Bab Bab 5 · “Won’t you go fishing?” asked Red Shirt. He talks in a strangely
. “Won’t you go fishing?” asked Red Shirt. He talks in a strangely
womanish voice. One would not be able to tell whether he was a man or a
woman. As a man he should talk like one. Is he not a college graduate?
I can talk man-like enough, and am a graduate from a school of physics
at that. It is a shame for a B.A. to have such a squeak.
I answered with the smallest enthusiasm, whereupon he further asked me
an impolite question if I ever did fishing. I told him not much, that I
once caught three gibels when I was a boy, at a fishing game pond at
Koume, and that I also caught a carp about eight inches long, at a
similar game at the festival of Bishamon at Kagurazaka;—the carp, just
as I was coaxing it out of the water, splashed back into it, and when I
think of the incident I feel mortified at the loss even now. Red Shirt
stuck out his chin and laughed “ho, ho.” Why could he not laugh just
like an ordinary person? “Then you are not well acquainted with the
spirit of the game,” he cried. “I’ll show you if you like.” He seemed
highly elated.
Not for me! I take it this way that generally those who are fond of
fishing or shooting have cruel hearts. Otherwise, there is no reason
why they could derive pleasure in murdering innocent creatures. Surely,
fish and birds would prefer living to getting killed. Except those who
make fishing or shooting their calling, it is nonsense for those who
are well off to say that they cannot sleep well unless they seek the
lives of fish or birds. This was the way I looked at the question, but
as he was a B. A. and would have a better command of language when it
came to talking, I kept mum, knowing he would beat me in argument. Red
Shirt mistook my silence for my surrender, and began to induce me to
join him right away, saying he would show me some fish and I should
come with him if I was not busy, because he and Mr. Yoshikawa were
lonesome when alone. Mr. Yoshikawa is the teacher of drawing whom I had
nicknamed Clown. I don’t know what’s in the mind of this Clown, but he
was a constant visitor at the house of Red Shirt, and wherever he went,
Clown was sure to be trailing after him. They appeared more like master
and servant than two fellow teachers. As Clown used to follow Red Shirt
like a shadow, it would be natural to see them go off together now, but
when those two alone would have been well off, why should they invite
me,—this brusque, unaesthetic fellow,—was hard to understand. Probably,
vain of his fishing ability, he desired to show his skill, but he aimed
at the wrong mark, if that was his intention, as nothing of the kind
would touch me. I would not be chagrined if he fishes out two or three
tunnies. I am a man myself and poor though I may be in the art, I would
hook something if I dropped a line. If I declined his invitation, Red
Shirt would suspect that I refused not because of my lack of interest
in the game but because of my want of skill of fishing. I weighed the
matter thus, and accepted his invitation. After the school, I returned
home and got ready, and having joined Red Shirt and Clown at the
station, we three started to the shore. There was only one boatman to
row; the boat was long and narrow, a kind we do not have in Tokyo. I
looked for fishing rods but could find none.
“How can we fish without rods? How are we going to manage it?” I asked
Clown and he told me with the air of a professional fisherman that no
rods were needed in the deep-sea fishing, but only lines. I had better
not asked him if I was to be talked down in this way.
The boatman was rowing very slowly, but his skill was something
wonderful. We had already come far out to sea, and on turning back, saw
the shore minimized, fading in far distance. The five-storied pagoda of
Tosho Temple appeared above the surrounding woods like a needle-point.
Yonder stood Aoshima (Blue Island). Nobody was living on this island
which a closer view showed to be covered with stones and pine trees. No
wonder no one could live there. Red Shirt was intently surveying about
and praising the general view as fine. Clown also termed it “an
absolutely fine view.” I don’t know whether it is so fine as to be
absolute, but there was no doubt as to the exhilarating air. I realized
it as the best tonic to be thus blown by the fresh sea breeze upon a
wide expanse of water. I felt hungry.
“Look at that pine; its trunk is straight and spreads its top branches
like an umbrella. Isn’t it a Turnersque picture?” said Red Shirt. “Yes,
just like Turner’s,” responded Clown, “Isn’t the way it curves just
elegant? Exactly the touch of Turner,” he added with some show of
pride. I didn’t know what Turner was, but as I could get along without
knowing it, I kept silent. The boat turned to the left with the island
on the right. The sea was so perfectly calm as to tempt one to think he
was not on the deep sea. The pleasant occasion was a credit to Red
Shirt. As I wished, if possible, to land on the island, I asked the
boatman if our boat could not be made to it. Upon this Red Shirt
objected, saying that we could do so but it was not advisable to go too
close the shore for fishing. I kept still for a while. Then Clown made
the unlooked-for proposal that the island be named Turner Island.
“That’s good. We shall call it so hereafter,” seconded Red Shirt. If I
was included in that “We,” it was something I least cared for. Aoshima
was good enough for me. “By the way, how would it look,” said Clown,
“if we place Madonna by Raphael upon that rock? It would make a fine
picture.”
“Let’s quit talking about Madonna, ho, ho, ho,” and Red Shirt emitted a
spooky laugh.
“That’s all right. Nobody’s around,” remarked Clown as he glanced at
me, and turning his face to other direction significantly, smiled
devilishly. I felt sickened.
As it was none of my business whether it was a Madonna or a kodanna
(young master), they let pose there any old way, but it was vulgar to
feign assurance that one’s subject is in no danger of being understood
so long as others did not know the subject. Clown claims himself as a
Yedo kid. I thought that the person called Madonna was no other than a
favorite geisha of Red Shirt. I should smile at the idea of his gazing
at his tootsy-wootsy standing beneath a pine tree. It would be better
if Clown would make an oil painting of the scene and exhibit it for the
public.
“This will be about the best place.” So saying the boatman stopped
rowing the boat and dropped an anchor.
“How deep is it?” asked Red Shirt, and was told about six fathoms.
“Hard to fish sea-breams in six fathoms,” said Red Shirt as he dropped
a line into the water. The old sport appeared to expect to fetch some
bream. Bravo!
“It wouldn’t be hard for you. Besides it is calm,” Clown fawningly
remarked, and he too dropped a line. The line had only a tiny bit of
lead that looked like a weight. It had no float. To fish without a
float seemed as nearly reasonable as to measure the heat without a
thermometer, which was something impossible for me. So I looked on.
They then told me to start, and asked me if I had any line. I told them
I had more than I could use, but that I had no float.
“To say that one is unable to fish without a float shows that he is a
novice,” piped up Clown.
“See? When the line touches the bottom, you just manage it with your
finger on the edge. If a fish bites, you could tell in a minute. There
it goes,” and Red Shirt hastily started taking out the line. I wondered
what he had got, but I saw no fish, only the bait was gone. Ha, good
for you, Gov’nur!
“Wasn’t it too bad! I’m sure it was a big one. If you miss that way,
with your ability, we would have to keep a sharper watch to-day. But,
say, even if we miss the fish, it’s far better than staring at a float,
isn’t it? Just like saying he can’t ride a bike without a brake.” Clown
has been getting rather gay, and I was almost tempted to swat him. I’m
just as good as they are. The sea isn’t leased by Red Shirt, and there
might be one obliging bonito which might get caught by my line. I
dropped my line then, and toyed it with my finger carelessly.
After a while something shook my line with successive jerks. I thought
it must be a fish. Unless it was something living, it would not give
that tremulous shaking. Good! I have it, and I commenced drawing in the
line, while Clown jibed me “What? Caught one already? Very remarkable,
indeed!” I had drawn in nearly all the line, leaving only about five
feet in the water. I peeped over and saw a fish that looked like a gold
fish with stripes was coming up swimming to right and left. It was
interesting. On taking it out of the water, it wriggled and jumped, and
covered my face with water. After some effort, I had it and tried to
detach the hook, but it would not come out easily. My hands became
greasy and the sense was anything but pleasing. I was irritated; I
swung the line and banged the fish against the bottom of the boat. It
speedily died. Red Shirt and Clown watched me with surprise. I washed
my hands in the water but they still smelled “fishy.” No more for me! I
don’t care what fish I might get, I don’t want to grab a fish. And I
presume the fish doesn’t want to be grabbed either. I hastily rolled up
the line.
“Splendid for the first honor, but that’s goruki,” Clown again made a
“fresh” remark.
“Goruki sounds like the name of a Russian literator,” said Red Shirt.
“Yes, just like a Russian literator,” Clown at once seconded Red Shirt.
Gorky for a Russian literator, Maruki a photographer of Shibaku, and
komeno-naruki (rice) a life-giver, eh? This Red Shirt has a bad hobby
of marshalling before anybody the name of foreigners. Everybody has his
specialty. How could a teacher of mathematics like me tell whether it
is a Gorky or shariki (rikishaman). Red Shirt should have been a little
more considerate. And if he wants to mention such names at all, let him
mention “Autobiography of Ben Franklin,” or “Pushing to the Front,” or
something we all know. Red Shirt has been seen once in a while bringing
a magazine with a red cover entitled Imperial Literature to the school
and poring over it with reverence. I heard it from Porcupine that Red
Shirt gets his supply of all foreign names from that magazine. Well, I
should say!
For some time, Red Shirt and Clown fished assiduously and within about
an hour they caught about fifteen fish. The funny part of it was that
all they caught were goruki; of sea-bream there was not a sign.
“This is a day of bumper crop of Russian literature,” Red Shirt said,
and Clown answered:
“When one as skilled as you gets nothing but goruki, it’s natural for
me to get nothing else.”
The boatman told me that this small-sized fish goruki has too many tiny
bones and tastes too poor to be fit for eating, but they could be used
for fertilising. So Red Shirt and Clown were fishing fertilisers with
vim and vigor. As for me, one goruki was enough and I laid down myself
on the bottom, and looked up at the sky. This was far more dandy than
fishing.
Then the two began whispering. I could not hear well, nor did I care
to. I was looking up at the sky and thinking about Kiyo. If I had
enough of money, I thought, and came with Kiyo to such a picturesque
place, how joyous it would be. No matter how picturesque the scene
might be, it would be flat in the company of Clown or of his kind. Kiyo
is a poor wrinkled woman, but I am not ashamed to take her to any old
place. Clown or his likes, even in a Victoria or a yacht, or in a
sky-high position, would not be worthy to come within her shadow. If I
were the head teacher, and Red Shirt I, Clown would be sure to fawn on
me and jeer at Red Shirt. They say Yedo kids are flippant. Indeed, if a
fellow like Clown was to travel the country and repeatedly declare “I
am a Yedo kid,” no wonder the country folk would decide that the
flippant are Yedo kids and Yedo kids are flippant. While I was
meditating like this, I heard suppressed laughter. Between their laughs
they talked something, but I could not make out what they were talking
about. “Eh? I don’t know……” “…… That’s true …… he doesn’t know …… isn’t
it pity, though …….” “Can that be…….” “With grasshoppers …… that’s a
fact.”
I did not listen to what they were talking, but when I heard Clown say
“grasshoppers,” I cocked my ear instinctively. Clown emphasized, for
what reason I do not know the word “grasshopers” so that it would be
sure to reach my ear plainly, and he blurred the rest on purpose. I did
not move, and kept on listening. “That same old Hotta,” “that may be
the case….” “Tempura …… ha, ha, ha ……” “…… incited ……” “…… dango also?
……”
The words were thus choppy, but judging by their saying “grasshoppers,”
“tempura” or “dango,” I was sure they were secretly talking something
about me. If they wanted to talk, they should do it louder. If they
wanted to discuss something secret, why in thunder did they invite me?
What damnable blokes! Grasshoppers or glass-stoppers, I was not in the
wrong; I have kept quiet to save the face of Badger because the
principal asked me to leave the matter to him. Clown has been making
unnecessary criticisms; out with your old paint-brushes there! Whatever
concerns me, I will settle it myself sooner or later, and they had just
to keep off my toes. But remarks such as “the same old Hotta” or “……
incited ……” worried me a bit. I could not make out whether they meant
that Hotta incited me to extend the circle of the trouble, or that he
incited the students to get at me. As I gazed at the blue sky, the
sunlight gradually waned and chilly winds commenced stirring. The
clouds that resembled the streaky smokes of joss sticks were slowly
extending over a clear sky, and by degrees they were absorbed, melted
and changed to a faint fog.
“Well, let’s be going,” said Red Shirt suddenly. “Yes, this is the
time we were going. See your Madonna to-night?” responded Clown. “Cut
out nonsense …… might mean a serious trouble,” said Red Shirt who was
reclining against the edge of the boat, now raising himself. “O,
that’s all right if he hears ...,” and when Clown, so saying, turned
himself my way, I glared squarely in his face. Clown turned back as if
to keep away from a dazzling light, and with “Ha, this is going some,”
shrugged his shoulders and scratched his head.
The boat was now being rowed shore-ward over the calm sea. “You don’t
seem much fond of fishing,” asked Red Shirt. “No, I’d rather prefer
lying and looking at the sky,” I answered, and threw the stub of
cigarette I had been smoking into the water; it sizzled and floated on
the waves parted by the oar.
“The students are all glad because you have come. So we want you do
your best.” Red Shirt this time started something quite alien to
fishing. “I don’t think they are,” I said. “Yes; I don’t mean it as
flattery. They are, sure. Isn’t it so, Mr. Yoshikawa?”
“I should say they are. They’re crazy over it,” said Clown with an
unctuous smile. Strange that whatever Clown says, it makes me itching
mad. “But, if you don’t look out, there is danger,” warned Red Shirt.
“I am fully prepared for all dangers,” I replied. In fact, I had made
up my mind either to get fired or to make all the students in the
dormitory apologize to me.
“If you talk that way, that cuts everything out. Really, as a head
teacher, I’ve been considering what is good for you, and wouldn’t like
you to mistake it.”
“The head teacher is really your friend. And I’m doing what I can for
you, though mighty little, because you and I are Yedo kids, and I would
like to have you stay with us as long as possible and we can help each
other.” So said Clown and it sounded almost human. I would sooner hang
myself than to get helped by Clown.
“And the students are all glad because you had come, but there are many
circumstances,” continued Red Shirt. “You may feel angry sometimes but
be patient for the present, and I will never do anything to hurt your
interests.”
“You say ‘many circumstances’; what are they?”
“They’re rather complicated. Well, they’ll be clear to you by and by.
You’ll understand them naturally without my talking them over. What do
you say, Mr. Yoshikawa?”
“Yes, they’re pretty complicated; hard to get them cleared up in a
jiffy. But they’ll become clear by-the-bye. Will be understood
naturally without my explaining them,” Clown echoed Red Shirt.
“If they’re such a bother, I don’t mind not hearing them. I only asked
you because you sprang the subject.”
“That’s right. I may seem irresponsible in not concluding the thing I
had started. Then this much I’ll tell you. I mean no offense, but you
are fresh from school, and teaching is a new experience. And a school
is a place where somewhat complicated private circumstances are common
and one cannot do everything straight and simple.”
“If can’t get it through straight and simple, how does it go?”
“Well, there you are so straight as that. As I was saying, you’re short
of experience....”
“I should be. As I wrote it down in my record-sheet, I’m 23 years and
four months.”
“That’s it. So you’d be done by some one in unexpected quarter.”
“I’m not afraid who might do me as long as I’m honest.”
“Certainly not. No need be afraid, but I do say you look sharp; your
predecessor was done.”
I noticed Clown had become quiet, and turning round, saw him at the
stern talking with the boatman. Without Clown, I found our conversation
running smoothly.
“By whom was my predecessor done?”
“If I point out the name, it would reflect on the honor of that person,
so I can’t mention it. Besides there is no evidence to prove it and I
may be in a bad fix if I say it. At any rate, since you’re here, my
efforts will prove nothing if you fail. Keep a sharp look-out, please.”
“You say look-out, but I can’t be more watchful than I’m now. If I
don’t do anything wrong, after all, that’s all right isn’t it?”
Red Shirt laughed. I did not remember having said anything provocative
of laughter. Up to this very minute, I have been firm in my conviction
that I’m right. When I come to consider the situation, it appears that
a majority of people are encouraging others to become bad. They seem to
believe that one must do wrong in order to succeed. If they happen to
see some one honest and pure, they sneer at him as “Master Darling” or
“kiddy.” What’s the use then of the instructors of ethics at grammar
schools or middle schools teaching children not to tell a lie or to be
honest. Better rather make a bold departure and teach at schools the
gentle art of lying or the trick of distrusting others, or show pupils
how to do others. That would be beneficial for the person thus taught
and for the public as well. When Red Shirt laughed, he laughed at my
simplicity. My word! what chances have the simple-hearted or the pure
in a society where they are made objects of contempt! Kiyo would never
laugh at such a time; she would listen with profound respect. Kiyo is
far superior to Red Shirt.
“Of course, that’t all right as long as you don’t do anything wrong.
But although you may not do anything wrong, they will do you just the
same unless you can see the wrong of others. There are fellows you have
got to watch,—the fellows who may appear off-hand, simple and so kind
as to get boarding house for you…… Getting rather cold. ’Tis already
autumn, isn’t it. The beach looks beer-color in the fog. A fine view.
Say, Mr. Yoshikawa, what do you think of the scene along the beach?……”
This in a loud voice was addressed to Clown.
“Indeed, this is a fine view. I’d get a sketch of it if I had time.
Seems a pity to leave it there,” answered Clown.
A light was seen upstairs at Minato-ya, and just as the whistle of a
train was sounded, our boat pushed its nose deep into the sand. “Well,
so you’re back early,” courtesied the wife of the boatman as she
stepped upon the sand. I stood on the edge of the boat; and whoop! I
jumped out to the beach.
CHAPTER 6. I heartily despise Clown. It would be beneficial for Japan if