. Wilson; “and this
boy described here _is_ a fine fellow—no mistake about that. He worked
for me some half-dozen years in my bagging factory, and he was my best
hand, sir. He is an ingenious fellow, too: he invented a machine for
the cleaning of hemp—a really valuable affair; it’s gone into use in
several factories. His master holds the patent of it.”
“I’ll warrant ye,” said the drover, “holds it and makes money out of
it, and then turns round and brands the boy in his right hand. If I had
a fair chance, I’d mark him, I reckon so that he’d carry it _one_
while.”
“These yer knowin’ boys is allers aggravatin’ and sarcy,” said a
coarse-looking fellow, from the other side of the room; “that’s why
they gets cut up and marked so. If they behaved themselves, they
wouldn’t.”
“That is to say, the Lord made ’em men, and it’s a hard squeeze gettin
’em down into beasts,” said the drover, dryly.
“Bright niggers isn’t no kind of ’vantage to their masters,” continued
the other, well entrenched, in a coarse, unconscious obtuseness, from
the contempt of his opponent; “what’s the use o’ talents and them
things, if you can’t get the use on ’em yourself? Why, all the use they
make on ’t is to get round you. I’ve had one or two of these fellers,
and I jest sold ’em down river. I knew I’d got to lose ’em, first or
last, if I didn’t.”
“Better send orders up to the Lord, to make you a set, and leave out
their souls entirely,” said the drover.
Here the conversation was interrupted by the approach of a small
one-horse buggy to the inn. It had a genteel appearance, and a
well-dressed, gentlemanly man sat on the seat, with a colored servant
driving.
The whole party examined the new comer with the interest with which a
set of loafers in a rainy day usually examine every newcomer. He was
very tall, with a dark, Spanish complexion, fine, expressive black
eyes, and close-curling hair, also of a glossy blackness. His
well-formed aquiline nose, straight thin lips, and the admirable
contour of his finely-formed limbs, impressed the whole company
instantly with the idea of something uncommon. He walked easily in
among the company, and with a nod indicated to his waiter where to
place his trunk, bowed to the company, and, with his hat in his hand,
walked up leisurely to the bar, and gave in his name as Henry Butter,
Oaklands, Shelby County. Turning, with an indifferent air, he sauntered
up to the advertisement, and read it over.
“Jim,” he said to his man, “seems to me we met a boy something like
this, up at Beman’s, didn’t we?”
“Yes, Mas’r,” said Jim, “only I an’t sure about the hand.”
“Well, I didn’t look, of course,” said the stranger with a careless
yawn. Then walking up to the landlord, he desired him to furnish him
with a private apartment, as he had some writing to do immediately.
The landlord was all obsequious, and a relay of about seven negroes,
old and young, male and female, little and big, were soon whizzing
about, like a covey of partridges, bustling, hurrying, treading on each
other’s toes, and tumbling over each other, in their zeal to get
Mas’r’s room ready, while he seated himself easily on a chair in the
middle of the room, and entered into conversation with the man who sat
next to him.
The manufacturer, Mr. Wilson, from the time of the entrance of the
stranger, had regarded him with an air of disturbed and uneasy
curiosity. He seemed to himself to have met and been acquainted with
him somewhere, but he could not recollect. Every few moments, when the
man spoke, or moved, or smiled, he would start and fix his eyes on him,
and then suddenly withdraw them, as the bright, dark eyes met his with
such unconcerned coolness. At last, a sudden recollection seemed to
flash upon him, for he stared at the stranger with such an air of blank
amazement and alarm, that he walked up to him.
“Mr. Wilson, I think,” said he, in a tone of recognition, and extending
his hand. “I beg your pardon, I didn’t recollect you before. I see you
remember me,—Mr. Butler, of Oaklands, Shelby County.”
“Ye—yes—yes, sir,” said Mr. Wilson, like one speaking in a dream.
Just then a negro boy entered, and announced that Mas’r’s room was
ready.
“Jim, see to the trunks,” said the gentleman, negligently; then
addressing himself to Mr. Wilson, he added—“I should like to have a few
moments’ conversation with you on business, in my room, if you please.”
Mr. Wilson followed him, as one who walks in his sleep; and they
proceeded to a large upper chamber, where a new-made fire was
crackling, and various servants flying about, putting finishing touches
to the arrangements.
When all was done, and the servants departed, the young man
deliberately locked the door, and putting the key in his pocket, faced
about, and folding his arms on his bosom, looked Mr. Wilson full in the
face.
“George!” said Mr. Wilson.
“Yes, George,” said the young man.
“I couldn’t have thought it!”
“I am pretty well disguised, I fancy,” said the young man, with a
smile. “A little walnut bark has made my yellow skin a genteel brown,
and I’ve dyed my hair black; so you see I don’t answer to the
advertisement at all.”
“O, George! but this is a dangerous game you are playing. I could not
have advised you to it.”
“I can do it on my own responsibility,” said George, with the same
proud smile.
We remark, _en passant_, that George was, by his father’s side, of
white descent. His mother was one of those unfortunates of her race,
marked out by personal beauty to be the slave of the passions of her
possessor, and the mother of children who may never know a father. From
one of the proudest families in Kentucky he had inherited a set of fine
European features, and a high, indomitable spirit. From his mother he
had received only a slight mulatto tinge, amply compensated by its
accompanying rich, dark eye. A slight change in the tint of the skin
and the color of his hair had metamorphosed him into the
Spanish-looking fellow he then appeared; and as gracefulness of
movement and gentlemanly manners had always been perfectly natural to
him, he found no difficulty in playing the bold part he had
adopted—that of a gentleman travelling with his domestic.
Mr. Wilson, a good-natured but extremely fidgety and cautious old
gentleman, ambled up and down the room, appearing, as John Bunyan hath
it, “much tumbled up and down in his mind,” and divided between his
wish to help George, and a certain confused notion of maintaining law
and order: so, as he shambled about, he delivered himself as follows:
“Well, George, I s’pose you’re running away—leaving your lawful master,
George—(I don’t wonder at it)—at the same time, I’m sorry, George,—yes,
decidedly—I think I must say that, George—it’s my duty to tell you so.”
“Why are you sorry, sir?” said George, calmly.
“Why, to see you, as it were, setting yourself in opposition to the
laws of your country.”
“_My_ country!” said George, with a strong and bitter emphasis; “what
country have I, but the grave,—and I wish to God that I was laid
there!”
“Why, George, no—no—it won’t do; this way of talking is
wicked—unscriptural. George, you’ve got a hard master—in fact, he
is—well he conducts himself reprehensibly—I can’t pretend to defend
him. But you know how the angel commanded Hagar to return to her
mistress, and submit herself under the hand;[1] and the apostle sent
back Onesimus to his master.”[2]
[1] Gen. 16. The angel bade the pregnant Hagar return to her mistress
Sarai, even though Sarai had dealt harshly with her.
[2] Phil. 1:10. Onesimus went back to his master to become no longer a
servant but a “brother beloved.”
“Don’t quote Bible at me that way, Mr. Wilson,” said George, with a
flashing eye, “don’t! for my wife is a Christian, and I mean to be, if
ever I get to where I can; but to quote Bible to a fellow in my
circumstances, is enough to make him give it up altogether. I appeal to
God Almighty;—I’m willing to go with the case to Him, and ask Him if I
do wrong to seek my freedom.”
“These feelings are quite natural, George,” said the good-natured man,
blowing his nose. “Yes, they’re natural, but it is my duty not to
encourage ’em in you. Yes, my boy, I’m sorry for you, now; it’s a bad
case—very bad; but the apostle says, ‘Let everyone abide in the
condition in which he is called.’ We must all submit to the indications
of Providence, George,—don’t you see?”
George stood with his head drawn back, his arms folded tightly over his
broad breast, and a bitter smile curling his lips.
“I wonder, Mr. Wilson, if the Indians should come and take you a
prisoner away from your wife and children, and want to keep you all
your life hoeing corn for them, if you’d think it your duty to abide in
the condition in which you were called. I rather think that you’d think
the first stray horse you could find an indication of
Providence—shouldn’t you?”
The little old gentleman stared with both eyes at this illustration of
the case; but, though not much of a reasoner, he had the sense in which
some logicians on this particular subject do not excel,—that of saying
nothing, where nothing could be said. So, as he stood carefully
stroking his umbrella, and folding and patting down all the creases in
it, he proceeded on with his exhortations in a general way.
“You see, George, you know, now, I always have stood your friend; and
whatever I’ve said, I’ve said for your good. Now, here, it seems to me,
you’re running an awful risk. You can’t hope to carry it out. If you’re
taken, it will be worse with you than ever; they’ll only abuse you, and
half kill you, and sell you down the river.”
“Mr. Wilson, I know all this,” said George. “I _do_ run a risk, but—”
he threw open his overcoat, and showed two pistols and a bowie-knife.
“There!” he said, “I’m ready for ’em! Down south I never _will_ go. No!
if it comes to that, I can earn myself at least six feet of free
soil,—the first and last I shall ever own in Kentucky!”
“Why, George, this state of mind is awful; it’s getting really
desperate George. I’m concerned. Going to break the laws of your
country!”
“My country again! Mr. Wilson, _you_ have a country; but what country
have _I_, or any one like me, born of slave mothers? What laws are
there for us? We don’t make them,—we don’t consent to them,—we have
nothing to do with them; all they do for us is to crush us, and keep us
down. Haven’t I heard your Fourth-of-July speeches? Don’t you tell us
all, once a year, that governments derive their just power from the
consent of the governed? Can’t a fellow _think_, that hears such
things? Can’t he put this and that together, and see what it comes to?”
Mr. Wilson’s mind was one of those that may not unaptly be represented
by a bale of cotton,—downy, soft, benevolently fuzzy and confused. He
really pitied George with all his heart, and had a sort of dim and
cloudy perception of the style of feeling that agitated him; but he
deemed it his duty to go on talking _good_ to him, with infinite
pertinacity.
“George, this is bad. I must tell you, you know, as a friend, you’d
better not be meddling with such notions; they are bad, George, very
bad, for boys in your condition,—very;” and Mr. Wilson sat down to a
table, and began nervously chewing the handle of his umbrella.
“See here, now, Mr. Wilson,” said George, coming up and sitting himself
determinately down in front of him; “look at me, now. Don’t I sit
before you, every way, just as much a man as you are? Look at my
face,—look at my hands,—look at my body,” and the young man drew
himself up proudly; “why am I _not_ a man, as much as anybody? Well,
Mr. Wilson, hear what I can tell you. I had a father—one of your
Kentucky gentlemen—who didn’t think enough of me to keep me from being
sold with his dogs and horses, to satisfy the estate, when he died. I
saw my mother put up at sheriff’s sale, with her seven children. They
were sold before her eyes, one by one, all to different masters; and I
was the youngest. She came and kneeled down before old Mas’r, and
begged him to buy her with me, that she might have at least one child
with her; and he kicked her away with his heavy boot. I saw him do it;
and the last that I heard was her moans and screams, when I was tied to
his horse’s neck, to be carried off to his place.”
“Well, then?”
“My master traded with one of the men, and bought my oldest sister. She
was a pious, good girl,—a member of the Baptist church,—and as handsome
as my poor mother had been. She was well brought up, and had good
manners. At first, I was glad she was bought, for I had one friend near
me. I was soon sorry for it. Sir, I have stood at the door and heard
her whipped, when it seemed as if every blow cut into my naked heart,
and I couldn’t do anything to help her; and she was whipped, sir, for
wanting to live a decent Christian life, such as your laws give no
slave girl a right to live; and at last I saw her chained with a
trader’s gang, to be sent to market in Orleans,—sent there for nothing
else but that,—and that’s the last I know of her. Well, I grew up,—long
years and years,—no father, no mother, no sister, not a living soul
that cared for me more than a dog; nothing but whipping, scolding,
starving. Why, sir, I’ve been so hungry that I have been glad to take
the bones they threw to their dogs; and yet, when I was a little
fellow, and laid awake whole nights and cried, it wasn’t the hunger, it
wasn’t the whipping, I cried for. No, sir, it was for _my mother_ and
_my sisters_,—it was because I hadn’t a friend to love me on earth. I
never knew what peace or comfort was. I never had a kind word spoken to
me till I came to work in your factory. Mr. Wilson, you treated me
well; you encouraged me to do well, and to learn to read and write, and
to try to make something of myself; and God knows how grateful I am for
it. Then, sir, I found my wife; you’ve seen her,—you know how beautiful
she is. When I found she loved me, when I married her, I scarcely could
believe I was alive, I was so happy; and, sir, she is as good as she is
beautiful. But now what? Why, now comes my master, takes me right away
from my work, and my friends, and all I like, and grinds me down into
the very dirt! And why? Because, he says, I forgot who I was; he says,
to teach me that I am only a nigger! After all, and last of all, he
comes between me and my wife, and says I shall give her up, and live
with another woman. And all this your laws give him power to do, in
spite of God or man. Mr. Wilson, look at it! There isn’t _one_ of all
these things, that have broken the hearts of my mother and my sister,
and my wife and myself, but your laws allow, and give every man power
to do, in Kentucky, and none can say to him nay! Do you call these the
laws of _my_ country? Sir, I haven’t any country, anymore than I have
any father. But I’m going to have one. I don’t want anything of _your_
country, except to be let alone,—to go peaceably out of it; and when I
get to Canada, where the laws will own me and protect me, _that_ shall
be my country, and its laws I will obey. But if any man tries to stop
me, let him take care, for I am desperate. I’ll fight for my liberty to
the last breath I breathe. You say your fathers did it; if it was right
for them, it is right for me!”
This speech, delivered partly while sitting at the table, and partly
walking up and down the room,—delivered with tears, and flashing eyes,
and despairing gestures,—was altogether too much for the good-natured
old body to whom it was addressed, who had pulled out a great yellow
silk pocket-handkerchief, and was mopping up his face with great
energy.
“Blast ’em all!” he suddenly broke out. “Haven’t I always said so—the
infernal old cusses! I hope I an’t swearing, now. Well! go ahead,
George, go ahead; but be careful, my boy; don’t shoot anybody, George,
unless—well—you’d _better_ not shoot, I reckon; at least, I wouldn’t
_hit_ anybody, you know. Where is your wife, George?” he added, as he
nervously rose, and began walking the room.
“Gone, sir gone, with her child in her arms, the Lord only knows
where;—gone after the north star; and when we ever meet, or whether we
meet at all in this world, no creature can tell.”
“Is it possible! astonishing! from such a kind family?”
“Kind families get in debt, and the laws of _our_ country allow them to
sell the child out of its mother’s bosom to pay its master’s debts,”
said George, bitterly.
“Well, well,” said the honest old man, fumbling in his pocket: “I
s’pose, perhaps, I an’t following my judgment,—hang it, I _won’t_
follow my judgment!” he added, suddenly; “so here, George,” and, taking
out a roll of bills from his pocket-book, he offered them to George.
“No, my kind, good sir!” said George, “you’ve done a great deal for me,
and this might get you into trouble. I have money enough, I hope, to
take me as far as I need it.”
“No; but you must, George. Money is a great help everywhere;—can’t have
too much, if you get it honestly. Take it,—_do_ take it, _now_,—do, my
boy!”
“On condition, sir, that I may repay it at some future time, I will,”
said George, taking up the money.
“And now, George, how long are you going to travel in this way?—not
long or far, I hope. It’s well carried on, but too bold. And this black
fellow,—who is he?”
“A true fellow, who went to Canada more than a year ago. He heard,
after he got there, that his master was so angry at him for going off
that he had whipped his poor old mother; and he has come all the way
back to comfort her, and get a chance to get her away.”
“Has he got her?”
“Not yet; he has been hanging about the place, and found no chance yet.
Meanwhile, he is going with me as far as Ohio, to put me among friends
that helped him, and then he will come back after her.
“Dangerous, very dangerous!” said the old man.
George drew himself up, and smiled disdainfully.
The old gentleman eyed him from head to foot, with a sort of innocent
wonder.
“George, something has brought you out wonderfully. You hold up your
head, and speak and move like another man,” said Mr. Wilson.
“Because I’m a _freeman_!” said George, proudly. “Yes, sir; I’ve said
Mas’r for the last time to any man. _I’m free!”_
“Take care! You are not sure,—you may be taken.”
“All men are free and equal _in the grave_, if it comes to that, Mr.
Wilson,” said George.
“I’m perfectly dumb-founded with your boldness!” said Mr. Wilson,—“to
come right here to the nearest tavern!”
“Mr. Wilson, it is _so_ bold, and this tavern is so near, that they
will never think of it; they will look for me on ahead, and you
yourself wouldn’t know me. Jim’s master don’t live in this county; he
isn’t known in these parts. Besides, he is given up; nobody is looking
after him, and nobody will take me up from the advertisement, I think.”
“But the mark in your hand?”
George drew off his glove, and showed a newly-healed scar in his hand.
“That is a parting proof of Mr. Harris’ regard,” he said, scornfully.
“A fortnight ago, he took it into his head to give it to me, because he
said he believed I should try to get away one of these days. Looks
interesting, doesn’t it?” he said, drawing his glove on again.
“I declare, my very blood runs cold when I think of it,—your condition
and your risks!” said Mr. Wilson.
“Mine has run cold a good many years, Mr. Wilson; at present, it’s
about up to the boiling point,” said George.
“Well, my good sir,” continued George, after a few moments’ silence, “I
saw you knew me; I thought I’d just have this talk with you, lest your
surprised looks should bring me out. I leave early tomorrow morning,
before daylight; by tomorrow night I hope to sleep safe in Ohio. I
shall travel by daylight, stop at the best hotels, go to the
dinner-tables with the lords of the land. So, good-by, sir; if you hear
that I’m taken, you may know that I’m dead!”
George stood up like a rock, and put out his hand with the air of a
prince. The friendly little old man shook it heartily, and after a
little shower of caution, he took his umbrella, and fumbled his way out
of the room.
George stood thoughtfully looking at the door, as the old man closed
it. A thought seemed to flash across his mind. He hastily stepped to
it, and opening it, said,
“Mr. Wilson, one word more.”
The old gentleman entered again, and George, as before, locked the
door, and then stood for a few moments looking on the floor,
irresolutely. At last, raising his head with a sudden effort—“Mr.
Wilson, you have shown yourself a Christian in your treatment of me,—I
want to ask one last deed of Christian kindness of you.”
“Well, George.”
“Well, sir,—what you said was true. I _am_ running a dreadful risk.
There isn’t, on earth, a living soul to care if I die,” he added,
drawing his breath hard, and speaking with a great effort,—“I shall be
kicked out and buried like a dog, and nobody’ll think of it a day
after,—_only my poor wife!_ Poor soul! she’ll mourn and grieve; and if
you’d only contrive, Mr. Wilson, to send this little pin to her. She
gave it to me for a Christmas present, poor child! Give it to her, and
tell her I loved her to the last. Will you? _Will_ you?” he added,
earnestly.
“Yes, certainly—poor fellow!” said the old gentleman, taking the pin,
with watery eyes, and a melancholy quiver in his voice.
“Tell her one thing,” said George; “it’s my last wish, if she _can_ get
to Canada, to go there. No matter how kind her mistress is,—no matter
how much she loves her home; beg her not to go back,—for slavery always
ends in misery. Tell her to bring up our boy a free man, and then he
won’t suffer as I have. Tell her this, Mr. Wilson, will you?”
“Yes, George. I’ll tell her; but I trust you won’t die; take
heart,—you’re a brave fellow. Trust in the Lord, George. I wish in my
heart you were safe through, though,—that’s what I do.”
“_Is_ there a God to trust in?” said George, in such a tone of bitter
despair as arrested the old gentleman’s words. “O, I’ve seen things all
my life that have made me feel that there can’t be a God. You
Christians don’t know how these things look to us. There’s a God for
you, but is there any for us?”
“O, now, don’t—don’t, my boy!” said the old man, almost sobbing as he
spoke; “don’t feel so! There is—there is; clouds and darkness are
around about him, but righteousness and judgment are the habitation of
his throne. There’s a _God_, George,—believe it; trust in Him, and I’m
sure He’ll help you. Everything will be set right,—if not in this life,
in another.”
The real piety and benevolence of the simple old man invested him with
a temporary dignity and authority, as he spoke. George stopped his
distracted walk up and down the room, stood thoughtfully a moment, and
then said, quietly,
“Thank you for saying that, my good friend; I’ll _think of that_.”